desperately trying to stop eating

I should get worse.

ana always comes back. i find myself thinking "why can't i get better?" — but i realised; i don't want to get better. quite frankly i enjoy it. the emptiness in my stomach, the lack of energy, but most of all; the euphoria of seeing the scale drop. i can't get 'better' because i don't want to, the only thing i want is to get worse. to be valid, sick enough.

I wish i could just pinch my skin and cut off everything i don’t need.

i truly believe people would like me more if i was skinny.

feeling normal makes me sick. I want my stomach growling because I haven't eaten in days. I want to feel like I'm gonna pass out every time I stand or even go from laying down to sitting. I want to feel empty but not my heart, my stomach.

Good night my dearest! Get some rest and wake up sk1nny ⭐️🪽❤️✨

please please please can i just be skinny already

I feel like I will pass out from hunger and I love it 🥰 hehe

"Be patient with the process and impatient with taking actions.."