I Have to Write This - Depression Can Kiss My Ass
The thing everyone talking about today is of course the death of Robin Williams who was found dead in his home of a suspected suicide.
This news has hit me probably more than I would ever have thought, not only because he is yet another great actor who I grew up watching, but because I have followed his struggle (among others) with his battle with bipolar disorder.
I also suffer from this, at times debilitating, illness and I was always inspired by the fact that someone such as Williams who brought laughter and joy to so many people could be fighting the same battle as myself on the inside. It helped me to think that no matter how hard things get for me, maybe I can bring the same sort of entertainment to those around me. That's one of the reasons why I began to create my animation (as well as it being a way to help me) so that maybe I could bring a little joy to others.
I think the reason why the news hit me so hard is because losing someone like him to suicide starts me thinking about my own struggle and the times that I have attempted or thought of suicide. Some people say that suicide is "the easy way out" or is for "cowards", well I'm sorry but I call bullshit on that. Sometimes ending your own life seems like the only way to go forward, it's not "selfish" as when those thoughts are running though your head all you're thinking is that a world without you in it will be better for everyone around you, certainly in my case I just thought that I was doing everyone a favour by taking myself out.
Thankfully my own thoughts of self harm and suicide have subsided and I have managed to get it under control, but who knows what may happen in the future. If Williams truly did end his own life, then I'm sure in his head it was the right thing to do and all that's left is for us to remember him fondly for all the laughs he gave us while he was here.
Another side of the problem is of course the way that society treats people with any kind of mental disorder, why is it different getting help for depression than getting help for hurting your back or getting any number of diseases? When will be able to have a society where people aren't looked down on or treated differently just because there is something wrong with their mind. I know, I've experienced this kind of thing, probably not to the same extent as others, but it shouldn't happen at all. Yes, these days we have better treatment and it's not as hidden as it used to be, but why is it hidden at all? It's a freaking illness that's needs treatment, there are plenty of people who aren't with us now, simply because they either weren't given the treatment or were too scared of the reaction to get the treatment they needed.
All I can say is that I'm doing my part to stop this discrimination and I hope one day that it's gone.
My thoughts are with Robin Williams' family at this horrible time, but I'm also thinking of friends I've lost and also anybody else who has lost someone or is suffering. And if you are suffering, especially if you're suffering in silence I say, the help is there, just be brave enough to ask for it. I wish I had gotten it sooner, but right now I'm just glad I got it at all because without it, I wouldn't be here now.
I'll leave you for now, but I hope those of you that read this have understood my words and will do your part to help those around you that may be suffering.
A also apologise if this all seems disjointed, I just needed to write something to get the thoughts out of my head so hopefully I can carry on. I'm not a writer, words aren't my thing, but I hope they will mean something to you all.
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