Mass Hysteria

I'm trying to revive this blog since I have a lot of free time now and in doing so, I viewed all my previous posts and let me tell you, I was (and still am) an emotional wreck. A lot of the posts were about my feelings because I used this blog to vent before I had a private one. My posts lacked quality and well, blog-worthy stuff. My so-called photography tab is full of bullshit photos that are not even worthy to be posted. 

I've never really gone on a date before and it's not because no one has ever asked me out on one. I don't go on dates because I'm scared and the people who have asked me out are not really my type. Dates scare me because I think of it as something serious—like, relationship serious—since it was drilled into my head that dates are something couples do. I know I sound like a kid but that's what happens when you have an old fashioned mother.

The guys who ask me out on a date are people I barely know and I really don't want to go out with them because it will be awkward since I don't know much about them. I will, however, go out on a date with someone I know/like. I know that dating is supposed to help me get to know a person better but can't that be achieved by texting and/or chatting, and hanging out with that person with other people around? 

One time, I went on this "date"—but I didn't know it was a date until he called it one—and I was nervous the whole time. My hands were literally shaking while we were talking and I couldn't stop blabbering. This is also a reason I'm scared of dating. I don't know how to act around guys, unless they're my guy friends. 

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I've never been this frustrated over one thing before but right now, it's all I think about. I can't help but think that because of the way I am right now, I will definitely end up alone. There are way too many reasons it would be difficult for me to find a partner. Here's a list of some those reasons.

I'm way too picky      I have high standards when it comes to choosing guys, and when he doesn't measure up to even one of those standards, I would most likely not bother with him anymore. I'm not looking for a perfect guy, I'm just looking for the perfect guy FOR ME. He doesn't have to be perfect in every way.

I want to be independent      I don't want to be tied down because of my relationship. I don't see myself staying up late at night (or early morning) just to talk to my guy. I still want some of the privileges of being single. There is no need to be in contact 24/7, either in person, or through text, chat, etc. I can take care of myself, and I do not need to depend on some guy for everything. He doesn't have to take me home or carry my bag because those are things I can do myself. The gesture is appreciated though, and I wouldn't dislike a guy who would worry about me. I just don't like overprotective guys because I can handle myself. 

I'm not affectionate      I'm not sweet. In fact I hate strongly dislike sweet gestures. For me, cheesiness is annoying. Guys who ask me whether I've eaten already, seriously annoy me. Those who keep telling me to sleep count, too. I know they're just trying to be sweet but it doesn't work for me like the way it works for other girls. "Good morning" texts are not something to be ecstatic about. A guy once said that I'm difficult to please. However, that is untrue because I don't need big romantic gestures to be happy. Hanging out is enough for me. Staying in and watching a movie while pigging out is a great date for me. Do not expect me to tell you how much I like you on a regular basis, but I will say "I like you" occasionally, especially when the time calls for it. 

About Time

You know those movies that will make you reflect on what you are doing with your life? They’re usually the ones that make you cry so much that snot free-falls from your nose because you are so overwhelmed with emotions. Well, About Time is one of those feel-good, makes you ugly-cry movies. . 

This movie helped me realize how much time I’ve wasted not appreciating the small things that make life valuable. Even the most minuscule thing that makes you happy is important. The people around you won’t be there forever, because you never know when it’s the last time you’ll ever see them. We’re all searching for that one perfect day, but isn’t it enough to have good days everyday? Every day counts because, unlike the protagonist in this movie, we only get to live it once. We can’t go back in time to fix every single thing that has gone wrong in the past. All we can do is, try our best to make the future what we want it to be, and enjoy every single day that leads us to it. 

Happy happy 18th birthday sa aking kaibigan at kaklaseng napakakuilit na si Madonnabelle! 18 ka na, which means pwede ka nang uminom at gumawa ng kalokohan pero tandaan, pwede ka na ring ipakulong. HAHAHA. Maraming salamat sa paglibre mo sa amin kanina sa Banapple at bukas sa Rockband. Advanced lol. Pero besides sa libre, salamat sa lahat ng pinagsamahan natin mula nung first year pa tayo. Alam kong saglit pa lang tayo magkakillala pero ang dami mo nang alam tungkol sa buhay ko na hindi ko pa nakukwento sa kahit kanino. Ang dali kasing mag-open up sa iyo ewan ko kung bakit. Kahit na madaldal ka, hindi mo naman sinasabi yung mga sikretong sinasabi ko sa'yo at thank you rin dahil dun. Nagpapasalamat din ako dahil may tiwala ka sa akin (ATA HAHA) kasi napagsasabihan mo rin ako ng mga sikreto at kinukwentuhan mo rin ako. Thank you dahil napagtiya-tiyagaan mo ako kahit na ang kulit-kulit ko minsan. Sorry sa mga times na nag-away (medj) tayo at napipikon ka sa akin. Alam mo na yung mga yun, yung pinky swear na hindi ko tinatago yung phone mo pati yung sa Mcdo noon. Sorry din kung hindi kita nabati nang saktong 12 AM ngayong araw, tulog na ako eh. HAHAHA. Anyway, ang swerte ko na nakilala kita, cliche pero totoo. Paano pala kapag nag-UP Baguio ako, edi hindi kita nakilala? Lungkot ng buhay nun. HAHA. Okay. Medj mahaba na masyado. Happy birthday ulit! I love you so much! >>>:D<<<

This is just to remind me of all the things I need to do. There's just so many that I can't keep track of everything anymore. 

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY

To my beautiful bestfriend who is everyone's crush. hahaha. Kiddin'. (Pero slightly true kasi kahit isang beses ka pa lang nakita nung kaibigan ko, nagka-crush agad sa'yo. HAHA)

Anyway, happy birthdaaaayyy!!! >:D< Alam mo ba kung gaanong katagal na tayong magkaibigan? Ako, hindi. HAHA. Basta alam kong matagal na at sa tagal nating magkaibigan, ang dami na nating pinagsamahan, outings, kwentuhan, date, etc. Alam kong bihira lang tayo magkita kahit dati pa dahil sa schedule natin at dahil magkaiba ang paaralan natin dati pero kahit papaano, nagagawan natin ng paraan. Ang dami nating kalokohan, (kitang-kita naman sa pictures HAHA) pero may panahon naman na seryoso tayo kahit sobrang bihira nun. hahaha. Anyway, salamat at pinagkakatiwalaan mo ako sa mga problema, sikreto, at mga kwento mo. Salamat din at pinapakinggan mo rin yung mga drama ko. Nagpapasalamat din ako dahil hindi tayo nag-aaway, siguro tampuhan lang pero mabilis naman nating naaayos, diba? :) Ayun, sana tumagal pa ang pagiging magkaibigan natin. See you sa 28. :)