🍄Forest Of Thoughts And Feelings🍄

I miss my fucking dad man, I hate feeling so alone. I have literally no one, I have no where to go if I wanna escape, if I wanted to leave I’d have no where to go, I don’t want to leave but I want and need you to understand and feel how I’m feeling. I don’t feel like myself I’ve never been clingy or controlling but I feel like I’m losing my mind, I can’t even sleep because you’re not in the bed with me what the fuck is wrong with me, I haven’t stoped crying since you opened the door but I can’t ask you to come home because then I’m her and I don’t wanna be her I want you to have fun but at the same time I want you to be here I want you to put me first and I know that’s selfish, you said half one but we’ll see, we’ll see how many hours of sleep I do my 12 hour shift on but oh well I’m just 24

I love my job so much it’s so rewarding and I genuinely feel like I make a difference in the lives of the people I care for and their families but it can be so mentally and physically draining and it takes up so much of my time, I wish I had more time to spend outdoors, spend time with my partner or my hobbies or even just time to work on myself but on my days off I’m just so tired and I need to recharge. Some days a regular boring 9-5 seems very appealing but ah well ✨🪴