Mikasa please notice Jean's feelings

Story by citrusado (Twitter)

Art by shiiradesu

Original story (Indonesian): Wattpad link

For LHWeek2021 Day 7 by levihanfess @ Twitter.

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Morning 🌄:

Hanji's not a morning person. Like at all. She's a happy pill and a walking sunshine, but morning is the only time of the day where she. cannot. function. Levi already knows this, and by the time she wakes up he's already got a coffee pot ready for her at the table.

Since Hanji will basically not speak in the morning, her way of greeting Levi is by kissing his hair while he cooks her breakfast. He just bumps his hips on hers while she walks by, telling her in an annoyed tone to "just sit down already and stop fussing in my kitchen, four eyes."

Levi doesn't like to have breakfast, but Hanji sometimes will feed him a strawberry and make some embarrassing comment about how cute his cheeks get when he eats.

"Oh so you're back talking crap already?"

"Don't lie I know you missed it!"

Afternoon 🌤️:

Levi will be busy working at his teashop while Hanji's at her lab. He knows how busy she gets at work and if they can't have lunch together, he just sends her a quick text reminding her to eat. This time too she told him she wouldn't be able to make it. Levi felt only a little twinge of disappointment, but it quickly faded away once he looked outside the shop's window and saw the biggest dork in the world, her hair all over her face because of the wind while she motioned towards her phone. Seconds later, Levi's phone vibrated in his hands:

"Told my boyfriend I was busy so I could come see you >:)"

"Then get inside already before he sees you."

Levi won't admit it, but Hanji's texts always make him blush.

Night 🌌:

Levi gets home a little earlier than Hanji and starts getting their dinner ready. Once he gets home it takes Hanji another hour to join him, so he uses this time to make dinner while watching TV. His favorite entertainment shows in the world are cooking shows, so he usually spends this time cutting vegetables while watching Giada's Home. If he's feeling more excited he'll DEFINITELY watch Hell's Kitchen and complain about the cooks (rumor has it he's much worse than Gordon Ramsay).

By the time Hanji comes home Levi's almost finished with dinner. They'll greet with a peck on the lips but she'll always kiss him all over his face just to see him come up with some lame excuse to explain why he's blushing:

"You're redder than a pepper, Mr. Ackerman."

"It's this stupid heat. You think we need to get this stove checked? It might blow up sometime."

Hanji showers first, then Levi goes in while she sets the table. Once he's done he'll walk in the kitchen with a towel around his neck, turning on his back to Hanji. She'll take the towel and dry his hair, giving special attention to his undercut because he loves when she touches there.

At the table, they eat while talking about their day. The TV doesn't even need to be on for background noise since once Hanji starts talking about her research, not even a hurricane can stop her. When they first started dating Levi didn't understand shit she was saying, but now he prides himself in understanding almost everything she talks about.

If Levi's had a bad day he'll replace Hanji in the talking and will spend the entirety of dinner complaining about that specific customer and how he wishes they're choking on an olive right now.

"An olive?"

"A green olive."

"Oh no."

If they're not tired they'll watch a show together, something funny like the Good Place. If Hanji's had a rough day Levi will let her choose a documentary and will just lie down with his head between her legs while they watch.

They’re drunk and Mikasa knows that Jean likes her, no, possibly loves her more than she loves herself at the moment. She used to be so calm and collected in dire situations but sadness fueled by alcohol could drive any human insane, even the strongest one. And she’s the very example of that when she grabbed Jean’s neck, then placing her lips too harshly on his.

Jean responded after being surprised for a few seconds, giving her second thoughts that whatever she did was okay as it feels okay.  Intoxication urges them to lay all inhibitions and rational thoughts aside, Jean is now the one leading what Mikasa started. He gently touched her face with both hands, his eyes closed while trying to deepen their kiss further. Mikasa obliged, opening her mouth to accept his prodding tongue, eyes staring at Jean’s cheeks before shutting her eyes to focus on their lips again. No words were spoken between them, breathing was just a respite as they go back to explore each other’s mouth repeatedly for god knows how long. Until Jean decided to break the kiss as he tries to look at Mikasa’s flushed face.

She didn’t move when he let go and it made Jean worry that he must have taken advantage of her drunk state. “Continue,” she said after a minute without even moving on her chair. Brushing a hand on his face as if hiding his blush she could not see, he sighed. “I think we had enough, Mikasa. You need to rest.” With a sad smile, she replied. “Please continue.” “No. We’re drunk. I was drunk. This was stupid. I’ll get Annie to bring you to your room,” he roughly said.

Jean was starting to walk to the mess hall’s door when Mikasa didn’t talk back for a while, her eyes shut since Jean tear his face away from her, but she shouted the moment his foot stepped outside the hall.

“No! Eren, please don’t leave me! I’m really sorry!” Jean felt a raw pang of pain surging through his veins into his heart. He stilled when he heard Mikasa crying loudly, repeating Eren’s name and rapping a ton shit of sorry’s with it.

He wanted to leave her alone instantly in the dimmed mess hall, not wanting to hear more of Eren’s name out of her mouth, knowing that someone would definitely hear her wailing and help her sober up. But despite the hurt, Jean just couldn’t seem to leave Mikasa, most importantly at her lowest. He loves her that much. So he went back to where she was seated and kissed her again, this time on her forehead. He hugged her tightly as he whispered a prayer, “Please wake up, Mikasa. Eren’s gone.” Like magic, the mention of Eren made Mikasa open her eyes, blinking hard as she focuses her vision on the face of the man in front of her. She soon realized that somewhere between fighting her drunken stupor from the alcohol and the heated kisses, her mind wandered to Eren, again. She closed her eyes, tears continue rolling down as she silently sobs in Jean’s arms. Her hate for herself growing when she saw Jean trying to conceal his hurt by showing concern. “I told you, I can wait.” I don’t deserve you. “Jean, I’m sorry. I do love you…”

But you love him more, Jean couldn’t say it out loud. He had no choice but to understand where she was coming from. He has witnessed this many times already, and he expects to see more of this in the next days, weeks, months, and may god forbid, years. He coughed, hiding the shake in his voice. “It’s okay.” Mikasa cried longer than their kisses. Jean could only hug her, wishing it could shoo her pain away, praying that he could be enough to replace him in her heart. He doesn’t care how long, he doesn’t even care if it’s not him in the future.

Tired Papa Levi and babies~~U//v//U

. I went on websites where parents post quotes of their children saying funny stuff and I thought of making a serie of it with Udo? What do you think?

"Dad?" Udo tugged at Levi's sleeve.

"Yes?" he put down his book and looked at the boy, giving him all of his attention.

"I've got a question," Udo mumbled, his eyes cast down, wringing his fingers.

"I'm listening," Levi nodded, prompting him to continue.

"Yesterday... when you went to town and I was left with uncle Jean and aunt Mikasa, I overheard something..."

Levi instantly tensed. His eyes sharpened as he thought of what could Jean or Mikasa tell to his kid. If that was something innapropriete... He'd have Kirshtein's head.

"Uncle Jean said he loved aunt Mikasa, but..." Udo frowned, worrying lip between his teeth. In that moment he looked just like Hange, and Levi's chest filled with affection towards the two people he held closest to his heart. "Isn't that what you always tell me? And I've heard uncle Mike tell it to his kids too, so why did uncle Jean say that? Aunt Mikasa isn't his kid, right?"

Oh, god. Levi's eyes darted to the clock. It was still too early for Hange to come back. Shit. He couldn't do this alone. He didn't know what to say. What could he say? What should he say?

Levi stared hopelessly at his son.

"Dad? Why did uncle Jean say that?"

"Um... you see, Udo, you don't only love your children."

"No?" Udo pushed the glasses up his nose. "Mom said that kids are born out of love. But you tell me that people don't only love their children. Does that mean that mom was lying?"

"Since she told you that... Maybe, you should wait till Hange comes home and then ask her?"

"But, dad!" Udo whined. "I want to know now! Tell me what love is!"

"Well," Levi scratched his head with a painful expression. "It's hard to explain love..."

"Dad..." Udo said in a low, warning voice, giving him a hard look.

Oh god. He was really making Levi talk about that?

"Good grief..." Levi muttered. "It's different for everyone, alright? This whole love thing, everyone experiences it in different ways?"

"What about you? What's love for you?"

"It's... a feeling I get when you come home and bring good grades. And when I walk inside your room and see that it's clean. And when you agree to eat vegetables for lunch."

Yes, it was a good explanation. Levi actually felt proud of himself for this one. Maybe, this whole parenting thing isn't so hard...

Udo didn't look impressed in the slightest. On the contrary, he was sitting with his hands crossed on his chest and his face twisted into a pout.

"I doubt that uncle Jean is proud of aunt Mikasa's grades."

Shit, Levi thought. Sometimes Hange's genes were such a bother.

"And you talked only about me." Udo said with a doubting expression. "Don't you love anyone else?"

"Well... I love when your mom when she smiles. And when she laughs. And she has a day-off and the three of us can go to the park."

"Huh..." Udo rubbed at his chin. "So you love someone when they make you happy?"

"No," Levi shook his head. "If you love someone, you continue to love them no matter what. Sometimes you throw tantrums and sometimes you forget to do the dishes. I don't like when you do that, but I still love you. And sometimes Hange can be too annoying. Sometimes she throws her clothes onto the floor and sometimes she comes home from work too late, and I hate when she does that, but I still love her very much."

"Hm," Udo still looked unconvinced. "And why do you love mom? Why not someone else?"

"Because your mother is the most stubborn person I've ever seen. She bothered me until I fell in love with her."

"Did mom know it was going to happen? Why didn't she bother anyone else, but only you?"

"Because she's very smart," Levi said, patting Udo's head. "She knew I'm going to fall in love with her and she knew that you would be the result of this love."

"Would you have chosen anyone else?" Udo asked. "If you had a choice, would you choose someone else?"

"No," Levi replied without hesitation. It was the easiest question Udo had asked him today. "Hundreds, millions of people can bother me like Hange did, and I'd still choose her."

"Huh," Udo chuckled. "I think... I understand what love is now."

"Awesome," Levi deadpanned. "Now go and wash your hands. We need to serve the table, Hange's coming home soon."

Udo smiled, stood on his tiptoes to kiss Levi's cheek and then darted out of the room. As soon as he was out of the door, he squealed in delight.

"You're home!" he yelled. Even behind the door, Levi could hear Hange's happy laughter.

He walked out of the room to join his family. The sight of Hange hugging Udo, as always, didn't fail in warming his heart.

"Go, honey," Hange whispered, kissing the crown of Udo's head. "Dad asked you to wash your hands, right?"

"I'll come back soon!" Udo promised, running away.

Hange watched him disappear inside the bathroom and then turned to Levi, standing up and leaning in to give him a kiss too.

"How was work?" Levi asked, closing his eyes and enjoying Hange's warm presence.

"Same as usual. You'd find it boring."

"Tell me anyway," Levi said, wrapping his hand around her waist and leading Hange to the kitchen.

Hange smiled, lifting her hand to caress his cheek. "That's why I decided to bother you all these years ago," she muttered softly. "Because you're the sweetest."

She heard it, Levi realised instatly. She heard his conversation with Udo. He felt his cheeks redden.

"You're the sweetest," Hange repeated, obviously enjoying his embarrassment. "And you have a rocking bod. I saw those abs during the training and fell in love that instant."

"Shut up," Levi grumbled, pinching her side. What a way to ruin the moment. "Eavesdropping is a shitty habit, four-eyes."

"And yet you still love me," she snickered.

I won't get into details of WHY she might be alive despite the near end to the series, there's hope and despair from all of us.

What can't be denied is this memory shard of her that is still missing. She is wet and missing her glasses.

Now, remember that Falco destroyed the ship and Yelena and them are floating around. They are clearly not going to wait for death from starvation or thirst so they will row back to the shore/port where Hanji may have fallen into the water after her fight. She was not badly burnt from her fight and then given she did not drown and was saved by luck or even Ymir (who also saved Zeke from his death), she then looks surprised because she believed that she really died in her "magic lantern" moment with the SC in 132. Hence her expression from the shard, Eren would be able to see this as there are many birds around the shore.

I was really having a hard time believing she would be alive with only 2 chapters but HOWEVEr having Yelena and them go back to shore now makes perfect sense, and to find Hanji is a very natural way to bring her back as well as finish off Yelena and Kiyomi's character arcs in a way that's not just "they're floating in the ocean".

Thank you for coming to my TED talk on how to clown yourself using some logic and mostly hope.

I mean look:

"Nice to meet you,Historia" it wouldn't be a stretch to say that this might be the first time Historia has heard these words.

Again with Flegel who has just lost a parent.

Her waiting patiently for Connie despite being his superior officer.

And this one is pretty self explanatory.

At first he just dismisses Gabi's talent despite knowing that she's a trained sharpshooter:

And then Levi was probably, "Ah fuck it, might as well help the Alliance by helping this brat."

So he helps her align her shot (because let's face it, hitting a fast-moving titan while you're also on a fast-moving, flying titan really is a Herculean task) DESPITE the fact that he only has one eye and doesn't have much of a depth perception

And add to that, he even protects her from the recoil by putting his weight on her so she doesn't get knocked off Falco's titan. Levi doesn't need any of his brats falling off to their deaths. He doesn't want to lose anyone anymore.

He's been trying his best to save lives and that's also maybe why he was so shocked that Zeke would willingly sacrifice himself just like that.

Petra is such a sweet girl! I wouldn't say she is jealous of Hange, - not in canon anyway - because she's a soldier before all and her heart belongs to humanity. But yes - in my mind -, maybe has a crush on Levi. Anyway, let me revisit chapter 20:

Petra understands for the first time her captain's interest in the eccentric scientist.

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He ducked his head to examine Eld. "I'm sure you're all aware but you may not ask him anything past what's in the report." He paused. Petra looked intently at her superior as he eyed each of them as a polite warning. The less Eren knew, the better.

"Although I doubt she'll keep her mouth shut."

The words stung an instant when Petra understood whom he was talking about. Of course, he'd be thinking of her. Even when there was no connection to the current matter. Eld and Oluo remained silent as Eren unavoidably asked who.

"She?"

As if Levi had summoned her there, a loud banging resonated in the dining wall which made Petra jump out of surprise, fear... and maybe disappointment. Hange San was a loud personage, some may say eccentric, others said her to be a mad scientist. Those were true enough. But what had caught Petra's attention was the unusual bond Hange San shared with her captain.

Petra had entered the Survey corps not long after him. She had observed nothing alike a relationship as far as he was involved. That's why she had allowed herself to have a crush on him. He was brilliant after all. Humanity's strongest. Cold and snappy all right, but deeply concerned for the well-being of others. The more years passed, the more she believed him interesting. And the more Hange San did too.

"Hi there, squad Levi!" the door was violently banged open. "Is the castle comfortable?" Petra saw Squad leader Hange entering the room with a vivid cheerful expression on.

"Her." Levi said nonchalantly, he seemed utterly annoyed by her presence. Though, Petra had seen enough of their relation to knowing it was just his usual face when she was around. The rest of the table had gone silent after her arrival and Petra couldn't make out the sense of the Squad leader's chatting. Not until she merely screamed her captain's name

"Levi! What's on Eren's agenda for tomorrow??"

"..." he looked up at her. "cleaning the yard."

"GREAT! Then it's settled!!"

Petra almost choked on her black tea. Had he not just - ? That was the thing Petra did not understand. Captain Levi was someone who followed the rules, who wanted things to be done correctly and efficiently. He liked when things were clean and where they belonged. She'd seen how easier it was for him to fight when the soldiers around him followed the orders. She'd seen how his routine was designed, meticulously tallied. This was everything she had sought to be when he chose her for his Squad. And this was everything Hange San was not. She did not understand.

Suddenly everyone was standing up. Why? She forced her mind back to the situation. "Well if you want to know that badly about titans..." the woman started. Ah, so they were there again, leaving because Squad Leader Hange had found a new target to bore. Petra had not heard her captain say anything, but he was leaving already.

And then she saw it...

Petra Ral had always suggested. She had always tried pretending. But she couldn't deny it anymore, could she?

Before Levi left the room, Petra saw him look over his shoulder. To her? No. To Hange San. His face was gentle, held something Petra didn't know. He nodded slightly, it almost seemed as if she had dreamt it. Then she turned to look at the pair still sitting at the table. Hange San was looking back, a faint blush on her face. And in a flash, it was gone, and they weren't looking at each other anymore. As quickly as it had come.

...

Summary: Hange suffered from a headache alone until Levi came to her rescue.

Note: My first contribution to Levihan community. Inspiration sprouted from my headache. Anyways, hope you’ll enjoy.

Link to cross-posting: AO3

"FATHER, I HIT IT!!"

her mom at the background (we all know where *cries):