Lately, I’ve been feeling like so many people have drifted out of my life after years of being close. Even former colleagues I used to spend so much time with—people whose birthdays I celebrated, who I bought special gifts for, and whose homes I visited. On top of that, close friends I genuinely considered part of my inner circle have chosen to walk away, one way or another. But that’s not all. I’ve also left behind a long-term relationship where I just wasn't happy anymore. And following all of that, I’ve managed to land a new job in a completely different place.I’ve also left behind the person I used to call my best friend. That was incredibly tough, especially after realizing I’d spent years completely blind to how toxic that friendship actually was.
But after all this upheaval, I’ve met someone wonderful who brings joy to my everyday life (and he is so hot 🫠). He is helping me see things from a whole new perspective, because I’ve come to realize that I also had some slightly toxic—or maybe just unhealthy—ways of looking at the world. For instance, I used to get so anxious waiting for my bf to text me back. I also never thought I could handle a long-distance relationship, yet here I am, making it work. Ultimately, all of this has helped me realize that the person who truly matters most is me, and I’m the one who deserves to be happy. If people choose to walk out of my life, well, they must have their reasons and that's fair enough, even if I don’t agree. I’m simply done suffering over people who, for one reason or another, don’t want me around. To cut a long story short, what I really want to say here—which is something I don't normally do very often, haha—is that I want to make it crystal clear: I am at a stage in my life where my priority is to be happy, and frankly, I couldn't care less about the rest.
So, if you’ve made it this far after all my rambling, I just want you to know that my only goal is to be happy—and right now, I’m making it happen. If anyone doesn’t like it, they know where the door is. And to everyone else who is still here, even if we don't speak every day or go a very long time without talking, I send you a giant hug and want to tell you that I love you and will love you always.
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