Goodbyebread

I caught on fire once

At a tea house in NW Portland

I caught on fire once

And all the waitress could do

Was throw a wet towel on me

And apologize

The huge, gaping hole in my jacket

Won’t forgive and it definitely

Won’t forget

That I caught on fire once in a tea house in NW Portland

Right after you burnt a huge gaping hole in my chest

In my chest, right next to my heart

Beating weakly now,

My heart won’t forgive

And it definitely won’t forget

That you burnt a huge gaping hole in my chest

The winter that I first moved to Portland

And it’s happened a million times since

And I definitely don’t forget

But I keep all the things that are damaged

The goods that someone decided weren’t good enough anymore

Or maybe they never were

I carry these things to remind me

That only I know why these items still hold up

In spite of holes + burn scars

El Bautizo de Daniela, CDMX 2018

Tio Manchi + Daniela

I taste you

Even though I know that I shouldn’t

At night we say all that we need to say

But can’t during the day

Your ego gets in the way

But I ignore it

In the dark

You hold my hand

As if you mean it

when you say that you’ll never let go but

I know that you will

And you will

You send radioactive waves through my body

Roaring tides and whirlpools in my stomach

Whenever you grab my neck or back

The sound of your breath in my ear

Reminds me of whale songs through your bedroom window

My body is vacant

only seconds before

You come in between us

Belly to belly

We lay