When you write do you think of me? The one who gave you the ideas for everything you penned.
When you laugh with your friends do you think of me? The one who introduced you to them.
When you love your partner do you think of me? The one who pushed you both together.
Do you also lay awake at night thinking of me? Do you have regrets of that night? If I said or waited a bit more would you have responded to my pleading? Why was it so easy for you to take his side, when I was the one who care to ask your favorite bird.. I cant believe I still remember that, I can't believe after 2 years I still miss you.
I wonder what our fate would be if I didn't let the hurt passed through, if I just stayed silent. But everytime I hear you guys laughing with him, I feel like I'm the only one stuck crying in pain. He moved on and took you all with him, He was there for all of you when you needed someone, it was supposed to be me but I wasn't, because he broke me. I needed someone so bad but why was I alone. What he did wasn't the most painful, it was your indifference. Like you didn't care when I explained to you what he did to me, how you never replied to me pouring my heart into that message, waiting for hours for a confirmation, for an understanding.
I lay awake at night thinking why him, is there something wrong with me for all of you to choose him? I made a mistake of moving on like he did but why did that earn me of betrayal and abandonment. I have changed your lives for the better, we shared so much memories, I was with you the longest, I stopped running with you because of him weighing me down. Exhausting me. While I rest he was in my place with you. It feels like im being snubbed of a place I deserve, a place in your lives I was supposed to be in.
