sometimes i wanna just chill and live

Alright, so I’ve struggled with depression for the better portion of my life and I have a lot of weird mental links with satisfaction of my art and my self-worth and lately ive been feeling incredibly dissatisfied with my art. Due to tons of emotional abuse and shit.

Ever since middle school i felt i had to stifle who i was and what i liked to survive and created this mental barrier. I feel like a hull of a person but I’ve only just recently began to explore who i am and what i like. Its been exhilarating and fun but. Now im frustrated that i cant fucking figure out how to incorporate that into my art??? I cant FEEL ENOUGH to put it into my art and its more than likely a side effect of depression.

Basically i just really want to take a break and fall back in love with myself/some aesthetics/and art again. its a passion for me and i dont want to give up on it forever bc its my love.