sometimes i think about all the ways i could save the people i love if i ever had to.
i’d jump off cliffs for them. i’d jump into water even if i can’t swim and i know i’m the one who’ll drown.
i’d slap the monster back if it meant the monster would look at me and leave them alone.
there are so many ways i wish i could take their pain away. so many versions of me that are ready to fight to the death for them without even thinking.
and then there are days when i’m so distant from all of them that it scares me. it makes me feel as heartless as the monster i’m trying to protect them from.




















