negging as praxis

like, I think the only details the internet would get would be Ilya liking posts about Shane being a god in bed, into freak sex, that things get real wild after big hockey victories and that the rivalry was foreplay, etc

only stuff that’s funny and wild, but ultimately contains exactly zero details of their actual sex.

like yes, for all the sexy possessive reasons, and all of the privacy and ‘I share the internet with my in-laws’ reasons’, but also because of how Shane would be treated if it was actually known that he was a bottom.

It’s not super explored in canon, but cmon… Shane is a half Japanese gay man in hockey. Those are both two very loaded identities for an incredibly bigoted sport, and they come with a lot of really vicious intersectional ammo.

Shane would already hear so much about how Asian men are submissive and all of the other bullshit I refuse to write out, imagine how much more brutal it would be if there was actual confirmation that the stereotypes are on some level, accurate?

in that same way that homophobia would have hit so much harder for Shane after he was outed and knew that the other player MEANT it, all of that would be even more hurtful and degrading.

from their "definitions" section:

Shoulders- Ilya

The way you/me is used always to refer to ilya even when the you is either refering to his mother or his father “they found you” -> irina exists through him, the pain of that informs "half" of his decision making.

The way irina + his father are Both the "Halves" of ilya -> the half that causes harm, that acts terrible, that subjects people to his illness, vs the half that is weak, that is gentle, that shows his fear, that is at least partially pure + exposed + vulnerable

the way his ability to perpetuate violence is something he has to hold + contend with

the way he refuses view this ability as anything other than dangerous and terrible, but that doesnt mean hes gotten rid of it . he still sees it in himself

The way his connection to violence makes him view his gentleness as a wolf in sheeps clothing

the way shanes disconection from violence + makes him especially able view ilyas cruelty as a vessel for gentleness and care and pleasure

the way shanes view of ilya changes the way ilya views himself

the way shane seeing all of ilya and still being able to see him as gentle + worthy of trust makes ilya see Himself that way

The two sides of ilyas face + then staring straight on as a half his dad half his mom . Shane finding the value in his entirety. <- something just for me .

The way shane holding him is interspersed w ilya losing control in the exact way he fears would make him unfixable, shane can love that part of him too! does love that part of him "kiss the bad ways i have been"

When we parted ways, neither he, nor I dared to cry But why is it then since, sleep hasn't touched our eyes

He was my companion but not in harmony were we Like sunshine and shadows, separated yet intertwined, you see

We had our share of fights, our difference of opinions and beliefs My lover had it all, but not a speck of infidelity in him

He was my companion, but not in harmony were we…

: kyra dione

(urdu words can have multiple meanings, and i had fun playing around with them in this video and trying to draw out the ones that i wanted you to know. i'm providing the translation for those of you who are interested in a more straightforward approach.)

like, he v clearly says 'get on your knees'. so that's his plan and his desire. he clearly wants shane below him on his knees, sucking his cock. he wants to manhandle shane, 'get on your stomach,' 'i want to fuuuUck you', etc. he's not hesitant, he's not unsure that shane will obey. the reins are in ilya's hands. he calms shane down. he lays out their plans to fuck. he puts shane where he wants him. he dominates shane clearly and in a way that makes them both ragingly horny.