Campfire Collective

Hey! we're the Campfire Collective :3

We use they/it/camp/ztar pronouns collectively! (camp/fire/campfireself & ztar/ztars/ztarself). Collectively, we're aroace, and toyboxhordic! (we especially like space themed xenos/neos hehe)

We're a starbound/stressgenic proxy system, and as far as we can tell, we're pretty fictive heavy, and most of them have opinions

We are bodily an adult, and our only DNI is discourse blogs and Anti Endos. We have literally nothing we wish to fight about please leave us alone-

Our list of Starshards (our personal term for headmates) can be found here - link. This list is not exhaustive, but simply those who have a desire to be known. (currently unfinished)

Other blogs:

@red-winter-is-coming - our main blog, where we also post about our interests, the hell that is the job market, and where Etho and Sammy like to bicker

@ifwewerekingsoftheworld - a personal blog for Etho and Skizz, where they get to chat about their source

I know for a fact that the ethosquad is planning to make a blog just for them, so if they get around to it that'll do here

don't mind the sign off I am refusing to choose a name out of spite. I love this collective :P

Anyways, as I was a) a very broke and dumb high school (and later collage) student, b) enabled by my equally batshit insane housemates, and c) was a theater kid without a theater, I got up to some WILD SHIT in my source.

and you get to hear me talk about it >:)

Things I Did (Without Housemates):

somehow managed to avoid all forms of drugs because half my teachers were either in the mafia or an undercover SWAT officer

Get really into vigilantism, killed a couple assholes and somehow still avoided ever facing repercussions????

Went nocturnal for a hot minute and learnt a lot of REALLY good ramen recipes. did know you Golden Carrots taste like meat if you marinate them in healing potions for a couple hours

Accidentally asked my crush out to prom a week early, and didn't realize until he said something about it

I started revenge spiking the punch at any parties by just pouring a shit ton of regen potions in there. counteracted the alcohol apparently

spiritually adopted three children, two of which were in the grade below me and the other was a senior at 15

technically potions were illegal but the cops brought them from me so idk what that was about

made an alliance with a trio of lesbians and swore to defend them to my dying breath. I crowned as 'the only non lesbian to receive favor from the moon' which uh. what

lost my eye during a fucking shootout between SWAT and the mafia, I generally don't care about this but apparently this is weird

ragebaited the guy who tried to kill my housemate so badly he tried to push me off a roof

I actually basically lived on the roof of my house. fucking loved it up there

we didn't have a library at our school so I ran one illegally out of my locker

technically never went to an actually collage, I just did a bunch of trade programs to distract myself from The Grief

continued to spiritually adopt children, although one was technically a legal adoption

after all the bullshit during my senior year went down, I actually got to leave due to witness protection, but within three months I already ran away back to my old server. yknow where hell breaks loose on the daily

while in said trade programs I was literally the only one following OSHA laws so I'm not unhinged here EVERYBODY ELSE was

had an unhealthy addiction to mixing potions into the wildest sodas lol. hey was alcohol or drugs at least

apparently my parents had another kid so one day this guy who looked like me showed up at the high school and I had an existential crisis for a week before talking to them

Things I Did, Housemates Included Edition:

Found and took over an abandoned building, and proceeded to live there literally the entire time we were on the server. hey no rent lol

At least three of us got involved with the police being assholes, pretty sure we broke in and stole their guns as punishment during collage

during high school we were all part of a group that broke into this one guy's dad's house to collect money for the mafia

We didn't really have food so we just. stole almost everything. the local marker had like one guy working at it and he was always stoned so it worked

We did a lot of breaking and entering lol

most of us were just dumped onto the streets during elementary school so there's a lot of unhinged things that stemmed that alone. which is also probably why I'm like this huh

I never had a job but I did all the repair work on our house, and also made meals for everybody else. this is why I was just the default 'parent' figure. I was actually one of the younger ones lol

like. years later. when the Asshole who ruined our lives finally kicked the bucket our whole living class 1) stole his body 2) held a funeral 3) desecrated the corpse 4) had a BANGER party while doing so

^ that was the first time we had all seen each other in years. we didn't plan this everybody just craved violence lol

like. kinda obvs none of our parents liked us but when I finally returned to the server I found out that one of my spiritually adopted kids ran away after his parents tried to kill him

(Aka: we're going throuhg fucking mitosis but instead of cells it's just This One Minecraft Youtuber We Haven't Watched In Years that our brain apparently really likes????)

we have 5 confirmed etho fictives. yes the minecraft youtuber. apparently that hyperfixation from two years ago is still working overtime lol

we are 95% sure there's at least one more, but they're being (quote) 'a fucking coward' (unquote). which. doesnt make sense but yeah no who cares Voidling is a huge head ache to figure out ;-;

we have:

Etho / Wynter, one of the co-hosts. + one of the first formed starshards (that we know of), generally chill, but hates interacting with fan content because they're VERY canon divergent. And paranoid of their memories changing if they interact with canon. They will actively complain about this at length. Love them, one of like three people here who help us function day to day

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Guide, a weird mismatch of Ethoslabs and Guiding Light from Doors. They're from an old AU we made, and are just generally chill. Bit chaotic, but overall just vibing. Doesn't front often but is oddly normal for how weird they are conceptually (affectionate)

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Stars, the protag from our old fic series, and has about as much social skills and twice the autism as in source. Is currently no longer a human, and I'm pretty sure they summoned their dragons into headspace, Pokemon style?????

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Nemesis / Nem, who's from a crossover AU we made with YHS a few years back (we also have a Hels from the same AU). Nem is one of three fictives who are filled with enough unbridled rage to start a riot, and yknow all the power to them. They're a VERY angry ghost, although they've mellowed out a bit :]

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they're probably from a modernish au, they don't have a name(????), and they REALLY like sunsets, fireworks and hanging out on rooftops

^ the host, who still hasn’t figured out if bakshin is actually here or if her song is a vocal stim

feelin shitty bout my emotions lol

god I miss them. I miss them so much I wish I had never met them. Had never learned about them. I hate watching ‘them’ move on. I want closure but how can I even get that? Rewatch my source again and again? It was never perfect. Write fanfics? I’m too scared to have my family be called Wrong for how I remember them.

are there any other fictive who experience such.. mixed emotions with their source and wanting closure? Esp fellow canon divergent mcyt fictives.

I’m so glad the others don’t have this much of a problem. Nem and Retro were from an AU already, Guide is barely another me, and Stars has other parts of their source to hold onto.

even Skizz isn’t this bad. I guess I’m just glad he isn’t suffering. I want to have that level of freedom.

I just. Don’t know. I’m tired. I get random posts on my fed and it makes me want to throw up. I still want to rewatch it all. I know the host wants too as well.

I’m so scared of changing. I think that’s it. I’m scared that my memories will warp or I will change. Become something I’m not. Or worse, I’ll forget my own life.

I’m aorry

I want it to get better too

Stay alive for us?

No no, the reason this hilarious to us is that for TWO YEARS Ennard has been a character we’ve never been able to confirm or deny existed as a fictive. So like. There’s a non zero chance this bitch has been here longer than most other headmates and just. Hasn’t announced himself????