GOLD LIGHTER

shoutout to theo decker cause not only do i have major depression and severe anxiety but my pills made me worse and i hate doctors and the idea of having to tell them my problems makes me want to chug a gallon of vodka but i have an appointment in an hour now :)

whoever wrote “I wear bespoke suits. I swim twice a week. I socialize with people I can't stand. I'm relaxed, personable. I don't indulge in self pity. It's true what I read, "We're so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others, that in the end we become disguised to ourselves."” in the goldfinch movie has literally never read the book or proof read the script cause i’m sorry person but in what would is theo decker relaxed, sociable and not INDULGE IN SELF PITY?

should i actually read dracula or should i test my will power and see how long it takes me to read all 454 completed+english fan fictions under the theo x boris tag on ao3?

it’s finally time… i am officially changing my outcast-adventures blog that i started as a way to cope with being a teen runaway with no friends and sharing the things i do by myself to what this blog has essentially been since the beginning… my soul being completely consumed by the goldfinch.

it’s sad to say but whenever i need motivation to do something in my life i think “theo decker did it”, in summary i relate too hard and can’t let him one up me.

after the scene cut, in the goldfinch movie, after boris calls out “potter” outside of the shop, theo actually ran into boris’ arms and they kissed for a minute before theo realized they were in public and had too much internalized homophobia and that is why boris suggested they go have a drink inside the bar where the scene picks back up.

wallows is my favourite band and they just released “at the end of the day” and it sounds like it’s part of the goldfinch soundtrack and the video has vegas vibes.