Daydreamer

Moving on doesn’t mean forgetting what happened; it means accepting what happened and not letting that memory affect you anymore than it should now that it is only a fragmentation of your past. 

ASMR boyfriends are DANGEROUS. Literally, cannot get enough. Please recommend me some of your favorites...I’ve watched almost every video of my favorite ASMR youtubers. 

I’m jealous of people who can be poetic in real life, everyday speech. I once had someone tell me: “find what makes you happy, and work towards that happiness.” How do you just come up with that on the spot? It’s so beautiful. I wish I had a beautiful way with words.  

How can you miss someone you haven’t met? How can we long for people we don’t know? Maybe the fact that we don’t know them, is what makes them so special. Right now, they’re anyone we want them to be.

“Stay Gold” in a world where “nothing gold can stay.”

I can never watch videos of Timothee Chalamet for too long without feeling immense pain at the realisation that I will never find someone as beautiful as he.

When I walked up onto the stage and shook the principles hand, it hadn't occurred to me that I had graduated. It still doesn't feel like I have. Things aren't over until they’re really over, which is why I'm so reluctant to getting emotional. I won't cry when I finish my last exam. I won't cry the night before school is to start in the new year. I'll cry when I watch my sisters go to school without me for the first time in 13 years.

I’m usually one for getting emotional, so when I don’t shed a tear at an event that is meant to be emotion packed, I feel...strange. Is there something wrong with me? Is it weird thinking that the only place safe to cry is alone in your bed at night? When everyone else is asleep.

Isn't it crazy to think that some people out there will only ever know you for who you were a few years ago ? They'll never know how you've changed and grown. They'll forever have a narrow image of who you really are.

It doesn't feel like things are ending but they are. I know it won't hit me till its over. I don't want it to be over. Why can't things last forever.

Do you ever think, just for a moment, that anything is possible ?

I just got a Scholarship to a University on the other side of the country which is crazy because I never would have thought that I could get a scholarship. It just felt so out of my league and more like a fantasy than reality. Problem is though, I was planning to go to the University in my city that I've also been accepted into. I was always planning to go it, I only applied for the other as a sort of back up. I wouldn't hesitate going to it if it weren't so far away and if it wasn't famous for its drinking social aspect. My parents are happy that I got the scholarship but they dont want me going there, I don't know if I want to either. Yet I can't help but feel an attraction to it now. It feels nice being wanted. What should I do?