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the wonderful and talented @kowabungadoodles designed these jerseys for the owls and i am blown away. The heart-shaped owl logo! 😭

perfection.

(there is more owls lore on the way it is all in my head. It just needs to go on the page) (thank you to everyone who loves this fic and this team. i love you.)

Chapters: 1/10 Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov Characters: Ilya Rozanov, Shane Hollander, Yuna Hollander, David Hollander, Various Ottawa Centaurs Additional Tags: Mpreg | Male Pregnancy, Pregnant Ilya Rozanov, POV Ilya Rozanov, Post Heated Rivalry, The Long Game Canon Divergence, The Mortifying Ordeal of Being Known, you bottom one time and the universe says ‘bet’ Summary:

In late October, Ilya picks up some kind of freakish Canadian flu that dogs him into November.

It is the weirdest shit. He has to duck out of practice because his nose starts bleeding twice in one week and he wakes up in a hotel in Columbus with another one that leaves stains on the pillow. On the flight back to Ottawa, Hazy drops into the seat next to Ilya midflight and asks, “This isn’t, like, a cocaine thing, right?”

Ilya laughs so hard it’s probably a little rude.

Yeah like, even in canon JJ sees Ilya with kids, he sees Ilya with his teammates (namely Wyatt who JJ calls after the almost crash cause he “loves that guy”). He might not see all of Ilya but he sees such clear examples of things Shane loves about Ilya (the way he plays around for fun on the ice at hockey camp, the way he diffuses tense situations, the ways he handles conflict, the way he leads) and still doesn’t really get it.

In a slightly kinder universe, Alexei doesn't get twisted by their situations into a sharpened thorn to bleed Ilya.

In a slightly kinder universe Ilya and Alexei are all they have, quietly managing their father together until they can be free of him.

In a slightly kinder universe Alexei still does the hard things, but this time the hard things is slowly poisoning their father. Grigori dies in 2008, before the draft.

In a slightly kinder universe Alexei never met his daughter's mother, never married her, never had a daughter at all.

In a slightly kinder universe Alexei attends the draft at Ilya's side, stumbling through English but doing what he's always done: protect his baby brother. Like their Mama asked him to when Ilya was born.

In a slightly kinder universe Alexei marries an American woman and lives in Boston. Ilya has no reason to go home except to fulfill his visa requirements.

In a slightly kinder universe Alexei knows about Ilya, knows his brother, sees how his brother looks at Shane, and worries that the Canadian golden boy is gonna break his brother's heart.

In a slightly kinder universe, in 2016, he's proven correct, when Ilya starts to shut down emotionally seemingly out of nowhere. He's still their for his multiple nieces and nephews, but there's something empty behind his eyes and it reminds Alexei of their Mama. And it scares him.

In a slightly kinder universe Alexei begs Ilya to talk to someone, because he cannot be an orphan alone. He cannot explain to his children why their дядя Ilya isn't going to come play Princess Tea Party anymore.

In a slightly kinder universe Alexei meets the Hollanders at an All Star game in 2018 and they're so overwhelmingly loving that Alexei has to take his leave to a bathroom to cry about it.

In a slightly kinder universe Alexei uses his mother's maiden name, gives it to his children, and erases his father from existence.

In a slightly kinder universe when Ilya moves to Ottawa his brother moves next door. Family dinners at the Hollanders include Alexei, his wife, and his five children who are fast friends with the Pikes once they're in the know.

When they’re together Ilya will wander over and sit with him for a couple of hours, cuddling or even just slightly touching. Just existing together.

I think there’s something to the ages of the twins especially, they’re at the age where they’re back to pushing boundaries especially ones they don’t understand the reason for.

I think about the conversation about Ilya and Shane. About them understanding that they can’t talk about Shane and Ilya being in love and getting married because it wouldn’t be safe for them.

I think that they see the Metros, who they’ve grown up around/seeing at Metros family things, turn their backs on not just Shane, but likely also Hayden and JJ.

I think that Hayden has it reinforced for himself that there are acceptable things and unacceptable things in hockey.

Shane locks the door to their gym and works out alone, without an audience, and makes sure Ilya knows he’s wearing a tiny white tshirt and even tinier white short shorts and his backwards Rozanov 81 Cens ball cap.

Halfway through just to be a shit Shane FaceTimes Rose.

Shane tied up with body-safe bondage tape, just has to take it.

Ilya’s set him up like that and left him, plugged up, on their bed. Shane hears Ilya leave the house. It’s not a high stress position, and being forced to stay still with constant compression is relaxing.

Ilya returns from his jog around the block to Shane asleep and still leaking, having some sort of blissful wet dream.

Of course Ilya fucks Shane, finishes in him, and leaves him dripping.

Shane wakes up feeling so refreshed and-

And Ilya used him, came, and left again.

Their dolls also end up “dating” when they get together bc they move in together (as in they share a home base, kinda like their version of the cottage) and the dolls go on a shelf together, p much holding hands.

When Lisa has a bad shift at work and suddenly has Wyatt planning how he wants to be buried/his funeral and Shane and Ilya both decide when they die (at the same time) they will be sharing a coffin. Or even better going full Classics mode and mixing their ashes together. They declare this out loud then return to stick taping.

Shane calling Lisa to ask if they (doctors) would do elective surgery to transplant their bones into each other on speaker phone. Ilya is beaming.

Shane watching Ilya tape his stick. Ilya who only developed his “way” of taping his stick post 2017 All Stars when he saw how Shane did it. They match. Shane acts like Ilya is performing a strip tease.

Ilya hearing Shane talk to the new Russian rookie in Russian, talking abt how if he ever needs anything to call Shane and/or Ilya. He knows how isolating it can be etc etc. Ilya finds it sweet but is irrationally possessive about Shane speaking Russian to anyone else ever.

And you just.

Said no????