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overshot my injection this week, and apparently today is peak blood concentration per the transfemscience.org simulator, which explains why i keep getting distracted from everything i've been doing today by fantasizing abt getting railed

Can we all pray something nice happens to me tomorrow

(desperate for cock voice) im not desperate for cock

probably craziest thing that happened to me at AC: I was rooming with a 30something married couple who i kind of hit it off w and on the 3rd day we went to a rave that turned out to be more of a play party and started fooling around a bit w each other while on a lot of psychedelics. and after a good while of that (awesome) someone else there (not them) did an unpleasant thing to me and it sent me to a pretty bad place, so they understandably shifted down from "fuck lizzy mode" into "comfort lizzy mode" and got me back to the hotel and got me to sort-of-sleep sandwiched btwn them. we're all sort-of-coming-down off our varying polypharmacic mixes of speed, ket, metocin, shrooms, 5mapb so sleep doesn't come easy but I get a little bit. but what I woke up to, is the husband staring at me with this really soft look in his eyes and just SO slowly and gently brushing the back of his hands or fingers or nails against the most sensitive parts of my skin. and I am of course an exceedingly jumpy and ticklish person who yelps basically whenever anyone touches me, but i am also in direct skin contact with his sleeping wife on the other side of me so i understand the implication to be "i'm going to tease you for an indefinite period of time but do NOT wake her up". so im just struggling against my instincts for probably like literal hours in the very late night, with him sometimes very quietly getting out of bed for a few minutes to leave me w her asleep then coming back and continuing and etc multiple times. in the early morning he finally says "let's go to the other room" and we dryhump on the couch so crazily desperately until we hear someone else in the suite wake up and we stop. And still neither of us have came! And then we had to go about our days like we didn't just do this

and i'm still thinking about it

free use is kind of a funny kink bc it relies on the idea that everybody wants to touch you and have sex with you but what if they don't. what if you tell everybody at the party you're free use but they all ignore you and mind their own business

how about bodywriting but instead of stuff like "RAPE DOLL" or "SNUFFBAIT" or etc like that stuff usually is it's like "REGULAR NICE GIRL"

and there should be some sort of ministry for which to regulate the bestowal of regular nice girl status