Vida looked down at her scar as she curled her leg in closer to her chest. âIt might not be what youâre dealing with, but it feels big to me.â Her fingers traced the length as she continued, not meeting his eyes. âI used to run track. I was the best. In my school. In my district. In my state. I was the fastest. I had a full ride to any college I wanted. I had a boyfriend that was going to follow me. I had the world in front of me, down at my feet.â She swallowed slowly to clear the emotion. When that didnât work, she downed the rest of her wine. God, sheâd kill for some whiskey right about now. âI got hurt at a meet. Just a small tear, but they told me not to compete for a while. I hated it. I couldnât practice. I couldnât focus on anything else. So, eventually I just decided that I was fine. I mean, it didnât hurt anymore. It didnât bother me at all so I figured I was clear.â She bit her lip as her eyes lost focus and she went back in time to that day. âThe next meet I competed. I made it through the first event fine. Not even a twinge. Then, about half way through the second my knee just buckled. It happened all of a sudden and in slow motion all at once. I could feel it tear. Then I just collapsed on the track. I couldnât move it without screaming.â Her voice faltered, too thick with emotions sheâd fought to bury. âThey did surgery and I had to do rehab. I swear sometimes that was worse than tearing it. And even after all that, they said Iâll never be able to run like I used to. I tried of course, but it wasnât the same. It never will be.â For a few moments she was quiet, focused on breathing and not crying. She forced a smile as she met his eyes again. âLike I said, seems silly.â So convincing, Vida. Why donât you tel him youâre the Queen of England now? Heâll totally believe you.
Hadrian watched Vida as she spoke, his face blank. Thoughts were running through his mind and he wasn`t sure if he wanted them to slow down - something told him that whatever he`d realize would not be a happy realization. The truth was, that the only reason she was there and he was hearing her story was because he refused to think. What good would it bring him now? Yet, her final words brought a deep frown on his face. âDon`t take me for an idiot, Miss Bluster. It makes me cringe,â he exhaled as he continued to sit there, watching her, examining her. His own experience was rather different from hers - in his case, he always struggled to get to the top, but constantly failed. Vida had everything but then lost it. And yet, he felt like he could relate to her in a sense. âThe most important thing to you, the thing which defined you was taken away. That is enough to mess with a grown man`s head - I am afraid I don`t want to know what it could do to a merely developing personality.â Hadrian fell quiet after that, lost in thought, his eyes still on hers. Eventually though he stood up and walked back to the drink`s cabinet - wine was definitely not strong enough to dull his senses that moment. The worst part was that it was slowly becoming clear to him why she got so hooked on the way he treated her - and that in turn got him annoyed with himself. He should have known better. âYou`re damaged,â he breathed out as he poured himself a glass of whisky and took a big gulp. âI`m sorry I took advantage of that.âÂ
Hadrian knew better than anyone how easy it was to play with someone`s mind in that condition. He should have known better. No, he should have tried harder. And he truly was sorry. Suddenly he started to see Vida as someone fragile and needing of protection - and he was only used to dealing with strong, independent personalities. That was why he felt as if he used her. And the fact that that moment he was being completely blind and a hypocrite didn`t even cross his mind.Â














