[Translated] Youâre In My Eyes, Dong Wan
The original author éżç_揧ĺżĺŠĺ wrote this passage about Dong Wan for his birthday in 2012! Thank you for sharing once again!
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The first time I knew of this person Kim Dong Wan, was from that episode of Strong Heart which he appeared after his military discharge.
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At that time, I simply felt that this veteran idol is so bright, cheerful, chatty and humorous. He is a very interesting person. It was only after I became a Shinhwa Changjo then I realized Dong Wan has a personality which is difficult to associate with his sunshine-like image.
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Just like what he previously stated on his blog, he felt embarrassed and sorry by a news article which described him âas a generous person who leads the members (blog post on 03/09/12); Min Woo also once said to Super Juniorâs Sung Min: âTry being with him for 3 days!â (Shinhwa Broadcast Hallyu Channel). We can see from these that Kim Dong Wan is not as positive and cheerful like what most perceived him to be. Not only does he thinks in a special way, he is meticulous in his daily life and set many little rules for himself. The evidence for all these can be found in Shinhwa Braodcast â In the âGentlemenâs Dignity Channelâ, he insisted on using a spoon to divide the mung bean pancake despite that time was running out; in the âFarm Channelâ, he was frustrated and threw a tantrum because Hye Sung wanted to add kimchi to the chicken soupâŚ.and the numerous black-white seals fallen on him due to his lame jokes, we can see that he has his own unique line of thinking and persistency.
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He is also very sensitive â Even when Min Woo worked with the headphones on, Dong Wan could hear him in the next room (Ya Shim Man Man 07/11/12); He is allergic to newly-painted rooms and canât sleep well in them (SBS Good Morning 05/01/06); He will be flustered whenever he is without his bagâŚ..he places great importance on âhis personal territoryâ and accurately measures the balances in his life.
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Frankly speaking, it is not easy to get along with a person who is easily triggered off by so many of his little mines. He definitely needs others to be tolerant of him (but itâs also because of his sensitive and neurotic character that makes him more acute to the needs of others and meticulous when he cares for others).
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How did such a person have chosen to lead a life of a celebrity which requires him to be constantly in contact with people and earn his social recognition? Why did he choose to go on the stage? Dong Wan adheres tightly to his moral values and does not really care how others view him. However as a celebrity, he definitely has to change himself to a moderate extent in order to meet the expectations of the publicâŚ
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Although he is still not afraid to do whatever he likes (for examples spraying water onto over-zealous fans, publicly reprimanding someone on his blog, using a feather to dig his nose during broadcast), there are still times he would need to constraint himself and these are the times which I think he must have felt very torn and disgusted. However, it is because of his deep yearning to be on stage and with the support his family, friends, Shinhwa members and Shinhwa Changjo, not only had he walked through this path, he has done it for many years.
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The most difficult part of being a celebrity is âforgetting oneselfâ. I think the reason why Dong Wan loves reading, watching movies and hiking so much is perhaps he often has this contradiction about his âself-identityâ, so he needs to take a walk outside, allowing his soul to venture to another world to release stress and also to think about what his next step would be.
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Dong Wan is also a person who is true to his emotions.
He laughs heartily when he is happy and gets angry when his tail is being stepped on. When he is in a bad mood, this is also expressed through his eyes. He doesnât deliberately conceal his emotions even though he is a celebrity. The expression in his eyes is very pure and sparkling with no hidden past and pretence.
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Still remembering in early 2012, it was often seemed as if his mind was somewhere else. Even though it was obvious that he was laughing, his eyes and tone clearly werenât that happyâŚ.
As expected, it was later revealed that during that period he had just ended a relationship; similar to the blog post which he wrote in defence of Min Woo, he out rightly stated the name of the other party and also said he wasnât afraid of being scolded as he just wanted to express how he felt.
However more intriguingly, behind his pure expression of his eyes hides a very profound personality. It is not easy to break through the walls of his heart and understand him. When being very close to him, it is fine regardless how they fool around but once there is a dispute, he will withdraw himself the farthest and throw the biggest temper. Sigh, Mr Kim Dong Wan why are you so troublesome?
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(I think Dong Wanâs true-to-his-heart personality and heavy mood swings have a huge influence on his acting. Such a personality has made him into a very potential actor and this is evident in the Shinhwa Broadcast episode on âVillainous Actingâ where within a short span of time, we could see Dong Wanâs explosive and detailed acting.)
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Moreover, because he is such an open and honest person, his speeches sound more convincing.
I really like what he said during the last talk of the 10th anniversary concert. He was smiling as he said: âWe are not even going anywhere so why are you all crying like this?â I like that slight bewilderment in his smile which made people believe that he truly did not think it was something to be sad about and could not understand why everyone was crying.
When the orange balloons were released at the end of the concert, he also put on a helpless and dismayed little smile and gently wiped away Jun Jinâs tears.
In my heart, that is Dong Wanâs most gentle smile.
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Different from the feeling which Min Woo gives through his sweet words, Dong Wanâs words doesnât sound that sweet but they give a much more âsense of certaintyâ. Itâs close to the heart, very real and related to daily life, like something we might probably hear tomorrow from the people around us.
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If we are to say that Hye Sung and Eric give a distant and âa more expensiveâ image, Dong Wan is the opposite. His charisma is very âcivilianâ because we can find someone similar to him among our friends â a friend whose character is not bad but sometimes you want to strangle him or find him being a pain in the neck; a friend who leads his own simple life but when faced with big crises, he will step forward to give support and confidence; a friend who may not be the most caring, generous or closest but you are still willing to be friends with him.
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äťĺ°ąĺćĺćŻä¸ĺäşşä¸ć¨ŁăHeâs like one of us.
This is probably the reason why although Dong Wan is obviously so âlong-windedâ, he still has a good image and also why he hasnât been strangled dead by his members yet â he is just like everyone one of us. Heâs like one of us.
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You know that he pricks but you also know how pure he is.
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Kim Dong Wan, happy birthday~