Medical transition really does put my body into a non-binary status… as content as I am with it, I also understand that my body is marginalized in a way that it wasn’t… necessarily… before HRT. I’m put in this catch-22 situation in which, no matter how I present, no matter what I choose to wear, I’m still doing it “wrong”. Really, the way I am expected to present is completely up to the cisgender onlooker, and my body and presentation are treated as strange and outlandish no matter what. Which is weird, right, because really what that standard is, like the one I’m expected to uphold, is just a projection of whatever cis person’s insecurities they want to put on me. Their opinion on my presentation has nothing to do with me, their internal dialogue about how I should or shouldn’t present is completely based on presumptions and negative feelings that they’ve associated with their own expectations of how they should perform their own gender. It’s about their own feelings about femininity and masculinity and sex, and different people are going to find different expressions wrong or right. Like one person might have no issue with me painting my nails but might hate my platforms. Or someone might think me wearing pants is some kind of sin but not necessarily me having short hair. It’s just interesting to remind myself that the cis perspective is ever-changing… that realistically there is no way I could ever meet cis expectations, no matter what I do, because as much as they want to convince you that it is... the cis perspective is not the objective perspective. It’s just an insecure one. And I guess, because I live in a cis world, I sometimes lose sight of the fact that just because it's the norm to think that way doesn't really mean it's healthy or default.
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