May 2
I can understand why some people miss the signs. They’re hard to put out there, if you’re even capable of getting it out. Everyone has their own shit right? You don’t want to inconvenience anyone with your own bullshit. So usually it just gets pushed down and never surfaces. Signs are hard to read. The guilt you imagine feeling when your life infringes on others. The conversations with dozens of different people in your head that never happens because just that alone is overwhelming. I’ve been disassociating and everything feels surreal. Days turned into weeks and now months. Time never really felt so pressurized. How do you deal with things you don’t want to deal with? Can’t deal with.
