An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
A/N: Happy Valentine's Day! /throws a new chapter at you/
Pairing: BBRae
Genre/Warnings/Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Slow Burn, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Love Confessions, Protectiveness, Secret Past, Family Issues, Implied/Referenced Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Abusive Parents, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD
Summary:
There are a few things that Beast Boy knows for certain:
He’s 21....and a total lightweight. He’s a vegan (but not like...a pretentious vegan). He’s not going to be single forever.
And the Teen Titans are the only family he'll ever need.
Chapter 3: Orders and Suggestions [Remastered!] (words 6,069)
When Beast Boy opened his eyes, the last thing he expected to see was his own his lifeless body sprawled out on the concrete floor.
A ring of figures in black, the stench of rotting wood, a faint trickle of yellow light that framed the scene in a sinister halo…
He tried to turn away but was rooted to the spot. Made to watch in helpless silence as a long, electrified staff slammed against the body—his body—sending a scream tearing through the cavernous warehouse. Shutting his eyes tight, he sought out the creeping darkness lurking at the fringes of the memory. But the scene followed him even there, images of the aftershock flooding his mind.
Limbs crumpling violently in response to the blow. Fingers twitching before falling limp against the hard ground. The pain was distant, nothing more than a dull ache, the person on the floor blissfully unaware of its echoes.
The scene reset itself. Once. Twice. Three times.
The same stupid mistakes. The same crushing blow. The same pathetic, twitching fingers.
Each time it played, the rolling visuals stole a part of his resolve. It became harder to breathe. Harder to watch. Harder to think. Harder to resist the invisible hand that pulled him back each time, the hand that bade him bear witness to it all, over, and over again.
It was sloppy. Careless. The work of an adrenaline junkie convinced he had something to prove.
What exactly that thing was, Beast Boy wasn’t sure. He doubted it was worth the cost of getting his ass handed to him a million times over.
Or the cost of the voice that cut through the room like sharpened steel.
When it first rang out, the person on the ground seemed to stir slightly, confusion swirling with pain. It was the face of someone trying to remember—trying to pin down a ghost beyond the bubble of fading consciousness.
The voice wasn’t a battle cry. It was anger. It was sadness, fear, and desperation.
It was much more achingly human than a memory had any right to be.
A terrible ringing filled his ears, the piercing white silence tunneling deep into his mind. In an instant, the scene began to waver and shift in a watery haze.
When he finally resurfaced, he knew something was wrong.
It was his voice. His words ringing out. His desperate plea, rising and falling on deaf ears.
For who or what, he didn’t know.
A different figure occupied the space on the ground, fingers twitching with that last spark of life.
He raged against the forces holding him hostage, but it wasn’t enough to move forward, to move toward the figure on the floor. And it certainly wasn’t enough to stay afloat as he was slowly pulled under again, back into the suffocating darkness.
***
Beast Boy shot upward, his breath ragged and hollow as he swallowed a hasty gulp of air. A wave of pain pulsed through his chest, the ripples kick-starting a never-ending coughing fit.
“Whoa, easy, man—" One strong hand clapped him on the back, while another steadied him at the shoulder. “Deep breaths.”
He tried and failed to follow the order, each sharp intake matched by an equally abrasive exhale.
“Here.” A glass materialized before him, dwarfed by the sturdy robotic fingers wrapped around it.
He took the offering without thinking, forcing himself to down the syrupy liquid. A horrible bitterness clung to his taste buds as it trickled down his throat. He blinked hard, blinded by a ray of sunlight that ricocheted off the glass. It was another moment before the rest of the world materialized around him, all blinking machinery and sterile chrome fixtures.
Among them, a familiar face finally came into view.
“I’d ask how you’re feeling, but I think I have a pretty good idea,” Cyborg said, taking the glass from his hand and setting it on a nearby table. A bright light sparked to life at the tip of his friend’s index finger, dancing back and forth across his face. It took every ounce of Beast Boy’s remaining willpower to keep from pushing it away.
“Look straight for a sec. And try to keep your eyes open.”
Another order he could barely follow, his eyes tearing up in seconds.
The light disappeared.
“Any idea where you are right now?”
He gave the room another cursory glance. It was small and sparsely furnished, save for the bed he found himself lying in and the equipment on the other side of it. From the far wall, another pesky ray of early morning sunlight broke through the curtains of the floor to ceiling windows.
A sinking realization washed over him. He’d been here before—more times than he cared to admit, really. With a deflated groan, he wilted into the starchy pillows and matching white bedsheets, the material sticky with his own sweat.
Cyborg let out a low laugh, maneuvering toward a tall steel cabinet on the other side of the bed. “I’ll take that as a yes.” Another stray beam of light glinted off of the door as he pulled it open and grabbed a few items off the shelf inside. “Which means you already know what I’m gonna ask you next.”
Visions of electric shadows rolled through his head, the echo of a voice both familiar and strange playing on an unending loop.
“I…crashed into a wall…” The words were hoarse, his throat scratchy.
There was a slight pause in Cyborg’s movements. “And?”
“And…” Suddenly everything was spinning again, like the world had been turned on its head. “And…I think I’m gonna puke.”
Without missing a beat, Cyborg produced a small metal bucket and shoved it into his hands. “Not on my equipment you’re not.”
The cool exterior sent a wave of relief through his palms as he gripped the sides like a lifeline. Head hung low, he caught a glimpse of his distorted reflection in the bottom, strange and unsightly. It was only then that he noticed the bandages, wrapped like maypole ribbons up his length of his chest and around his shoulder. Only then that he saw the wires streaming from the remaining patches of his exposed skin. Without thinking, he reached up to give one an experimental tug—and felt a thread of resistance seize in the crook of his elbow.
He froze, another wave of nausea roiling inside him. One that had nothing to do with the aftereffects running headfirst into a concrete wall.
“Dehydration and electrolyte imbalance are common after an electrical injury,” Cyborg explained, following Beast Boy’s gaze toward the IV line protruding from his arm. He’d donned a fresh pair of gloves, two tube-like vials in one hand, and a small cotton pad that reeked of alcohol in the other. “You can keep the bucket, but I’m gonna need you to hold out your arm and make a fist.”
Acid bubbled in the back of Beast Boy’s throat. He made the grave mistake of glancing once more at the vials clenched in his friend’s hand—conveniently constructed with built in syringes and screw top lids. He closed his eyes, turned his head, and managed to form a weak fist with his free hand, nails digging into his palms. The alcohol wipe chilled his skin, pressure coiling around his upper arm in a tight circle before the stick found its mark.
One of the monitors behind him started beeping. Louder. Faster. Impossible to ignore.
Through it all, Cyborg remained mercifully silent.
“And…done.”
Beast Boy hazarded a glance at his arm. A small patch of gauze covered the site, held in place by a strip of white bandage. His gaze traveled upward, back to his chest, back to the IV, back across the wires and the flashing screens…
“I’m gonna run an electrolyte panel first, then check for a few different biomarkers in your blood,” Cyborg continued, pulling off the gloves and tossing them in the trash. “Looks like you’ve got a mild concussion, but the blood work’ll pull out any indicators of more serious trauma.”
Beast Boy bit his lip. “So…?”
Cyborg shrugged. “So, assuming everything else checks out, you should be good to go in a couple of days.”
The words hit him like a smack to the face. “A couple of days?”
His friend met his gaze, mouth drawn in a hard line. “A couple of days is good, man. Most people would be out a lot longer. Hell, most people wouldn’t have survived an ass-whooping like that.”
Beast Boy’s attention slowly fell back to his arm. Another wave of nausea flooded through him, tearing through his throat and down into his stomach. He gripped the rim of the bucket tighter.
“Look. I’m not gonna pretend I’m an expert on the human body. And I’m definitely not gonna pretend I’m an expert on you,” Cyborg said, making a sweeping gesture over the bed. “You bounce back fast—I’ll give you that. But that doesn’t mean you’re invincible. You gotta quit acting like it.”
The steady sounds of the machinery filled the silence that followed, a dull heartbeat in a strange, sterile body.
Cyborg inhaled and exhaled another long-drawn breath. “You know Robin’s gonna wanna talk to you.”
A slight hiccup on the monitor, just barely out of line. “Yeah. I know.”
“…I can try and buy you some time if you want, but—“
“No.” Beast Boy’s voice cracked on the single syllable. “No. I mean…that’s…fine. I can talk to him. Now. Whenever. It doesn’t matter.”
Off to the side, he caught a glimpse of Cyborg’s face as a ripple of doubt colored his features.
“You sure?”
He nodded, and the whole world tilted on its axis around him.
Cyborg clasped a hand on his shoulder and gave it a tight squeeze. “I’ll be back later to check on you. Get you moved back to your own room.”
Beast Boy fought hard to flash him a toothless smile. He barely caught the one thrown his way in return.
A few footsteps. A woosh from the door, opening and closing. And suddenly he was alone again, with nothing but his thoughts to keep him company.
He knew how this next part was going to go. He envisioned Robin before him, arms crossed over his chest, chin tipped back as he stared down his target through a hooded, unblinking gaze. Every movement intentional and rehearsed—a sheath of practicality concealing the disappointment underneath.
Forget the mess that had landed him in this bed. The real beating had hardly begun.
Seconds, minutes, hours later…
The door hissed, and he found himself staring at the needle in his arm, the discomfort of the sight a strangely welcome distraction from the silhouette that wandered in. His skin prickled, fingertips numb. Without turning his head, he risked a glance at the doorway.
Robin emerged, features cool and stoic, as he made his way to the edge of the bed.
But there was someone behind him. Someone who kept a steady distance, dark and stiff as a statue’s shadow.
Electricity crackled in space between the two of them, the invisible aftermath of an exchange Beast Boy would never be privy to.
“Cyborg said you were up,” Robin offered, his tone calm despite the storm silently brewing behind him. “How are you feeling?”
Beast Boy shrugged. It hurt more than it should have. “Fine, I guess. I’m not dead, anyway.”
Robin nodded—not in response to Beast Boy’s answer, but in the direction of his shadowy companion.
Raven didn’t look at either of them as she stepped into the light, stopping a few inches short of the bed. Instead, she wordlessly extended her hands, palms hovering just an inch above the wires and patches. A familiar tingling sensation started under his skin, the ghostly touch raking its way across the entirety of his chest, his neck, his shoulders and arms.
Beast Boy found himself holding his breath. Somewhere deep within him, a knot began to unravel—tiny fingers separating strands with expert precision. The ache in his chest started to fade, falling off somewhere between the multiplying fragments. The feeling, strange and indescribable as it was, only became more so the second it disappeared, ripped away without remorse or consideration for the fraying threads. In an instant, the pain returned, heightened in magnification for each second it had been kept at bay.
Robin raised an eyebrow, his eyes following Raven as she took a step backward.
She blinked once. Shrugged. Crossed her arms over her chest, bored, disinterested.
Robin gave her one last look, eyes flashing.
A slow, deliberate shake of the head.
“Thanks, Raven. You can go.”
No more than a shadow, she quietly turned and left, the door shutting firmly behind her.
A beat of silence passed before Beast Boy dared open his mouth—not that he had time to speak before Robin leapt in with the answer to his unspoken question.
“Not everything shows up on a machine. We don’t want to overlook anything.”
Another marked silence passed between them. A formality that did little to ease the blow that followed.
“What happened,” Robin said, his words even, but clipped. Not a question but a demand.
Beast Boy slumped against the pillows, unable to meet his eyes. “Maybe we can just skip to the part where you tell me you’re disappointed in me.”
Robin released a sigh but didn’t budge. Didn’t so much as blink. “Is it true that Raven told you to stay behind?”
It was an open challenge. One Beast Boy knew better than to accept. And yet…
“What difference does it make? You know she never listens to anything I say. I don’t see why I should have to take orders from her.”
Robin stood in silence. A silence that made it difficult to keep the words from tumbling out.
“Yeah, I took a hit or two—but it was fine,” Beast Boy continued. “I was fine. And there was no way any of us could’ve known what we were up against. I couldn’t just let them go it alone. When I caught up they were obviously outnumbered, and—“
Robin held up a hand. “You’re right.”
The words sent his mind to a screeching halt. “…What?”
“…You’re…right,” Robin repeated with a sigh. “None of you knew what to expect. The threat was greater than we anticipated.” He ran a hand over his face and through his hair, mouth forming a hard line. “Which is why I explicitly told Raven to hold position until I got there.”
Beast Boy frowned. “But what about—“
“I couldn’t reach Star. I barely got a hold of Raven before they went off the grid.” Robin paused, brow furrowed as he considered his next words carefully. “I don’t know what it is, but lately she’s had a tendency to treat orders as…suggestions.”
Beast Boy thought back to the distance she’d kept. The way she’d barely looked at him. No—at either of them.
“Raven made a bad call,” Robin continued. “But that’s unrelated to the decision you made to follow them. Pushing yourself like that was reckless. Especially if she told you to hang back.”
“But you just said—“
Robin cut him off with a look. “I know what I said. It was wrong of her to push forward like that against orders—but she was right to call your injury. In the same way that it was irresponsible of you to tail them, even if your reason for doing so was otherwise sound.”
Beast Boy didn’t trust himself to speak. Maybe, in a backhanded sort of way, Robin was giving him more credit than he deserved.
“I want you to go see her again tomorrow. Have her take another look while Cy’s waiting on his tests,” Robin said, turning toward the exit. He covered the distance in a few effortless strides, lingering on the threshold as the door slid open. There was a subtle shift in his expression as he nodded toward the bed. “You’re going to take it easy for the next few days. And that’s an order. Not a suggestion.”
***
Scrapes and bruises left their marks—but those marks were nothing compared to the thoughts that filled the empty spaces in between.
Thoughts that filled Beast Boy’s head, flitting through unbidden and unstoppable, as he watched gray clouds trudge through the ashen sky. They were a heavy weight, pulling him against the rolling slope of dead grass stretched beneath his feet. He closed his fists around clumps of the cool, brittle blades, mindlessly ripping them from the earth. The Tower behind him cast a long, chilling shadow over the patch of hillside he’d claimed for the afternoon, a gust of wind ripping through his hair and nipping at the exposed skin above his neck.
He might be out of commission. But showing up to practice—even if it was from fifty yards awayas a spectating, sleep deprived zombie—was the least he could do. Right?
Right.
A few drills in and several clumps of grass later, he was starting to second guess his decision.
Starfire was the easiest to pick out from a distance, her stark red hair whipping through the air like a living flame. Bright green bolts of barely contained energy tore through the air as she made her way through the training course. No matter the angle, the distance, the size of her target, she found the mark with ease, leaving a trail of scorching bullseyes in her wake.
Behind her, Cyborg came into view as they closed in on another decoy. Working in perfect tandem, the two ran a play like clockwork—deflect, distract, and destroy. He absorbed hit after hit to hold the line. Starfire pinpointed and disabled the enemy’s defenses with sharp, quick shots. They switched places as they pushed forward, and, with the imaginary enemy finally cornered, Cyborg raised an arm and dealt the final blow, the cannon in his arm erupting with an earth-shaking roar.
At the other end of the field, two figures moved with a shadow-like grace, pushing and pulling against each other as though led by an unseen current. Attack. Defend. Divert. Repeat.
Robin’s precision in hand-to-hand combat was rivaled only by his mastery of the weapons at his disposal. Each movement was careful, calculated; synchronized to the beat of a silent drum. He prodded and provoked his target with quick strikes from his staff, maneuvering elegantly around the ring as he evaluated his options between exchanges. When he switched to the offensive, there was no hesitation, each move fueled by an unshakable confidence and steady hand.
Raven met each of his charges with an eerie calm that pervaded her every movement. It was there in the way her lips moved silently, ushering forward unseen forces with just a whisper. In the way she flicked her wrist and twisted her hand to direct the shadows she conjured as an extension of herself. As she played her part in the dance around the ring, it was as though her physical presence was an afterthought, every movement an exercise in restraint rather than a display of power.
A shiver ran down Beast Boy’s spine. He hugged himself tighter, retreating into the embrace of his jacket, and chose to blame it on the bitter autumn breeze.
Below him, the skirmish ended.
Robin stood in the center of the ring, arms crossed over his chest. A few feet away, Raven mirrored his stance. Even from a distance, there was no mistaking the way that the dust refused to settle. While the visual spectacle faded from the arena, another much quieter battle was still being fought.
Beast Boy was too far away to properly eavesdrop. But he gathered plenty from a few key pauses, head tilts, and one particularly accusatory finger thrust in his direction.
It was as good a sign as any for him to take his leave.
So he stood, wiping the dirt from his pants as he found his footing on the steep slope. He decided that he didn’t care what they were talking about. Didn’t care what Raven had been saying when she’d pointed that finger his direction. Like she didn’t think he’d notice—or didn’t care if he did.
The realization manifested as a lump in his throat and a pit in his stomach. For a brief moment, the world shifted one inch to the right, just slightly askew. And as he marched back toward the Tower, home suddenly felt much farther away than a few steps up a hill.
***
An hour later, Beast Boy had started to regret ever stepping foot outside. Nose running and chest aching, his every breath was punctuated with an accompanying sniffle. And as he shuffled down the long, dark hallway before him, even the thick walls of the Tower weren’t enough to beat back the chill that emanated from this corner of the building.
When they’d first moved in, picking their own rooms had been easy. As it turned out, a fifteen-story high rise was an excess of real estate when it came to housing five people. Even when fourteen of those stories were already otherwise occupied by a sprawling array of laboratories, training facilities, armories, and other not-so-obvious superhero home essentials.
But even with their private rooms confined to a single floor, Raven had done her due diligence keeping the rest of them at an arm’s length.
He passed by a number of doors as he walked, rooms all unoccupied, before stopping at the very last one on the left. To his right, a solitary window looked out on the training field below, washed in the glow of the setting sun. Cold air seemed to seep right through the glass, his lungs burning as he took a deep breath—and raised his hand to knock.
The second his knuckles made contact—once, twice, three times—there was an eerie shift in the silence on the other side of the door. That silence seemed to stretch on for an eternity before it was broken by the sound of footsteps approaching the threshold.
When the door slid open, it exhaled a chilling sigh that sent a shiver through his entire body.
“Hey,” he started, his mouth suddenly as dry as sandpaper. “I’m, uh…here for my doctor’s appointment?”
On the other side of the threshold, Raven stared back at him, her face a mask of carefully concocted indifference. He watched as the lines of her brow just barely twitched. In confusion. In annoyance. Subtle, but predictable tells he’d learned to recognize over the years.
“Your…what?”
“My shoulder? Robin wants you to look at it again.”
She cocked an eyebrow, eyes falling to the site of the injury. “Okay.” They rested there for a moment before shooting back up to his in a blink. “Done. Anything else?”
“…Seriously? Can’t you just—“
She cut him off with a frown. “I know that this might be a foreign concept to you, but I’m actually sort of busy right now.”
“Doing what?” The words tumbled out before he could stop them. He wasn’t sure where they’d come from. It wasn’t exactly a question he was dying to know the answer to.
And, judging by the look on Raven’s face, it wasn’t one she was interested in answering.
“Why do you care?”
“I…don’t.”
She huffed a humorless laugh. “Well, glad we got that squared away.”
He shifted his weight where he was standing—the small movement was just enough to send a fiery ache rippling down his shoulder and through his chest. He really hadn’t done himself any favors sitting in the cold, and his body was in no rush to let him forget it. For a moment, his mind wandered back to a small room with blinking monitors and tightly drawn curtains. To the sensation of a hundred invisible fingers under his skin, carefully unraveling the tapestry of pain written in his muscles.
He could just walk away. Tell Robin she was being difficult. But a tiny voice in the back of his head whispered that Robin had very little to do with this conversation.
Raven cleared her throat.
He blinked hard, pulled suddenly from his thoughts.
“So, are you gonna leave or—?”
He let the words hang in the air. Maybe he had his own reasons for showing up at her door. But that didn’t mean he couldn’t use Robin’s for a little leverage.
“I dunno.” He shrugged, trying his best to match her indifference. “Is that an order or a suggestion?”
For a single second, Raven’s mask faltered. Her eyes widened just a fraction—a nearly imperceptible beat of surprise she’d let slip—before narrowing into two deadly slits. It was a strangely satisfying reaction, and Beast Boy couldn’t help but feel like he’d just scored a point in some silent game playing out between them.
Unfortunately, his one-zero lead didn’t last long.
“Fine,” Raven countered, a challenge in her voice. She stepped to the side of the door, creating a pathway before him. “Five minutes. I can give you five minutes.”
The small, satisfied smile forming at the corner of his mouth dropped off without a trace as he scanned the cavernous room behind her.
“Is there a problem?” Raven drawled.
He silently pointed to himself and then back to the room, an unspoken question in the gesture.
She simply rolled her eyes and retreated inside. He realized it was the closest thing to a formal invitation he was going to get. Not that he’d expected any invitation at all.
Feeling slightly superstitious, he stuck a hand over the threshold first, half expecting that he’d meet some shadowy resistance—or be greeted by some cosmic horror home defense system. When neither transpired, he took a single step forward, eyes shut against the possible repercussions of entering enemy territory.
Nothing. Nothing but the sound of the door closing behind him.
When he opened his eyes, he caught Raven staring at him, arms folded across her chest and an exasperated frown on her face.
“Oh, like it’s really so unbelievable that you’d have some kind of anti-me barrier around this place,” he said, gesturing with his good arm to the doorway.
In reply, a wooden stool skirted across the floor, coming to an abrupt halt in the center of the room.
“Maybe I should install one,” Raven said stiffly. She glanced between him and the stool as she spoke, a cautionary glint in her eyes that was louder than words.
Now sit down, shut up, and don’t touch anything.
Beast Boy knew better than to argue with her on her own turf. So he took a seat, stuck his hands in his pockets, and quietly bit his tongue. Slowly, his eyes adjusted to the dimly lit room, nose twitching in response to the sharp, smoky aroma that clung to the air.
On the other side of the room, Raven had made her way to one of the tall bookshelves lining the wall. He watched in silence as she ran a finger over the spines of countless tomes tucked in neat, orderly rows. Every so often the volumes were interrupted by some unidentifiable artifact or trinket operating as an improvised bookend; a black orb with a slick pearlescent sheen, a small crystal skull with a notable crack down the center, a jar of cloudy amber liquid that seemed caught in an endless swirl.
Suddenly, she came to a stop. With a flick of her wrist, one of the titles prudently dislodged itself from its snug spot on the shelf and floated into her hand. Just to the right of where she stood, a pair of heavy velvet curtains were drawn tightly across the only window, smothering the orange glow of the setting sun. As the light began to fade, dozens of candles suddenly sparked to life throughout the room, the eerie phenomenon sending a ripple of shadowy silhouettes parading across the walls.
Beast Boy bit his lip in anticipation. “You know, I bet if we all chipped in we could get you a lamp.”
But Raven was already scanning through the pages of the book, either too absorbed by the material or too stubborn to acknowledge him. Through the weak light of the flickering candles, he caught fleeting glimpses of the strange symbols and bizarre diagrams that filled its yellowing pages. Symbols and diagrams that Raven flipped through with a familiar, almost bored impatience. He privately wondered what sort of cryptic, otherworldly language the text was written in—and where the hell Raven had learned to read it.
Suddenly, her scanning halted. She released the book, which remained suspended in the air next to her.
“Turn around.”
He did as she asked, overly aware of every breath he took in the process.
On the opposite side of the room, a four-poster canopy bed sat in the corner, and an ornate silver floor mirror lay propped against the wall. Just under the window, the carpet gave way to a thick slate platform. Several items had been arranged atop it, the surface covered in symbols and letters etched in thick chalk. Next to it, a book the size of suitcase sat open with large tassels holding the reader’s page.
So Raven hadn’t been lying about being busy. But busy doing what exactly…
She moved silently to his side, her hands glowing with an ethereal light as they lingered a few inches above his upper arm.
A twinge of pain suddenly nipped him in the soft spot between his neck and shoulder.
A small, disappointed frown tugged at the corner of her lip.
“What?”
“Take your jacket off.”
“Why?”
“Because I need to look at something.”
“Okay, but why do I always have to—“
“Because every piece of clothing you’re wearing is just another layer I have to work through, and it makes it harder to see what’s going on underneath,” she said impatiently.
He couldn’t help but flash a sardonic smile. “I hate to break it to you, but that’s kind of like, the whole point of wearing clothes.”
She shot him a familiar look. “Jacket. Off.”
He removed the jacket, his exposed skin instantly prickling with goosebumps. A lifeless chill seemed to cling to the air around them as Raven reached out once more, her hands roaming above his shoulder. Without the thick barrier of the jacket between them, the chill of her fingertips threatened to seep through his shirt, his skin, his muscles, and into his very bones until…
He flinched, jolting upright as he stifled a curse. “Dude—“
She pulled back immediately.
“Why are your hands so cold?”
Her expression was stern. “My hands are perfectly room temperature.”
He scoffed, turning to try and get a better look at her over his shoulder. “In what room? A fucking walk-in freezer?”
She gently but firmly pushed his cheek until he was facing forward again, the chill from her fingertips on his bare skin sending a shiver down his spine.
“Stop moving.”
The touch resurfaced again at a point on his neck, then in the crook of his shoulder atop the fabric of his t-shirt. It came to rest there, where a stinging sensation began to manifest, so cold that a combative heat rose up in revolt under his muscles. He closed his eyes, willing himself to silence the inescapable urge to pull away.
Then, just as quickly, the sensation disappeared.
Beast Boy opened his eyes. At some point, Raven had moved in front of him. Her eyes were closed as she inhaled deeply. And when she exhaled—
Ice shot through his veins like an electric shock.
He visibly flinched, eyes shutting as he braced for a second wave. But all that remained were the echoes of the blast, rippling through him. The sharp pain slowly melted into a fuzzy tingling sensation before leaving behind a strangely soothing numbness.
When he opened them again, he found Raven’s gaze had strayed from his shoulder, back to the book still hovering in the air at her side.
“What was that?”
Her eyes continued to scan the pages as she spoke. “I created some temporary energy pathways to redirect the pain from your shoulder to other parts of your body. Which, by the way, heals so stupidly fast that it’s virtually impossible to retroactively repair any part of it with magic.”
His face scrunched in confusion. “But…you just did?”
More pages of the book flew by with a flick from her finger. “I didn’t fix anything. I just gave you something to help with the pain. There are still plenty of tears in the muscle, but most of it’s already turned into scar tissue. Maybe I’d be able to do more if I ripped your shoulder apart and put it back together myself. But I don’t think either of us wants to spend the rest of the night doing that, so…”
“…So, I’m good to go?” Beast Boy said, already rising from his seat.
The whirling pages of the book came to a sudden stop. In the same instant, a cloud of black mist appeared above his shoulders, and he was pushed back into the seat by an invisible hand.
Raven wordlessly pulled away from the book, turning to face him once more. And before he had the chance to react, her frigid touch returned, this time concentrated at the tip of her finger as it trailed down the length of his chest.
A spark rippled through his chest, and he instantly sat up straighter. For a split second, he was free-falling, a faint jolt of electricity surging through him. A single brush of her fingertips, and Raven had taken to charting a path across him like a goddamn map.
When she finally pulled away, the frown on her face had deepened. “Your shoulder isn’t the issue. It’s the second injury.” She pointed to a spot on his chest. “Right here, above your heart. It’s hard to explain, but the energy pathways are…fragmented. Tangled together like some sort of knot.”
“Which means…?”
Her eyes narrowed. “It means that if you ever pull a moronic stunt like that again, you’re not going to walk away from it. And if you somehow miraculously do, I’ll kill you myself before your injuries have a chance to.”
Beast Boy hummed to himself, hands steepled at his mouth. “Can I give some feedback?”
The muscles in her face twitched, pulled taut with barely masked frustration.
“That magic glowy shit you just did was choice. But your bedside manner kinda sucks balls.”
The book suddenly slammed shut, hard enough to make him jump.
“You know I’m still pissed at you, right? I thought I was making it obvious, but maybe I overestimated your ability to pick up on obvious,” she hissed.
He tried his best to ignore the way her gaze cut right through him, shrugging on his jacket, getting to his feet…
“I don’t know why the hell you’re mad at me. It’s not exactly my fault that you got in capital ‘T’ trouble for going against protocol or whatever.”
He knew he should stop talking. Knew he should just drop it, but…
“Actually, when you think about it, I wouldn’t have had a reason to follow you guys at all if you’d just followed orders. So, really, I should be the one pissed off at you. Because that means this,” he gestured to his shoulder, to the space above his heart, “is kinda, technically your fault.”
Stop talking. Stop talking.
“But who am I kidding? It’s not like you’d ever admit that—especially not when I make such a convenient punching bag every time something doesn’t go your way.”
In the blink of an eye, the expression on Raven’s face shifted, frustration giving way to a chilling, expressionless calm. When she spoke next, her voice was detached, her gaze distant. There was a darkness in both that betrayed the carefully concealed emotions roiling just beneath the surface.
“That’s six minutes.”
Behind him, the door slid open; a soft hiss that cut through the air like a freshly sharpened blade.
A deadly silence filled the air.
Stifling.
Suffocating.
And when that door finally shut with a whisper silent hiss, Beast Boy was glad—beyond glad—that his feet were firmly planted on the other side of it.












