lee felix enjoyer and shane hollander understander

one day marly is over and shane and ilya and him are playing like call of duty or some shit and marly is like “my mom would kick everyone’s ass at this game growing up and mami hated that we bonded over a killing game.” and ilya and shane stop and turn to marly at the same time who is just clicking away at buttons and shane is the first one to speak like “did you just say mom and mami?” and marly is like “yeah bro im adopted i got lesbian moms. mom is from boston, represent haha! and mami is from ecuador. roz never told you?” and ilya gives wide eyes and raised brows “marly you literally have never told me this.” and marly is like “oh my bad cap haha crazy.” and just goes back to playing the game

The Grammy's adding an asian pop category like lol

i say yay outloud too like this isn't just my internet persona this is real me

picture this it’s shane’s first time in a centaurs locker room pregame. captain ilya is giving his pregame pep talk in typical rozanov fashion. shane is discovering something about himself in real time watching ilya yelling and getting up in the guys faces making them nod in agreement to his words. ilya gets to shane as he’s rambling on about “i want to fucking win!” and then is like “you get that, hollander?” and shane is nodding slow and dazed and a “yes, sir” comes out without thought and then ilya and shane are staring at each other in complete silence for a long second heavy breathing before someone clears their throat and ilya snaps out of it and goes back to his hype speech.

at home afterwards, they go to their bedroom and they just stare at each other in the entry way because the sexual tension has been doing all fucking night and shane drops a breathy “what now, captain?” and Ilya just leaps at him and fucks him so possessively and with so much force Shane has finger print bruises and can feel it for days after

it's fine i don't even need to be part of social groups or friend groups anyway (giant hole appears in my chest spontaneously) ? what's that

id be unstoppable if it wasn't for the evil brain disorder

growing up being autistic but not knowing is just *hiding in room while people are over* *getting tired and needing to recharge after the smallest chores* *getting called a gifted kid* *knowing that you’re “weird” because people are making fun of you but not knowing how to stop being weird* *having adults tell you how “mature” you are* *getting in trouble for not doing work* *convincing yourself that you’re just lazy and stupid because you can’t make yourself do work* *getting really invested in “weird” media*

6 months ago i had heard nothing of shane hollander. this does not seem possible. and yet