Dictator of Midnight

Taipei, Taiwan

Saw an old Grandfather selling chewing gums outside our hotel lobby. He seems like he suffered from stroke as he cannot move properly.

The last time I traveled, my grandfather passed away due to stroke days after we arrived home. This is the first time I traveled after that.

In some way, I knew it was you Tay.

pray

fight

I know you’ll help us heal and guide us through.

Always.

it’s 8:50pm

and i’ve been on bed since 6:00pm

i just need to sleep

and get over my anxiety attack

and we’ll be alright

everything will be fine

i just need to sleep

for at least 4 hours

Now I'm the same way, overtime all the time, every night, hey
Ready my blessin', now I'm ready how I wait
Never let a friendship get in my way
Never let a blog get in my way
Make the whole song do whatever I say
79th, 79th, 79th, hey
79th, 79th, 79th, hey
Some of my homegirls got lost in the paperwork
They was good friends but I faked the flirt
'Cause if it ain't work, can't make it work
It's been a minute since I called on a friend
Fucked up and fucked all my friends


there’s so much influx of emotions today and it’s overwhelming. felt so numb the entire afternoon. sensation felt more intense when i read a stupid message. i guess i hate being reprimanded on what and how to feel. specially towards something not so “little” that people cant just nudge and move on right away.

i hate it when im mad. i cant do identities. i just get mad at every single person. the fuck is wrong with me

12am thoughts are scarier, i guess

let’s just call it a day