My brain is a liar.

There were technical difficulties when I tried purchasing tickets as soon as they went on sale. I'm a wheelchair user, and booking tickets for a wheelchair is never as easy as the website says. And VIP tickets are almost impossible to purchase when you need an accessible seat.

I contacted every possible person I could so that I wouldn't miss out, but I waited an hour and a half on the phone until they finally picked up and, by some miracle, found me an available wheelchair spot.

I keep losing things

and I will only lose more.

I'm frozen in my own life

and I don't see any movement in the near future.

There is so much I want to accomplish

but no one has any faith in me.

I am alone

and the only people who can fill the hole in my heart are dead.

That's it. That's all I have to say. I just thought the world should know.