Dailylog

How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard…!

“Water does not resist. Water flows. When you plunge your hand into it, all you feel is a caress. Water is not a solid wall, it will not stop you. But water always goes where it wants to go, and nothing in the end can stand against it. Water is patient. Dripping water wears away a stone. Remember that, my child. Remember you are half water. If you can't go through an obstacle, go around it. Water does.”

It was an unexpected but glad four-days-long-holiday.

Thursday, Friday, Saturday and... Sunday, yes, today is the last day.

Recently I found a bookcafe in Yeonnam-dong around Hongik Univ. Station. Pretty stoked about this place! A variety of book collection, wide glass window and good music... I was determined to come to this cafe early in the morning hoping that I could take a seat I like.

I chose a vanilla latte today. I wasn’t a person who used to enjoy coffee everyday, but since I started working after graduating a college, drinking coffee or having any kinds of drinks next to me kinda became my habit. A cup of coffee(usually latte for me) is a must at work or at a cozy cafe.

When I came to this cafe two days ago, it was raining. It’s sunny and shiny today but somehow I like the atmosphere of rainy days more.  After ordering coffee, even though I knew that I can’t finish all those books, I picked up 6 books that caught my eyes.

The sound of music is a bit loud, but the selection is pretty good so I don’t mind listening to it. When songs are really great and want to keep listening, I open my music app that enables me to figure out what that music is. It’s really good and useful:-)

Thought about inviting some of my friends, but it would be also good just to spend Sunday like this by myself - reading, writing, surfing the net...

By the way, this is my random note simply following my thoughts that pop up now in my mind... just to keep myself daily log.

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umm.. it has been a few months since we have been apart physically. Simple things like sharing normal and cozy moments become difficult when two people are in a long distance relationship. Helpless!

but I’m doing well. It’s not like pretending, but I’m doing really well. With my previous coworkers and friends, I’ve been keeping myself busy while learning how to play the guitar, going to the dance class almost everyday, going to a bike riding and oh yeah, definitely enjoying my new job. It has been grateful and happy spring so far.

“Smile with face, smile with mind, and good energy will come to you and clean away dirty energy.” “You need to learn how to select your thoughts just the same way you select your clothes every day. This is a power you can cultivate. If you want to control things in your life so bad, work on the mind. That's the only thing you should be trying to control.” “To lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a balanced life.” 

  “When I get lonely these days, I think: So BE lonely, Liz. Learn your way around loneliness. Make a map of it. Sit with it, for once in your life. Welcome to the human experience. But never again use another person's body or emotions as a scratching post for your own unfulfilled yearnings.” “I think I deserve something beautiful.” “To travel is worth any cost or sacrifice.” “There's no trouble in this world so serious that it can't be cured with a hot bath, a glass of whiskey, and the Book of Common Prayer.”

“There’s a crack (or cracks) in everyone…that’s how the light of God gets in.” “I want God to play in my bloodstream the way sunlight amuses itself on the water.” “To find the balance you want, this is what you must become. You must keep your feet grounded so firmly on the earth that it's like you have 4 legs instead of 2. That way, you can stay in the world. But you must stop looking at the world through your head. You must look through your heart, instead. That way, you will know God.”   “People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master...” “It's still two human beings trying to get along, so it's going to be complicated. And love is always complicated. But humans must try to love each other, darling. We must get our hearts broken sometimes. This is a good sign, having a broken heart. It means we have tried for something.” “I’m here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. If you need the medication again, go ahead and take it—I will love you through that, as well. If you don’t need the medication, I will love you, too. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me." "Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it.