my own little world.

I told you I wanted all or nothing. So if you won't give me the all, I'm going to give you the nothing.

I'm going to miss you so much it's tearing me apart. They always talk about right person wrong time and it wasn't until I met you I realised how right they were. So much of our timing was indeed perfect for perhaps a fling but I never imagined we'd amount to this. Now I'm sitting here at the thought of letting you go and my heart is literally falling into a million pieces. I'm so sorry it had to be like this.

I've found my one. The one who makes me feel like I'm the only girl he sees when we're in a full room of people. Who can make me smile just by being there. Who's proud to tell his friends about me. This guy is perfect. But I have to leave and I know by the time I return he'll be someone else's one and the thought of this absolutely kills me.

"So that's it," he said, "you won't develop feelings for me and I won't for you." As we lay together, my head on his chest and my heart beating a million miles an hour. "That's it." I said, with a hint of sadness in my voice, coz I knew right then and there the feelings had already started. And now I'm not quite sure how to make them stop.