Headcanon : Derek D'Souza dating Raggie's Sister!reader
So, I'm writing again after ages, and honestly, I have no idea how this turned out. This one's dedicated to @maxpaglu and @vexillia ...Thank you for supporting me, and helping me find my way back to writing.. Love you babies ❣️
• You knew about Derek before he even spoke to you. Raggie mentioned him a few times, always with that particular edge in his voice that is reserved for people he finds genuinely threatening. When you finally see him in person, you understand why.
• The first conversation happens by accident when both of you reach for the same canteen counter space. Which somehow leads to a dry comment from him about H3 and a drier one back from you. He looks at you like nobody has talked back to him like that in a while. That was the beginning of everything.
• Maya notices it first the way she notices everything about you. When she addresses it, she says it softly like it’s fragile, almost like she's talking to herself, "He's different from what Raggie thinks him to be." You don't respond. Not because you disagree. Because saying anything out loud would make it real, and some part of you is still deciding whether you're ready for that. Maya doesn't push.
• Soon your paths start crossing. He's different one-on-one. Quieter, more careful. He asks about you and actually listens, which you weren't expecting. You mention a book once offhand, and a few days later you see him reading it in the library. When you call him out on it, he looks somewhere between caught and unbothered. You don't let it go and he almost smiles. It was barely there but you felt your heart twist inside your chest.
• He knows who you are. You know he knows. Neither of you name it. Raggie sits between every conversation like something neither of you want to trip over. So, you both decide it is better to ignore and deal with it when the time comes.
• Derek had a reputation. He was used to everyone being scared of him. So, when you're not, he can't figure out what to do with that. He keeps waiting for you to treat him carefully the way people do when they want something from him. You just argue with him about GC and steal food off his plate and look at him like he's completely ordinary. It undoes him a little every time.
• He remembers every small thing, like the route you take after lectures, the way you eat late and go quiet when you're annoyed. He doesn't do anything with this information. He just holds it. That's how he knows he is down bad.
• And then someone from H3 sees you and Derek at the canteen and tells Raggie the way people tell things they know will land badly, with just enough details. Raggie comes to you that evening. Not yelling. Quiet and controlled, which is somehow worse. He says Derek is playing you to get back at him. He says you don't know what their history actually is. He says you're smarter than this.
• He doesn't forbid you outright. He just goes cold which is worse than shouting, the one that means he's genuinely hurt. You grew up with that expression. It works on you even when you know he's wrong. You spend three days not knowing what to do with yourself.
• Derek hears about it. He doesn't ask you what happened or push for your side of it. He just quietly disappears. No more canteen, no more accidental run-ins, no more study sessions in library. It's considerate and it makes you furious. Maya sits with you that night and for once doesn't say anything chaotic. She just lets you be angry.
• The absence is worse than the tension was. You watch H4 lose an event at GC from the H3 stands and see Derek hold the boys together anyway, relentless and steady and you wish you were there to support and comfort him. That day you go back to your hostel and stare at the ceiling for a long time and finally make the decision.
• You find him behind H4 after practice, sitting on the ground with a cigarette in his hand, looking at nothing. You sit nearby without asking. He doesn't tell you to leave. The silence settles into something comfortable. After a while he sits closer.
• He eventually says that your brother was not wrong to be careful with you. You stay quiet for a while before saying that Raggie was wrong about him. Derek looks at you sideways, checking if you mean it. You did. He turns back to the dark and nods once, slowly, like something has been decided. He looks lighter after that.
• Raggie doesn't come around easily and you don't rush him. Everything shifts is the GC final when he watches H4 fight with everything they have, and he watches how Derek refuses to let his team collapse even when they should. Raggie has spent years dismissing H4 as a joke but watching Derek that day, he couldn’t do it anymore.
• Raggie finds you in the crowd afterward. He doesn't say sorry cause that's not how Raggie functions. Doesn't say he was wrong. He just stands next to you and watches Derek with the H4 boys and says, quietly, "He doesn't give up, does he." It's the most he's capable of offering and you take it.
• He and Derek never become friends. That would be too neat, too fast. But there's a moment weeks later where they're in the same space and Raggie nods at him, not warm, just real and Derek nods back. You watch it from across the room. It's the smallest possible thing but it means everything.
• The H4 boys fold you in without ceremony. Mummy talks to you like you've always been there. Anni gives Derek one look of pure teasing that Derek ignores completely. You realize at some point that you've started thinking of these loud, chaotic so-called losers as yours too. You don't say this out loud. Derek would definitely make fun of you but he would also be quietly, completely delighted.
• He never says the big things directly. He just remembers everything, makes space for you without being asked, shows up quietly and consistently in a hundred small ways. You've learned to read him. You already knew. You just wait for him to know that you know.
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