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when noah kahan said “the death of my dog, the stretch of my skin, it’s all washing over me, i’m angry again” and when he said “you wished yourself across the great divide” and “if i could leave i would have already left” and when he said “the world has changed, don’t you find it strange that you just when ahead and carried on?”

Feel like im gonna throw up. This is definitely not because ive only had one (1) matcha today and nothing else

turns out it actually was because of the matcha guys :/

Once when I was a preteen we had to make lists of life goals in class and I didn't really know what to write so the girl next to me leaned over to tell me about the housewife she was hoping to be. I grimaced, and wrote "own a snake" on my paper instead.

The teacher didn't like me very much that year.

Call your mom tonight queen?

the great divide is like what if you stayed and it haunted you and what if you left and it haunted you and what if you came back and it haunted you

we sit in the gas station parking lot watching the summer sun disappear behind the trees. we don’t talk about it. you light up my cigarette instead. this moment feels like it’ll never end but looking back, that’s all the time we had. will you look for me in the next life?

summer girls rotting delicately in their rooms. sleeping away their days and sharing secrets with the moon. the cool glow from the tv feels comfortable on their tired eyes. sometimes, if they stay up late enough, they can even catch their whole lives flashing by on the screen.

“everyone secretly hates me” says the girl with the thinks everyone secretly hates her disease

computer, how do i stop living in the past? computer, how do i stop missing everyone ive ever loved? computer, how can i live in the present without grieving it already? computer, how to tell the difference between desiderium and nostalgia? computer, how can i erase my memories forever?