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and i am not neglecting my loved ones

far from it i would say

i just can’t do as much in regards to energy and quality time right now

school is exhausting, work is exhausting, commuting is exhausting, and lately my social interactions have been relatively exhausting as well

i would love to be more present for my loved ones however right now i’m doing all that i can to be present with them while also being present for myself

i have a lot that i’m taking care of and it feels like i’m disappointing the people around me by not doing more but i am just one person and right now i am doing the best that i can

and maybe it’s wrong and unfair for me to feel that some of them don’t understand even after i tried to communicate that

however i am not someone who can control my feelings

i can only control the way i view things and reframe my thinking

and not just romantic love

i hate the idea of being expected to do it.

being a woman is exhausting and i hate how so much of our society attaches a woman’s worth to their beauty.

it’s always good to take care of yourself and i’m not condemning wanting to alter your appearance to feel more comfortable in your own skin,

however i hate feeling like society deems me as worth less if i’m not always objectively attractive.

i don’t think how society treats people should be tied to their appearance which should literally be the most obvious thing ever but for some reason its not?