this loneliness is crushing my ribs into a thousand crystal pieces

i can’t believe i had to be the one to get you to tell me that you didnt love me anymore

sitting here wondering if you’ll say something first

screaming until your throat is fucking raw

i think my head is filled with smoke

you were holding me so tight but i woke up cold

i cant believe i let you so close to me. look how that turned out

i cant hear your laugh in my head anymore

i wouldnt be like this if i knew how not to be like this, ok?

im ready for what doesnt exist to become real now

why cant i stop looking at you

i had a dream where you traced my spine with your fingertips and breathed into my neck; it happened again but the awakening is still abrupt & i hate that youre still in my head

yeah sorry i didnt reply my anxiety was eating me alive

i am so tired of the life im leading

“it doesnt matter anymore if we dont touch again. i just dont know where to put my hands when we talk.”