hot hunks 2005

if i die and leave and get martyred in this war, i will not forgive the Arab leaders who failed us. we lived through difficult days without food or water, and my hair is turning white even though i'm so young. may god never forgive you or give you relief. i swear i will tell the creator about you.

forgive me, mom. i love you so much. please don't be sad when i die.

my message to the people of egypt, yemen, jordan, algeria, libya, lebanon, tunisia, sudan, somalia, malaysia - please don't leave Gaza alone. please, please promise me to take care of her. i love you all, please don't leave us.

if anyone finds my message, please spread it.

the martyr, godwilling, Mohammad Abdulqader Husseini

like im not gonna go into the myriad of ways this is bs but like a quick example is i cant tell my doctors about my substance use issues because if i get that listed on my medical records it will actively endanger me. It will impact how I'm treated in emergency situations and will get me labeled as "drug seeking" when i try to get other issues dealt with.

i dont say this to scare people but because this is actually important information for people to have. if a medical professional claims this isnt an issue, they are NOT "one of the good ones". they are either straight up lying or theyre utterly unaware, which is frankly not better. doctors are cops. never forget it

I had a doctor once ask my father to leave the room, then proceeded to tell me that my sore throat was all in my head, and I was making it up for attention -- because I was bipolar. I told him no, that wasnt the case, I was genuinely sick, and he rolled his eyes, said he would do a strep test "to make me feel better", did the test, and left. 20 minutes later he came back and told me the strep test came back positive. No apology, nothing.

This was for strep throat. I had similar things happen for much more important stuff that I dont want to get into. I'm in the middle of a very long process for a condition thats giving me progressive spinal cord damage, and all I can think about is that if I had "substance use disorder" on my medical record, how likely is it that I would just not have been listened to about this. If you have anxiety youre a "hypochondriac". If you're an addict you're "drug seeking". if you're bipolar or schizospec you're making it up, possibly for attention. This shit kills people. This isnt even getting into the inherently carceral nature of the psychiatric system in the US (and elsewhere)