I Had A Dream I Saw A Rainbow

Have you ever been so pissed when you’re texting someone that you want to throw your fucking phone away?

And now, of course, my brain is expecting something horrible to happen in the near future.

My therapy session yesterday was the first session I’ve ever had where I didn’t have anything to complain about. I did talk about some things that bother me, but then every time I did, I was like, “But I totally coped with it this way, and then I was fine.” So by the end, my therapist was like, “Um...I have nothing to suggest. Literally nothing. Good job!”

I’m now in a relationship with that guy I was talking about.

Sooooo, I’ve been talking to this guy I met on Craigslist for like a week and a half. I’m still not sure what all of my feelings are about all of this since he’s not the kind of guy I usually go for, and those sort of thoughts pop up sometimes. But inexplicably, I like him a lot so far.

Voguing and/or drag queens have an almost supernatural ability to cheer me up.

I just received a paycheck for the first time in almost 3 months. 

Okay, I love fall as much as the next person, but y’all need to calm down. I’ve been seeing these “sweaters, pumpkin spice lattes, halloween” posts since the middle of June, I swear.

I had this good conversation with my therapist the other day about the concept of “wholeness.” Basically, you don’t try to be happy all the time, and accept your whole range of emotions, even the painful and negative ones. I’ve heard people say stuff like “be in touch with your emotions” or “accept the good and the bad,” but I guess it never hit home until we talked about it in terms of wholeness.