The Mind Behind These Hazel Eyes

Happy birthday week, my darling angel. I can't believe it's been nine years since I gave birth to you. I never thought I would experience the feeling of loving someone so much, so profoundly, so deeply... to say hello and goodbye in the same memory was utterly excruciating. I held so much anger, grief, resentment, confusion, and so many conflicting emotions. But, through these last almost four years, I have slowly had time to process these emotions in different ways. This year, since we can't have gluten and have diabetic issues with your siblings. I decided to do some healing with making your homemade birthday cake. Usually, we have it made by a bakery, but this year, I poured two days into making this cake. And let myself feel any emotion that crept up while I was creating it. Which made the creation of this cake so much more special to me. Happy birthday, my sweet angel girl. You continue to help with your mama bear growth, even being separated by time, space, and heaven. I now rest easier, knowing that you live forever within my heart. I love you, and I can now thank God for the experience in learning how to truly love and remember someone who is no longer with me. I hope you enjoyed your heavenly birthday this year, my sweet Elsa, we enjoyed celebrating you here at home.

The harbinger of light, always awaiting the challenge of the day. The look on her face, should tell you how excited she truly is. 😆

I felt like sharing this one. I just finished drawing this on my iPad. I was asked to make the background to a flyer for an upcoming festival. And I came up with this. It's an old country back road in a little town called Poolesville, MD.