A Strangely Dislikeable Person

Is one part of you allowed to forgive the other?

(X)

“Why’d you help me out back there. You didn’t have to. Why did you?”

I can feel Peeta press his forehead into my temple and he asks, “So now that you’ve got me, what are you going to do with me?” 

Frame by frame of Peeta having an episode.

“Start by pulling him out of the fire and hoping that he will forget the smell. He was supposed to be an angel but they took him from that light and turned him into something hungry, something that forgets what his hands are for when they aren’t shaking. He will lose so much, and you will watch it all happen because you had him first, and you would let the world break its own neck if it means keeping him. Start by wiping the blood off of his chin and pretending to understand. Repeat to yourself “I won’t leave you, I won’t leave you” until you fall asleep and dream of the place where nothing is red. When is a monster not a monster? Oh, when you love it.”

“Who would want to believe that they never met again, never fulfilled their love? Who would want to believe that, except in the service of the bleakest realism? I couldn’t do it to them… I like to think that it isn’t weakness or evasion, but a final act of kindness, a stand against oblivion and despair, to let my lovers live and to unite them at the end.”

…..“You’re back,” I say. 

Girl talk.  

“When I see you again, it’ll be a different world.”

There’s no reason to believe they’re going to see each other again. He has nightlock on hand as “last-resort stuff,” and she’s leaving on a suicide mission to kill Snow, but he tells her this anyway. Because he’s Peeta, and he always thinks of the right thing to say. Hopeful, encouraging, and sweet, he gives her his faith that she can change the world. 

She breathes in the sound of his words and buries her face in his neck because her boy with the bread is back.

Everlark + Goodbyes

They’ve reached the point where they can’t be specific about when they’re going to see each other again. Because neither one believes they ever will.