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That perhaps you had imagined the kiss that could have been. The way the blanket had slipped from your knees as broad hands found you instead. They had been warm and certain, trembling only slightly, even now he half expected the moment to be snatched out from under him.

His ordinarily scholarly, lecture-prone voice had gone soft and reverent. Lowered into something you’d only ever heard him use for old magic and older grief. Like he were speaking inside a sacred confessional rather than your sitting room, which still smelled faintly of plum jam and poor decisions.

Gale Dekarios had, in fact, declared himself in the quietest, most devastating voice known to mortal or god. And then he had smiled afterward, as if he’d done something charming rather than emotionally catastrophic. It was the same insufferable little smile he probably wore the day he reached into the Weave and decided he could simply hold a piece of a goddess in his hands. Look how well that had gone.

You had paced until nightfall, contemplating exile with alarming sincerity.

You wondered whether anyone would truly notice if you relocated to Amn and adopted a modest, anonymous life under a borrowed surname. You weighed the practicalities of never seeing him again. It would be inconvenient, you decided, but survivable. The way an amputation is survivable. You had even stood at your window like some lovesick poet, which was galling, because that was his role. He had no business making you audience for it.

You lay awake the better part of the night, too. Staring at the ceiling, replaying it, hating, with great precision, exactly how warm his hands had been.

By the next morning, you had reassembled a workable scaffold of rationality. Because by every sensible account, by all the laws of probability and self-preservation, it simply had not happened.

It was a dream. Surely.

A very vivid, very humiliating dream.

You would not mention it. You would not acknowledge it. Rather, you would let the entire incident drift quietly into that strange and ever-expanding category of Things Gale Does When Overstimulated By Emotions And Blankets: a list that already included the goat incident, the firework incident, and at least one regrettable sonnet about the death of the universe.

If the knowing look your neighbor gave you as she handed over the morning’s eggs wasn’t enough to condemn you back to an uncertain hell, then Gale himself remained ever adept at casting Misty Step straight into your morning before you could so much as protest.

Even as you sat down with a fresh cup of tea, resolve firm, spine straight, mind settled into deliberate and fortified denial, the door opened.

Not knocked, but just opened.

Because Gale still possessed the spare key you had lent him “temporarily” during a plumbing disaster some four weeks prior, and had apparently never seen fit to surrender it. You suspected he considered the matter a binding magical contract.

“Good morning!” he called brightly, his voice brimming with entirely unwarranted cheer. “I brought breakfast.”

You turned slowly, like a lone survivor turning toward the sea after an enemy vessel had sunk their ship and sailed merrily on.

Gale stood in your kitchen doorway, balancing a tray with careful dexterity. On it sat fresh buns, still warm. Sliced fruit arranged with wholly unnecessary aesthetic intention. Eggs steaming gently from the bowl, and two mismatched mugs.

One of them was your favorite. From your cabinet. How in the shit had he—

Oh. Right.

Wizards.

“I made your favorite,” he said, stepping fully inside like nothing whatsoever had shifted the night before. As though he’d not made the planes themselves tilt on your couch with his tongue. 

You stared at him in stunned silence.

He pretended it was all par for the course, steadily ignoring your scandalized looks with the practiced serenity of a man who had once weathered the displeasure of a goddess and lived. He set the food down on the table without disturbing a single drop of what was sure to be a phenomenal cup of tea, because of course it would be. The bastard could not even make a mediocre cup of tea. It would be balanced and fragrant and steeped to precisely the right strength, and you resented it deeply.

You looked down at the food. Then back up at his face.

“We are pretending that last night did not happen,” you said at last.

He grinned, mild as morning. “Pretending what did not happen?”

He said it casually. The way a man might speak while concealing a live smokepowder bomb beneath the table, all innocence and impeccable posture.

More staring. Blood stung your face and the tips of your ears. Was he honestly going to make you say it aloud?

He smiled and lifted his tea.

Yes. Yes, he was.

You took a deep breath, centering your entire being, drawing on reserves of composure you did not strictly possess.

“The snuggling, Gale.” You said it stiltedly, turning away from the food to count your own fingers. “The declaration. The emotional guillotine you lowered onto my life as though it were a pleasant embroidery suggestion.”

He tilted his head slightly, like you had clarified a fine point of academic interest. And damn him, didn’t he look handsome doing it. The morning light was being entirely too generous with the gray at his temples.

“Ah. You mean when I told you I am in love with you?” he said after a moment, like it was nothing. Like he was confirming the weather.

You flinched outright.

“That. Yes.” You took a breath. “That exact thing.”

He paused a moment.

“I did not think it required repetition,” he said, entirely reasonable, as he began adding honey to the tea. A careful, measured drizzle, because the man could not so much as sweeten a cup without precision.

“You cannot simply say something like that and then arrive with breakfast!” you burst out. “That is psychological warfare!”

He paused, considering this with genuine scholarly seriousness, the spoon hovering midair.

“I brought strawberry jam as well,” he offered. “It softens it into merely an upfront assault. Potentially a little unpleasant, but entirely survivable.”

You made a strangled sound.

He continued arranging the plates with infuriating calm. Sleeves rolled to the forearm, hair still faintly tousled from sleep. He looked, in every respect, like a man who had confessed life-altering devotion to an old friend and then enjoyed an excellent and untroubled night’s rest. You wanted to throw the strawberry jam at him.

“You fled,” he observed gently. Not accusatory. Simply factual, the way one notes a result in a margin. “I assumed you required time to process.”

“I required oxygen.”

“Entirely understandable. I, too, require such on occasion.” He set the spoon down. “Though I confess I have found breathing markedly easier since last night.”

Fucking fantastic for him. You specifically felt like he had thrown you into an olive press.

“And now you are just—what is this?” You gestured wildly at the spread on the table. “Courtship? Siege tactics? Nutritional manipulation?”

He considered the question again, as if it deserved real deliberation.

“It is a friendly breakfast,” he said. Then, after a beat, “Nothing prickly or unwanted.”

You stared at him. He met your gaze steadily, all warmth and braided together in a way that made upset genuinely difficult to sustain.

“I am not retracting it,” he said softly. “If that is what you were wondering.” The levity thinned, leaving only sincerity in its place. “I meant what I said.”

Your pulse stumbled. You pointed weakly at the fruit bowl, like it had personally betrayed you. “You cannot soften a declaration of mad love with citrus.”

“Counterpoint,” he replied mildly. “Citrus is extremely disarming. But I did mean it, notwithstanding your truly marvelous ability to evade my every attempt to woo you.”

You stood. Paced and considered, with some seriousness, launching a pear at his stupid, beautiful face.

“You… actually meant it?”

He blinked at you, calm as a summer pond.

“Very much,” he said simply. “But if I push, you’ll run. Much like a wild horse—though your mane is truly without comparison.”

Your throat closed, and you pressed your fingers to your temples. “That’s… almost sweet. And downright manipulative, to bring up horses when you know full well I love them.”

“It’s adoration,” he corrected, winking. “Manipulative would have been bringing croissants and a horse.”

You must be crazy for him to permit such sass. Madly, in fact, in a way that made your knees weak and your brain itch and your better judgment file for early retirement.

You dropped back into your chair.

“So what,” you muttered. “You’re just going to hang around until I admit I want you?”

“That was, broadly, the plan.” He sounded rather pleased with it, too.

“And if I never say it?”

He smiled and went on slicing bread like a man wholly unconcerned with your mental well-being. “Then I shall have many excellent breakfasts in fine company. I have laid siege to far less worthy strongholds for far worse fare. This one, I am content to wait out.”

You made a noise that should not exist outside a battlefield.

You knew better than to let Gale in. Physically. Metaphorically. Meta-physically, given his history. You should have painted it across the front of your apron as a daily reminder. NO WIZARDS ALLOWED. Particularly those who had once carried a small piece of the divine in their chest and somehow emerged from the experience even more insufferably charming.

“I hope you trip on your own genius and fall face-first into your mother’s jam,” you said sharply as he pulled out a chair for you.

“That is fair,” he said warmly, easing it beneath you with a gentleman’s care that you found personally offensive. “But if I do, I trust you’ll catch me.”

And you would. Because he was Gale, and there had not been a single day in your life you’d successfully denied that man once he deployed those big brown doe eyes. When he turned their full force on you, when his smile unfolded slowly, and his fingers brushed yours over the bread basket, you knew with grim clarity that you were standing in dangerous territory with no spell prepared and no exit at your back.

So you let him stay for breakfast.

And then lunch.

And then, somehow, dinner.

As a matter of fact, it was not until you were four glasses deep into something fruity and bubbling, laughing at a story about a Baldur’s Gate tadpole and a wheel of cheese that should not have been funny but absolutely was, that you realized you had, in fact, royally, catastrophically fucked up.

And in doing so, proved Gale’s insufferable little theory entirely correct.

You liked him back.

And like most terrible decisions, the addition of wine did not exactly improve your judgment on the matter.

Gale was no casual wine drinker. He bought and brought only the better vintages, the kind that did not bite so much as hum, warm and slow in your chest, making your limbs feel pleasantly ungoverned and your tongue looser than was strictly wise. You suspected he knew precisely what he was doing. You suspected he knew you did not entirely mind.

You shared the bottle in your kitchen, laughing over old spellbook disasters and the time Gale had accidentally summoned a sentient napkin that promptly tried to unionize your pantry.

“We should have let it negotiate,” you said, giggling into your cup.

“You refused to meet its demands,” Gale replied with mock indignation, one hand pressed to his chest. “I was merely the arcane catalyst. The blood, as they say, is on your hands. And the breadbox.”

Somewhere between the second glass and the last, his fingers brushed yours on the rim of your cup. And did not move. The warmth of them sat there, patient, asking nothing.

You didn’t pull away.

Later, with the fire dying low and shadows curling soft around the corners of the room, he had helped you put the dishes away, sleeves pushed up, drying each one with the gravity of a man cataloging relics while making bad jokes about Magic Missiles. You were laughing the loose, unguarded hysteria you’d been rationing around him for weeks. And then you turned and bumped square into him at the counter.

He didn’t move.

He stayed, near enough that the warmth of him bled through the space between you. His hand rose, and his fingers turned your chin gently up to him.

This time, you noted with a distant sort of alarm, there was no blanket to blame.

Your heart jumped.

“Why did you come back, Gale?” you said, quieter than before, your voice wavering at the edges. Despite all his flaws, Gale was not an unfair man. If this were not serious, if you named the fear aloud, he would leave. “I… I don’t want to be a stop on your way back to the Weave. I can’t do that again.”

He tilted his chin down, deliberate, ensuring your eyes met his and stayed.

“You were never a stop, my love.” His voice had dropped into that low, reverent register again, the one with no cleverness left in it. “It took losing everything to understand what mattered most. You were always my final destination. My home. Forgive me for letting you doubt it for so long.”

Warmth filled you from crown to sole, flooding finger to toe with a comfort deeper than any hearth or sauna. How he always knew precisely what to say both perplexed and enthralled you. The man had argued theology with a goddess and somehow saved his most devastating words for you, in your kitchen, smelling of dish soap and plum.

You swallowed hard as his thumb came to rest against your bottom lip, his pupils blowing wide and dark in the low light.

He took a half-step closer.

“If I kissed you right now,” he asked gently, “would you stop me?”

You meant to say yes. You truly, genuinely did.

Instead, you fisted the front of his robes in both hands and kissed him like you had been waiting years to do it because you had.

It was clumsy. Rushed and breathless, all teeth and apology, like a backlog of unspoken years finally forcing its way out of both your mouths at once. You pulled him down with you onto the couch, hands tangling in fabric, hearts hammering like you were being chased by gods again. Only this time, you were not running from anything.

This time, for once, you had caught exactly what you wanted.

Clothes came off in fits and starts, in fumbling reverence, each layer surrendered like an argument he was finally too tired to win. He whispered your name against your skin like a question. Like a spell. Like it might answer every hollow ache that had been carved into his chest in all the years he’d spent reaching for the wrong kind of light.

You did not let yourself think.

You simply let it happen.

After, you lay curled against him in the firelight’s last embers, your breath still uneven, his hand trailing sluggishly, absently up and down the length of your spine. You hated how natural it felt. How profoundly, dangerously safe, like something the world had carved out and set aside for you alone.

“We shouldn’t have done that,” you mumbled into his shoulder.

“Probably not,” he agreed easily, pressing a kiss to your hair. “But I do not regret it. Not for a moment.”

You did.

Not because it was him. But because it was emphatically not nothing. And that terrified you down to the marrow.

“This doesn’t mean anything,” you added, the words flimsy as a paper shield held up against an oncoming tide.

“No,” he said, gently, far too gently. “Of course not.”

But he held you like it meant everything. Like you were the one fragile and precious thing he had carried out of the rubble of his old life, the single bargain that had ever been worth the striking.

And you, stupidly, traitorously, let him.

You let yourself memorize it. The phantom heat of his mouth still ghosting along your collarbone. The slow, deliberate slide of warmth through your veins, slow as a man who had decided, at long last, that he had nowhere else in all the planes he would rather be.

You woke up in pieces.

Blanket tangled around one leg, pillow halfway off the bed, mouth dry, and your brain already flooding with bright, full-bodied panic before your eyes had even properly opened.

Sunlight spilled lazily across the room, golden and unbothered, catching on your clothes where they lay scattered across the floorboards. Scattered. Damning. A breadcrumb trail of poor judgment leading straight from the doorway to the bed. Your throat tightened. You did not need to look at the other side of the mattress to know it was empty. The cooling warmth still lingering in the sheets, the faint indent in the second pillow, told you everything you needed and dreaded.

He’d gotten up early.

Of course, he had. Gale was always a morning person, the insufferable bastard, no doubt already downstairs arranging fruit at flattering angles and steeping something fragrant, humming to himself like a man who had not, the night prior, comprehensively dismantled your every defense.

You sat up slowly, dragging the sheet over your chest as though it might protect your dignity, your sanity, your entire fragile sense of self. It could not. Linen had never once won a war.

“No,” you mumbled to the empty room. “No, no, no. Bad. Terrible. An entire thesis of bad decisions, with footnotes. Peer-reviewed.”

Your robe was on the floor, crumpled and out of reach. His robe was closer, pooled in deep blue near the foot of the bed. You snatched it up and pulled it round your shoulders before you could think better of it.

Then you paused.

And, against every instinct of self-preservation you possessed, you sniffed it.

“Damn it,” you whispered.

Because it smelled like him. Warm and faintly spiced, cinnamon and old parchment and something underneath that was just Gale, the scent that had been ghosting through your kitchen for weeks now and curling, uninvited, into the soft animal part of your brain. Comforting. Steadying.

Utterly, comprehensively devastating.

Then you dropped it as if it had bitten you. Like it was cursed, as if holding it one second longer might bind you to something you were not nearly drunk enough, this early, to survive.

You stumbled out into the hallway, fully intending to bolt. To slip out the back, scale the garden wall if you had to, and find yourself a time mage willing to erase the last twelve hours for any price they named. Surely someone in Waterdeep dabbled. You’d heard worse rumors about the Blackstaff.

But then you smelled bread.

And eggs.

And something that might have been cinnamon.

Your stomach, that traitor, that absolute collaborator, growled in open rebellion against the rest of you.

You rounded the corner like a soul being marched to its sentencing, sheet still clutched to your chest, praying with what little faith you had left that he wasn’t actually—

He was.

In your kitchen. Barefoot on your cold floorboards, dark hair damp and curling from a recent rinse, sleeves shoved up past his forearms. He stood over the stove stirring something in a pan with the easy, proprietary calm of a man who lived there. Who had always lived there.

He didn’t turn around. You suspected he’d felt you the moment you crossed the threshold, the way he always seemed to, some maddening sensitivity tuned permanently to you.

“Good morning, my love,” he said, calm as a still pond. “I wasn’t certain how you take your eggs this morning, so I made both.”

A pause. You could hear the smile in it.

“It seemed prudent to cover all eventualities. I find I prefer not to gamble where you are concerned.”

You stared at him. 

Was breakfast some manner of coercive enchantment he’d picked up in Baldur’s Gate, along with whatever else had put those new lines at the corners of his eyes? Some long-rest hospitality charm, lethal at close range?

He looked like a painting—a hallucination. The worst dream you had ever, treacherously, wanted to keep having.

“You’re cooking. Again.”

“Indeed.”

“In my kitchen.”

“Where the eggs live, yes.” He gave the pan a thoughtful turn. “It is, broadly speaking, a normal thing for a person to do.”

He glanced over his shoulder at you, and Gods, it was unfair. His hair curled soft and damp against his jaw, stupidly, criminally perfect, like the man had been assembled in some celestial workshop specifically to undo you over a skillet.

“It can be a regular thing, in fact,” he added, mild as anything. “If you want it to be.”

You made a sound like you were being strangled by the collar of the robe. Yours? His? You had genuinely lost track. The lines between your belongings, your dignity, and your resolve had all blurred sometime around the second glass.

“We are not talking about it,” you announced, arms folding tight across the bunched fabric.

“…About the eggs?”

“About last night.”

“Ah.” He turned back to the pan, entirely unruffled, sliding the eggs onto a waiting plate with a flourish that was frankly excessive for breakfast. “No discussion of emotionally significant events. Repression over a hot meal. Very healthy. The bards will sing of it for ages.”

You nearly gasped aloud.

“Are you making jokes?”

“I am making toast.” He held up a single golden slice with a wholly unreasonable degree of confidence, like he was presenting evidence before a magistrate. “I thought you might prefer something neutral. In tone and texture both.”

You sank into the nearest chair. Not voluntarily so much as structurally. Your legs simply filed their resignation, and you collapsed into the seat like a puppet with its strings shorn.

He set a plate before you as though he had not, mere hours ago, thoroughly razed your entire psychological landscape to bedrock.

“We do not have to talk about it,” he said gently, all the playfulness draining away to leave something careful and kind in its place. “Not now. Not if you don’t want to. I am in no hurry. I have learned, recently, the value of patience. As a matter of fact—”

And he kept speaking, that warm and even voice rolling on. Something about a letter that had arrived by courier two days past. Something about—of all things— a great bear of a druid writing from the Reithwin lands with some trouble or other about a blighted grove and a soil that would not take to new growth, and would Gale consider lending his expertise on the residual Weave-rot for a tenday, no longer, he’d be back before the next full moon—

His words grew fuzzy at the edges, dissolving into a pleasant, meaningless hum. None of it registered. None of it could. Because beneath the easy current of his voice, your mind had snagged hard on a single jagged word and would not let go.

Back. He’d said back. But all you heard was the leaving.

Gale was, once again, leaving.

Leaving. After confessing he loved you, after unraveling you on your own couch and holding you through the night like you were the one precious thing he’d wanted?

And now he’d be off, surely, back to romance and adventure and whatever grand glittering purpose called louder than you ever had. A grove. A druid. A whole green world out there that needed the famous Gale Dekarios more than your small kitchen ever could. Had this entire thing been a ploy? A clever wizard’s contingency, neatly cast, ensuring he would always have a soft bed and a friendly face waiting in Waterdeep whenever the wider world spat him back out?

You did not hear the tenday. You did not hear the no longer, nor the before the next full moon. You heard only the shape of a door closing, the same as it had closed two years ago.

You stared down at the eggs. The eggs, both varieties, stared loyally back, offering no counsel whatsoever.

“No.”

It slipped out before you could stop it.

His brow furrowed faintly. “No…?”

And then, like a torrent of cowardly water finding the first crack in the dam, all your fears rushed out at once, shaping themselves into words you could not seem to stop. Angry words. Hurt ones. Words for every time he hadn’t seemed to care, dredged up whole and barbed from years you’d told yourself were long buried. For the morning the tower went dark and the door sealed, and he simply was not there anymore. For Mystra, who had held his devotion when you could not. For Baldur’s Gate, for the road, for all the distant glittering things that had always, always been enough to pull him away from Waterdeep and from you. For every season you had waited, and he had never once come.

“To all of it. To—this. Whatever it is. Or could be. Or might have been.” You swallowed hard against the gravel rising in your throat. “It can’t happen. I don’t—I can’t—want it. You always leave.”

They were words meant to wound. A pressurized lance of everything you’d swallowed down for years, bound to burst eventually and choosing now, of all moments, to do it. Choosing the precise instant you were most raw and undefended, because that meant, surely, that he was too. If you were going to bleed for him, then by all the gods, he could bleed a little with you.

You hated the way his expression didn’t fall. Didn’t crack.

He didn’t do anything at all, except go very, very still. Like he had rehearsed a blow enough times that it no longer surprises him when it lands. Like he had expected it. Like he had been quietly bracing for it since the very moment he first confessed to you on your couch.

And there in your kitchen, surrounded by toast and lingering heat and too many things unsaid, you looked Gale Dekarios in the eye and told him you didn’t want him.

Which was a lie.

A lie, because to say yes meant accepting the truth that frightened you far more than any goddess ever could: that Gale might love you genuinely, completely, with his whole reassembled heart, and still, one ordinary morning, find something greater glittering on the horizon and go to it. As he always did. As he always had. Love had never been the thing in question. Staying was.

“It… it didn’t mean anything,” you tried. The words came out threadbare and false, and you both heard it. “So just leave.”

“If that’s what you wish,” he said smoothly, without missing a beat. 

And that was it.

He didn’t plead. He didn’t bargain or argue or marshal one of his thousand clever rebuttals. He simply nodded, once, and stepped back, as if retreating from you was the courteous thing to do after setting fire to his own hopes and standing politely in the smoke.

But his hand lingered a breath too long on your shoulder as he passed you your cup. The warmth of it sank straight through the borrowed robe and settled somewhere beneath your ribs. And when you glanced up at him, his eyes were not smooth at all. There was nothing easy in them.

They were aching. Openly, nakedly aching, in a way the rest of his careful composure had been built specifically to conceal.

“I’ll be out of your hair in a moment,” he added, quieter now, drawing his hand back like the motion cost him something dear. “I didn’t want to leave without saying goodbye. I’ve done that to you once already. I find I haven’t the stomach to do it twice.”

“You’re not going to argue? You’re just… leaving?”

Your voice slipped its moorings entirely on the word. He was simply going to unravel you down to your very ether, leave you wrecked and warm in his borrowed robe, and then walk out the door again? What about the grand confession? The rain-soaked rehearsals of courage, baking for hours for the woman he proposed to love? The promise pressed into your hair not eight hours past?

Had he lied? Or worse, far worse—had you, with one small and cowardly word, simply taken him at it?

Was that something he’d picked up on his travels, too? This terrible new grace, this willingness to let a thing go the moment it asked to be let go?

He paused. Just for a moment, one hand resting on the back of the chair.

“You said it didn’t mean anything,” he said simply.

Your stomach dropped clean through the floorboards.

You looked down at the eggs. Picked up your fork and realized, distantly, that you couldn’t taste a single damn bite.

“Right,” you said, stabbing aimlessly at the yolk. “Because it doesn’t.”

“Of course,” he said.

The silence afterward wasn’t awkward. It was worse than awkward. It was kind. Gentle and final and entirely without blame, the silence of a man honoring your wishes precisely as you’d stated them, the cruelest thing he could possibly have done.

And that was unbearable.

You didn’t shout. You didn’t cry, or flail, or hurl an accusation across the kitchen. You just… stopped. Went still and small and quiet over a plate of two kinds of eggs made by a man who hadn’t wanted to gamble where you were concerned.

“I’ll give you space,” he added softly. “Take care of yourself.”

And then he gathered his cloak, and he left. The door clicked shut behind him with that same brittle, well-mannered finality his tower wards had hummed with two years ago.

And you, brilliant catastrophe that you were, sat alone at your kitchen table in his abandoned robe, surrounded by cooling toast and the wreckage of your own stupid pride, and whispered to the empty room:

“…Shit.”

After the last one-sided argument you’d flung at his back, the one that ended with you’re going to go to her, Gale, you always do, he had not returned for two whole years.

And that time, you hadn’t even slept with him first.

You stared at the door he’d closed so gently behind him. Two years for sharp words alone. You did the grim arithmetic and found you hadn’t the courage to guess what this one had bought you. Sharp words, a cutting disappointment, and the unmistakable sound of a woman taking a man at the worst thing he’d offered to believe about himself.

No. You doubted, with a cold and sinking certainty, that he’d return at all after this.

Good to his word, Gale disappeared.

You didn’t see him for weeks.

Not at the market, where the elven apothecary still set aside dewspice he never came to collect. Not on the rain-slicked streets where he’d once stood like a tragic poet outside your gate. Not even in the long shadow of the tower he’d spent months rebuilding by his own two hands, stone by stone, rune by rune, for a wizard’s future wife.

Not that you looked.

(You looked.)

He didn’t write. Didn’t send word through Mira or his mother or some overburdened courier. Didn’t hover at the edges of your evenings or appear, uninvited and beaming, with a tray of breakfast and a key he’d never returned. The spare key, you noticed, had been left on the kitchen table that final morning. You hadn’t seen him set it down.

And gods, you hated it. Because it meant he had listened. That he had truly heard you, every cowardly word, and taken your no and magicked it gently into the shape of a boundary. The cleanest, kindest spell he’d ever cast.

And now he was respecting it. Completely. Without complaint or campaign or a single clever attempt to argue his way back through your door.

Which hurt, somehow, more than any rebuttal in all his vast and footnoted arsenal ever could have.

So what was a woman to do?

You cleaned. That was what you did.

Because you needed to punish something, and your home was nearest to hand, and there was a grim and penitent satisfaction in scrubbing until your knuckles ached. Better than sitting still. Sitting still left room for thinking, and thinking led, every single time, down the same well-trod road to a plate of two kinds of eggs and a door clicking shut.

So you cleaned. Floors, shelves, the windows that looked out onto the gate where he’d once stood in the rain. You beat the rugs within an inch of their lives. You scoured the kettle. You did not, under any circumstances, wash the robe that still hung over the back of your bedroom chair, because washing it would mean losing the cinnamon and old parchment, and you weren’t ready to examine why that mattered.

You were washing down the counters now, muttering darkly to no one when vertigo hit you hard.

You gripped the counter’s edge. Shut your eyes. Waited for it to pass.

It had been happening more often this past week. The swimming head, the strange new weariness that no amount of sleep seemed to touch. You’d blamed the grief at first, then the cleaning, then the simple fact that you hadn’t managed a full meal in days. The smell of the morning’s tea had turned your stomach so sharply you’d had to set it aside untouched, which was absurd, you loved that tea, it was the one he always brought—

You stopped scrubbing.

Slowly, against every screaming instinct of self-preservation, you began counting backward. The weeks since the market. Since the breakfast. Since the night with the wine and the dish soap and the couch.

Since your last moon’s blood, which should have come and gone by now and had, you realized with a cold and dawning horror, hadn’t come at all.

“…Oh,” you said to the empty kitchen, very quietly. “That can’t be right.”

Surely not. You hadn’t eaten, and were extremely stressed out and—that was all it was. A body running on spite and stale bread, denied anything resembling a proper meal since he’d walked out the door. Of course, you were lightheaded. You’d have to be a fool not to be. You wrung out the cloth and resolved, very firmly, to eat something. Later. Once the counters were spotless and your hands stopped shaking.

You were still angry about the whole humiliating business, frankly. Yesterday, a perfectly ordinary walk to clear your head had ended with you swaying on your feet outside the apothecary, the world going soft and silver at its edges, your hand flung out for a wall that wasn’t there.

Mira, your eternally nosy friend and neighbor, had materialized like she’d been summoned. She’d pressed a small corked tonic into your hands, looked you up and down with those entirely too-perceptive eyes of hers, and said something truly offensive about iron levels and a woman’s instincts and the way you’ve gone off your tea, dear, that’s a distinct sort of speaking.

You ignored the teasing, every barbed and knowing word of it. You went home.

And you most certainly did not think about what she’d meant. Nor about how she’d taken to asking, every single day with that sly tilt of her head, and where’s the handsome wizard got to, then? As though she had some standing claim to him. As though the comings and goings of Gale Dekarios were neighborhood business, posted and public, and not the precise wound you were currently dismantling your home in order to avoid.

You did not think about any of it.

Instead, you stared at the bathroom shelf for the better part of an hour.

At the little stoppered vials lined up there. At the herbs Mira swore by, the ones any midwife in Waterdeep could read like a ledger. At the small, simple charm a hedge-witch could work in under a minute, the one that glowed soft and gold for a yes and stayed dark for a no. The sort they sold to hedge-witches and merchants’ wives, to whores and lovesick girls alike. Just in case.

You picked it up. Set it down. Picked it up again.

The counter was suddenly the only thing holding you up.

“…Oh, shit.”

You didn’t want to drink it. Didn’t want to know.

But your hands moved anyway, uncorking, mixing, steeping the way the instructions had long since worn into common knowledge. Some part of you had already decided. Some part of you had known, you suspected, since the morning the tea turned your stomach.

And when the color turned—a soft, unmistakable blush of light that bloomed across the surface like a rose unfurling in fast-forward—your knees buckled.

You sat down hard on the cold bathroom floor, staring. The little vial was still cradled in both hands, glowing its gentle, ruinous gold.

One word echoed through your skull.

“No.”

But this was not the same kind of no you’d flung at Gale across a plate of eggs. That one had been armor, cold and deliberate, a door you’d shut on purpose.

This one was wet. Frantic. Denial curling in on itself like a flame guttering in a draft.

Because no meant it was real. It meant that night hadn’t vanished cleanly into silence and stale toast the way you’d ordered it to. It meant you may very soon be living with a consequence that had his crooked smile and his too-clever eyes, maybe your own miserable stubbornness, and every conceivable power to undo the whole careful fortress you had spent years building specifically to keep yourself from being left again.

A baby.

His baby. Conceived on a couch in a borrowed robe, by a man currently a tenday’s ride away tending some druid’s blighted grove, who did not know, who had no earthly idea, who had walked out your door believing it hadn’t meant anything because you had looked him in the eye and told him so.

You pressed the heel of your hand to your mouth and laughed, once, a small broken sound that wasn’t a laugh at all.

“…Shit,” you whispered, for what felt like the hundredth time that month.

You couldn’t claim to be a wizard’s wife. That title belonged to some imagined future woman, the lucky soul Gale had carved his runes for, the one his tower would hold.

But it looked like you may just end up being a wizard’s baby momma.

You let your head fall back against the cool plaster of the wall and stared up at the ceiling, the little vial still glowing its soft, traitorous gold in your lap, and started, helplessly, to laugh again. The kind of laugh that lived right next door to crying and shared a wall with hysteria.

Of all the outcomes. Of all the careful walls you’d built. You’d told the man no. You’d held the line, kept your dignity, protected your stupid, fragile heart from being left a third time—

And your own treacherous body had gone and signed the contract anyway, in ink that glowed.

Because of course, of course. The man couldn’t simply brew a mediocre cup of tea, couldn’t stand in the rain without looking poetic about it, couldn’t leave a single thing he touched unchanged or unremarkable. Why on every plane would his contribution to this be any less aggravatingly potent? The favored of Mystra had apparently overachieved straight through every precaution you’d half-heartedly told yourself you’d taken.

You dropped your face into your hands and groaned into your palms.

“Fucking wizards,” you said to the empty room, with great and bitter feeling. “And their magical bloody sperm.”

You were doing fine. Truly.

You had a plan. A good plan. An airtight, lovingly detailed, entirely sustainable plan:

One. Avoid Gale.

Two. Pretend nothing whatsoever had happened.

Three. Under no circumstances, in this life or any of the others, bring up the minor footnote that you were now pregnant with his child following a single wine-drenched, emotionally catastrophic snuggle-turned-nightstand.

Four. Smile vaguely. Lie a little. Lie a lot, if pressed.

Five. Die peacefully, of old age, secret intact, surrounded by herbs and dignity.

A perfect plan. Flawless. Not a single load-bearing flaw in the whole magnificent structure.

Except, of course, that your friends were wolves in the polite clothing of society. Sharp-eyed and patient and far too fond of you for your own comfort. And you, unfortunately, had gone and committed the cardinal error of being visibly, conspicuously weird for well over seventy-two consecutive hours.

That was all it took.

It started, as these things invariably did, with Mira.

You were helping her rearrange her market stall, hauling baskets and stacking crates, when she paused mid-lift, a bundle of greens forgotten in her arms, and said with devastating casualness—

“So. When were you going to tell me you’re pregnant?”

You dropped a crate of radishes. They scattered everywhere, rolling across the cobbles like tiny fleeing witnesses.

“Excuse me?”

“You’re sweating,” she said, squinting at you the way she might eye a suspicious soup. “Suspiciously sweaty and faint. You haven’t insulted a single soul in three days. You cried over a pear on Tuesday. A perfectly ordinary pear. And you haven’t complained about Gale’s hair once, not once, which frankly is how I knew something was properly wrong.” She crossed her arms. “You’re obviously not well.”

You stammered, dropping to gather radishes with far more urgency than the radishes required. “That’s not—those are not symptoms, Mira, those are—moods—”

“I’ve seen sheep with more convincing poker faces,” she said flatly, unmoved. “And they’re pregnant. ’Tis the season.” She tilted her head, eyes narrowing with the slow, dreadful satisfaction of a hunter watching the snare draw tight. “So. The handsome wizard, was it?”

You deflected. You lied. You said maybe your gut was simply doing strange things, and maybe she ought to mind her own business, and maybe she should stop comparing you to livestock like some sort of barnyard oracle.

She didn’t press. That was the worst of it. She let it go entirely, returned to her greens, humming a little tune.

But she smiled the whole while. The slow, sure smile of a demon who had already placed a private wager on your due date and felt very good about her odds.

You told yourself you’d gotten away with it.

You had not gotten away with it.

Later that week, during dinner with two other friends—the calm ones, you’d reasoned, the no-drama ones, the safe harbor in which to simply be a person eating a meal—you reached across the table for a second helping of fruit salad—and paused. Hand hovering over the bowl.

Three weeks ago, you’d have sooner eaten the tablecloth than a second serving of fruit. Now your mouth was watering over a bowl of melon as if it owed you back rent with interest.

Across the table, two pairs of eyes lifted from their plates in perfect, ominous unison. Like wolves scenting a limping deer. Like accountants finding an irregularity.

A fork rose, and tapped slowly, theatrically against the rim of a wine cup. Clink. Clink. Clink. Calling the tribunal to order.

“…So,” said Tamsin, with the terrible gentleness one reserves for the recently bereaved and the about-to-be-interrogated. “You. And Gale.”

Your fork hovered midair, melon trembling on the tines. “There is no me and Gale.”

“Sure, there isn’t.”

“There isn’t.”

“Of course not.” Tamsin nodded sagely. “Except you’ve drifted about like a blessed temple maiden all week, gone soft and dewy and suspiciously pleasant, and Mira swears on her mother’s grave she caught you eating pickled cabbage straight from the jar at six bells in the morning. Standing at your own window. In his robe.”

“It was cold,” you said. “The robe was nearest.”

“It is the height of summer.”

You stabbed a cube of melon and ate it out of sheer spite.

“Maybe,” you tried, with the doomed dignity of a general defending a fortress that has already, quietly, been set alight from within, “I simply have strange cravings. People have cravings. It is a known phenomenon. Entirely unremarkable.”

“And maybe we’re all gibbering idiots,” muttered Brenna, who had not looked up from buttering her bread but was clearly enjoying herself enormously. “But unfortunately for you, we are not. We are, in fact, three of the cleverest women in this district, and you have the conspiratorial instincts of a startled goose.”

“You’re all rats,” you hissed.

“Smart rats,” Mira corrected serenely, swirling her wine with the unbothered ease of a woman holding a winning hand. “Excellent rats. The finest rats your sad little secret could have hoped to be discovered by. And I’ll have you know we’ve already begun planning the baby shower.”

You choked on the melon. “The—what—”

“A tower theme,” she continued, undeterred, ticking points off on her fingers. “Very on the nose, I grant you, but the people want what they want. Little cakes shaped like spellbooks. A tressym made of spun sugar. Brenna thinks we ought to hire a bard, but Brenna is, as we’ve established, a romantic and a fool.

“I think a bard would be tasteful—”

“Nobody asked, Brenna.”

“I HAVEN’T EVEN TOLD HIM YET—”

The words tore out of you before your brain could lunge across the table and strangle them in the cradle.

Dead, ringing, total silence. 

The silence that follows a badly miscast spell, in the breathless half-second before everyone present realizes the ceiling is, as a matter of fact, about to come down on all their heads.

Three forks went still. Three faces turned.

And then, into that perfect catastrophic hush, soft and slow and absolutely incandescent with delight, Mira set down her cup and breathed:

“Oh. No.” Her hand rose to her chest like she was witnessing a miracle. “You haven’t even told him?”

The table did not so much erupt as detonate.

Brenna shrieked. Tamsin slammed both palms flat on the wood hard enough to rattle the cutlery, demanding dates, demanding details, demanding to know which night and whose couch and whether it was true about wizards. Mira simply leaned back in her chair, folded her arms, and regarded you with the radiant, insufferable satisfaction of a woman whose every last suspicion had just been confirmed in a single, glorious, self-inflicted blow.

“To the Hells with the cabbage,” she declared over the din. “Just wait till his mum hears!”

Gale did not mean to be gone for three months.

He really didn’t.

Halsin had needed help. Nothing world-ending, for once in Gale’s life. Merely a series of stubborn forest blights, several displaced and irritable nature spirits, and one brief but genuinely harrowing territorial dispute with an owlbear commune that had taken a philosophical objection to the new irrigation runes. Important work, certainly. Worthy work. Enough to tug at his sense of duty, and, if he were honest with himself, somewhere around the second month, enough to distract him from the soft, persistent ache of your absence that had followed him all the way east like a faithful and miserable dog.

He’d thought: She needs time.

He’d thought: Better to let her breathe. Let her forget the way I looked at her in the firelight. The things I said. The things I meant.

He’d thought, eyeing Tara (the increasingly nosy tressym that had adopted his mother’s roofline): And whatever you do, do not act suspicious, and do not breathe a word of it to the flying cat, or it’ll start stalking her windows and the whole of Waterdeep will know my business by the day’s end.

He’d thought: I’ll come back when I’m less… obvious about it.

This last had proven optimistic. Three months of moss and moonlight had done precisely nothing to make him less obvious. If anything, he’d composed four letters he hadn’t sent and one sonnet he’d burned out of mercy for the world.

So when he finally arrived back at the family estate, mud on his boots, cloak half-wrinkled, soul still faintly humming with the green hush of distant forests, he expected a warm meal, a long bath, and a quiet evening to plan his approach with the care it deserved.

Gale stepped through the gates of the Dekarios estate just after sunrise, the early light catching the rooftop spires and gilding them gold, as though the city itself were quietly relieved to have him home. He was bone-tired and smelled faintly of pine and regret, and he was thinking, mostly, about precisely which tea he’d brew before sitting down to write you a letter. Something soft. Apologetic. Measured.

Romantic Reintegration Plan, Phase Two.

Respectful and understated. No grand gestures, nothing that might spook his wild horse of a bride-in-waiting. Perhaps, he allowed himself, with scones.

He had it all so beautifully, so reasonably planned.

He made it precisely three steps inside the front hall before the house staff scattered like panicked goblins before a drawn blade. A maid took one look at him, went pale, and vanished through a side door. The butler developed an urgent and previously unmentioned interest in a far corridor. Somewhere, a teacup was set down with suspicious haste.

Gale slowed. Frowned. This was not the homecoming of a beloved son. This was the silence that fell over a battlefield in the half-breath before the catapults loosed.

Then he heard it.

Click.

The unmistakable, crisp report of his mother’s heel meeting marble with intent.

He turned.

Lady Amalthea Dekarios stood at the top of the grand staircase, arms folded, spine straight as a tower rune, expression carved from glacial ice three ages old. She did not descend at once. She simply looked down at him and let the silence do its work, the way only a mother of a magical prodigy who has survived adolescent heartbreaks, arcane disasters, and at least one regrettable infatuation involving a harpist truly can.

The grand matron of magical social graces, five-time fundraiser chair for the Waterdeep Historic Alchemy Restoration Guild, was wearing her battle pearls.

Gale’s blood ran cold.

Not the everyday pearls or the second-best strand reserved for guild luncheons and the intimidation of city officials. The battle pearls. The ones she had worn to confront his headmaster, to bury her own mother, and to inform a visiting Calishite ambassador exactly what she thought of his trade tariffs. The pearls came out for war and for funerals alone, and as far as Gale could see, nobody had died.

But the notion of a pleasant evening fled. The bath fled. The scones fled, weeping, into the night.

What Gale got instead was his mother, descending now stair by deliberate stair into the front hall, advancing upon him like a storm cloud given leave at last to break, her eyes alight with the terrible, all-knowing fire of maternal omniscience.

“Gale Dekarios,” she said. Just his name. It landed like a verdict.

He summoned his most disarming smile, the one that had talked him out of detentions and into restricted laboratories. “…Hello, Mother. You look radiant. Have you done something with the—”

“You stay right there.” A breath. Then, rising with magnificent, terrible momentum: “Just where have you BEEN?”

“Ah.” He set down his satchel very slowly, as one does around a creature deciding whether to charge. “Forests. Mostly. Trees, broadly. Halsin had a small situation with a blight, and then a slightly larger situation with an owlbear, and you know how one thing leads rather inevitably to the next—”

“Three months, Gale.”

“It was a very involved owlbear.”

Her glare was so fearsome, he genuinely, briefly wondered whether his mother had taken up the study of death magic in his absence. There was something distinctly necromantic in the way she was looking at him, calculating precisely how much more useful he’d be as a reanimated and obedient corpse.

“You have exactly five seconds to explain yourself,” she said crisply.

“…For what, precisely?” Gale asked, with the caution of a man defusing something delicate and unstable.

She advanced upon him like a general crossing a field she had already won. “Three months, Gale. Three. Do you know how long that is in Waterdeep gossip hours? Decades. Whole dynasties have risen and fallen. I have had three separate neighbors bring me congratulations fruit.”

He looked utterly, helplessly lost. “Congratulations—for what?”

She threw a pear at him.

It bounced off his shoulder with a soft and dignified thunk, like divine judgment delivered by way of produce.

“For disappearing,” she said, “while your beloved parades about Waterdeep with the precise and unmistakable glow of a woman who is mysteriously and romantically pregnant, and whose child’s father is apparently too emotionally stunted to be present for any of it.”

Gale blinked. Once—Twice. The satchel slid from his nerveless fingers and hit the marble.

“I—what—who?”

She descended the final stairs with elegant, terrible fury, battle pearls gleaming. “Your girl, Gale. The one you have been sighing over like a tragic Byronic stanza since you were fourteen years of age!”

A pause, for breath, and for maximum devastation.

“That girl, Gale. She is with child. And you have been negotiating property disputes with owlbears? I raised you better. I raised you, on occasion, at considerable personal expense.”

Gale’s ears turned pink.

“I was helping Halsin. There were urgent druidic matters of genuine ecological consequence—” He stopped. Something in the sentence caught up with him a half-beat behind everyone else, as it so often did. “—Did you say the love of my life is expecting?”

“And now there are urgent domestic matters!” she barked, sailing straight past him. “There is gossip, Gale. There are rumors. I had a man at the grocer’s congratulate me on my forthcoming grandchild over the radishes, and do you know what I was forced to say?”

“…Thank you?” he offered weakly.

“I said, ‘Yes, she’ll make a stunning daughter-in-law the moment my son returns from spiritually composting in a bog.’” She flung the word like a second pear. “I improvised, Gale. I am sixty-three years old, and I was improvising paternity over root vegetables.”

Gale made a helpless, drowning sort of noise.

She was circling him now. Pacing. Monologuing like a bard nursing a decade-old vendetta and a full house. “Do you know how humiliating it is to field romantic inquiries about you from nobles who have never once had the privilege of being incinerated by one of your spells? To smile and nod while the actual mother of your actual child fends off an entire district’s worth of scandal armed with nothing but polite smiles and a mysterious and unrelenting craving for melon slices?”

Gale froze where he stood.

His voice broke clean in half on the inhale. “She’s—she’s pregnant?”

“Yes.”

“She’s… with child?”

“With your disaster-wizard spawn, yes, Gale, keep up!”

He made a noise. A strangled, faintly religious noise, the sort a man makes at the foot of an altar. His face drained to parchment-white. Then, with no apparent transition, it flooded a deep and helpless red.

His mother stopped pacing. She turned and looked at him the way one regards the single dumbest man ever to draw breath on the Material Plane, a man who had brushed against godhood and could not perform basic arithmetic.

“Yes, Gale,” she said, slow and merciless. “And unless she is incubating some rogue magical construct purely out of spite for you, it is yours.”

He went motionless.

The breath left his body like a spell gone wrong, the backlash of something vast he’d cast without meaning to.

Then he twitched, hard, like he was rebooting his soul after a bad backlash of fireball.

“I have to go.”

“Oh, now you have to go?”

“I gave her space—”

“You gave her abandonment! She has been swanning about town trying to look casual while glowing like a divine candle and muttering your name at fruit!”

“I didn’t know—she never wrote—”

“She owes you nothing, you goose-hearted tragedy bard! You fled the morning after and left her to pretend it was all perfectly fine while you played at emotional exile with mushrooms and moon druids!”

Gale dragged a hand through his hair, already halfway to the door, satchel forgotten on the marble.

“Do you think she’ll even speak to me?”

“No,” she said flatly. “But you’re going anyway.”

“And if she doesn’t forgive me?”

“Then you will court her until she does. Properly, this time.”

He stopped, one hand on the doorframe. “…That isn’t how forgiveness—”

“I want a daughter-in-law, Gale! A clever one! One who looks at you as though you are a man and not a walking novella on self-sabotage! DO NOT WASTE THIS.”

“Yes, Mother,” he mumbled, flinching as a fresh pear sailed past his ear with alarming precision and burst against the doorframe.

“And bring her flowers! Real ones, Gale, not enchanted ones, she will know the difference, and so will I! And if you make her weep so much as once more, I swear on Mystra’s abandoned corset, I will hex your kneecaps clean off and donate them to the Restoration Guild!”

Gale half-stumbled out onto the front steps, gripping the banister like it alone anchored his entire reeling life to the earth.

“I’m GOING!”