under co.

My body has been to weak and I have gained new types of seizures in the past month. My biggest thing is that I thought I’d be in work by now… but I am not. I lost 70+ lbs, am constantly fatigued from all the pills that keep me from puking all day long and the ones that keep me sane.

I do not want this to come across as a pity thing, but after losing the weight, I no longer have winter close that fit me. I live in the Midwest and it is already snowing and I was already cold in the summer. I was wondering if anyone could help me out in the slightest. I know it’s a big stretch, but I’m desperate. Right now, the list is out of order: I definitely need clothes more than cat collars, but they’d appreciate it too.

I hate asking for clothes of all things, but my partner does not have the money for it and does not believe in buying clothes anyway. But I love him still he understands me.

If you can help, I would be extremely grateful. Here is my Amazon Wishlist, or just my CashApp $dollyghoul or Venmo ddollfacedd if you’d like to donate to help us with food, cat things, bills. Literally anything helps at this point.

Even if you can’t help, I would deeply appreciated if you could share this post and be forever thankful. I’m starting to live my life to the fullest now. Trying to be happy. Get over the depression I’ve been trying to fight my entire life.

I hope you guys can at least reblog this even if you can’t do anything else. It would really help me out. Thank you and I wish peace, health, and harmony among you all. 💕

I am reblogging this on my currently abandoned blogs in hope that it gains a little traction. I’m not looking for anything for any of you, but maybe a reblog if you have a personal blog? The help me and my family could get would be appreciated no matter what. All and all, I hope you’re not mad at me for the abandonment and can now understanding. I love you all. So much.

NOT spoiler free.  contains triggering subjects: missing persons, age gaps mentions, + more. please read and reblog with caution.

’ i’m guilty for loving him/her/them. and for hating him/her/them. for killing him/her/them. ‘

‘ i’m guilty for loving him/her/them. ‘

‘ i’m guilty for killing him/her/them. ‘ 

‘ if you search her/him/them room, you’ll probably find it. ‘

‘ you’re not lying. ‘

‘ i didn’t see you. ‘ 

‘ i saw a woman/man living freely. not in a basement. ‘

‘ it didn’t make sense for a missing person to be in the living room making a call. ‘

‘ have you kissed someone significantly older? ‘

‘ are you daring me to? ‘

‘ i think because of our friendship, it’s where it all went wrong. ‘

‘  you’re officially a missing person. the police are looking for you. ‘

‘  friendship happens between two willing parties. ‘

‘ given the power dynamic between you, i wouldn’t call it that. ‘

‘ i can fix this. i’ll go home. i’ll tell them.. ‘

‘ i don’t know. i told you i’m not a good liar. ‘

‘ i need your help. ‘

‘  you kinda made it open season when you gave her/him/them a black eye! ‘

‘ why did you do it? ‘

‘ i didn’t have a reason not to believe her/him/them. ‘

‘ i don’t care! you abandoned me! ‘

‘ why isn’t she/he/they running faster? ‘

‘ then why would you send this letter?! ‘

‘ i will die trying to protect you from everything. ‘

‘ that’s a pretty big commitment at sixteen. ‘

‘ it’s a little bit of a stretch, don’t you think? ‘

‘ i know, just … call it a mother’s/father’s intuition. i feel it in my bones. ‘

‘ you’re so smart, you’re open, and you’re bold. ‘

‘  i’m glad, and surprised that we can just sit here together like this. ‘

‘ i want to believe you, but… ‘

‘ i saw you with my own eyes. ‘

‘ i followed you that night! ‘

‘ why are you doing this? ‘

‘ you’ve built a fortress around yourself for good reason. ‘

‘ you deserve kindness, [name:optional.]

‘ being on your side cost me my job, my reputation, my family as i once knew it. ‘

‘ can i confess something? ‘

‘ i used to really dislike you, like a lot. ‘

‘ i don’t hear that very often. ‘ 

‘ secrets are scary because everybody has them. ‘

‘ well, sleep tight. don’t let the bed bugs bite. ‘

‘ our parents have been basically married for a decade and we’re pretty much strangers. ‘

‘ talking might help. i can listen. ‘

‘ a therapist is not a sister/brother. ‘

‘ i don’t go hunting without arming up first. ‘

‘  you are actually trash, [name:optional]!

‘  really? what? no mocking whatsoever?! ‘

‘ i need to ask you something, and you need to tell me the truth. ‘

‘ how many times have you been inside this house? ‘

‘ i got addicted to the rush of it. ‘

‘ i don’t know what’s going on but, i’m here. ‘

‘ you can say that i pulled away from you but you pulled away from me too. ‘

‘ i don’t understand where all this rage is coming from. ‘

‘ but if you want to talk, you know where to find me. ‘

‘ god, you sound just like her/him/them. ‘

‘ i’m so sorry. i jumped to conclusions and i didn’t… ‘

‘ you’re embarrassing yourself. ‘

‘ now run along. ‘

‘ as i very clearly stated, i don’t want to speak with you in this moment. ‘

‘ did you see her/him/them? ‘

‘ i just don’t know what to think. ‘

‘ you know i would never lie to you. i would never lie to you, okay? ‘

‘ you know i would never lie to you. ‘

‘ [name:optional], i hope you rot in hell! ‘

‘ you are getting out and dancing with me this time. ‘

‘ if anyone can hear me, it’s [name:optional]. ‘

‘ that feeling is called guilt. ‘

‘ leave her/him/them alone. ‘

‘ you’re my new favorite person too. ‘

‘ you’re like my favorite person, maybe ever. ‘

‘ i was raised to be afraid of disappointing anybody. ‘

‘ christmas was truly the first time i really afraid of him/her/them. ‘

‘ making me doubt myself is so much worse. ‘

‘ you look awfully young to be an assistant principle. ‘

‘ you don’t know what you’re saying. ‘

‘ i think you should call the cops on me. ‘

‘ i think i’d be the prettiest girl in all of jail. ‘

‘ really nice smile, by the way. ‘

‘ i still don’t get why coffee smells so good yet tastes so bad. ‘

‘ i feel like i just disappeared and she just took my place. ‘

‘ i feel replaceable and it’s not a good feeling. ‘

‘ how did it happen? ‘

‘ i’m not sure you really want to hear about that. ‘

‘ so that’s a no, then. ‘

‘ there’s not a magic pill that fixes things. ‘

‘ we can do the work. ‘

‘ i believed everything you said. ‘

‘ i did everything you asked. ‘

‘ the moment that i questioned you, you tore into me. ‘

‘ you raised me to be blindly obedient. ‘

‘ my whole life, you have been toting me around like one of your purses. ‘

‘ why did you bring her/him/them down here? ‘

‘ hardly anyone knows who i am and i love snacks. ‘

‘ i’m going to be less like myself and more like what you want me to be. ‘

‘ can you not see how cruel that is? ‘

‘ can you not see how you ruined my life! ‘

‘ you didn’t even want it! ‘

‘ you stole what was basically my trauma journal and shared it in a courtroom. ‘

‘ we are just a few months away from the trail. ‘

‘ you’re not giving the impression that you’re the wronged party here. ‘

‘ i am the most hated person in the nation. ‘

‘ and you want me to be more like her/him/them? ‘

‘ we all want what we can’t have even if we have to change ourselves to get it. ‘

‘ there are some moments in life that changes forever. ‘

‘ you really like her/him/them, huh? ‘

‘ can you please just give me a minute. ‘

‘ it’s never going to be normal again.. is it? ‘

‘ you know, i can’t even remember when it ever was. ‘

‘ what’s happening to you.. i can’t even imagine. ‘

‘ i have no one. i have nothing. ‘

‘ [name:optional] isn’t who you think she/he/they is.

‘ we have evil living among us. right beneath our noses. ‘

‘ good aim. i’m impressed. ‘

‘ it’s a pretty lame and embarrassing first impression. ‘

‘ okay, well, i’m not leaving until you tell me. ‘

‘ why didn’t you say hi? ‘

‘ look, i know what i’m doing. ‘

‘ are you still on my side? ‘

‘ your memory’s been shaking since the trauma. ‘

‘ don’t you think it’s possible you didn’t see what you think you saw? ‘

‘ it’s kind of hard to tell which way is up these days. ‘

‘ i need to tell you something that is a long time coming.. you were right. ‘

‘ we kissed and i lied to you about it. ‘

‘ you deserve the truth. ‘

‘ i’m really really sorry. i really don’t know what else to say. ‘

‘ do you want to hit me? ‘

‘ say it again. ‘