I'm a broken girl in a broken world.

here’s the deal…

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Wie kann man so ein Fehler sein?

Ich bin einfach nur Dreck und bei dem Gedanken brech ich in Tränen aus.

21.04.21

10.08.21

It's been two years since you've been gone dad

I'm devastated and sad, and I know I'm being selfish for crying and feeling like that, I know you're in a better place now

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you, too much has happened these two years that I want to tell you about

I miss you and I need you

I need to talk to you

All the time I had with you, all the time I wasted not spending it with you, I should've spent more time with you, should've talked to you more

I don't even have a picture with you..

I did so many wrong things, so many disappointments

So many regrets in my head.

I'm sorry,

I feel like I never made you proud.

I have mornings where I still feel like I'd wake up and you'd be home, days where I still feel like I'd message you and you'd message back, it's like a constant nightmare because the feeling that I'll never see you again has never gone away, but I know you're gone, I know you're in a better place now.

You were so kind, always smiling, always helping people, always there for everyone, you were the strongest person I've ever met,

you were an angel,

and we didn't deserve you.

I'm trying to be better, I hope you forgive me and I hope I make you proud.