rewatching backrooms I realized that Clark and Mary foil eachother when it comes to processing their trauma.
Clark is addicted to his grief. His struggles fuel him and give him purpose, and embracing his flaws served as a rebirth for him (he’s literally remembered in the backrooms as a manifestation of anger, grief, and despair though Captain Clark.) without the rage, the complaining, and the alcohol Clark doesn’t exist— I think that’s what scares him so much.
Mary, on the other hand, is adverse to it. Despite being a therapist and basing her life around others, she can’t save them just as much as she can’t save herself. She runs. She spaces out when she sees mother-daughter relationships, she distances herself from areas that remind her of childhood, and in the face of the same trauma and anguish Clark craves— she runs for her life. Obviously part of it is because she wants to survive, but another layer to that is she can’t cope with her own feelings.
It even shows up in how these two talk with eachother! Clark is ego-centered, even in his more self-deprecating talk during his therapy sessions. Mary repeats phrases from her book because she’s detached from the emotional aspect of her job for reasons she may not even understand yet.
For Clark, the “Window from Within” was a way IN (deeper into his grief, into isolation). For Mary, it was a way OUT (out of her grief, out of her struggles.)
Not to mention it appears in their still lives!! As I mentioned before, Cap’n Clark is everything horrid about Clark; his drunkenness, his hostility, and the fear he brings to the people around him— he embodies Clark’s emotional complexity. In contrast, Mary’s still life is unmoving and seemingly catatonic. Her still life doesn’t feel anything. Doesn’t do anything. Like her regular self, she’s detached from feeling anything and everything!!!
flame me if you want for not getting this sooner,, sigh,, overall— I love this movie. Everyone go watch it again if you can.