I am, what I am

"Who is Romani Archaman to you?"

Literally such a delinquent, buttttt......

Slowburn, obsessive Aerion, omegaverse groundhog day type shit between him and Dunk.

So it starts after Baelor dies, at the height of their hatred for one another. They are brought back to the day that they meet and you know, Aerion hurts Tanselle. Aerion sees his chance and just straight up kills Dunk the moment he sees him, he doesn't care that his father is screaming at him and Baelor is staring at him like he's a monster. He goes to bed happy...until he wakes up to his father saying they need to go so they can get to Ashfrod early, back in the shitty inn.

Aerion tries to kill Dunk again, only to get punched in the face by Duncan who says that is for last time. The two realize very quickly that they are the ONLY ones in this loop and that they have to be in hell.

Fo like 30 straight loops they just straight up kill one another, or die trying to be honest. They soon get REALLY good at picking apart one another's tells and they are simply now beating the snot out of each other. They....mellow(?) out after the 50th loop when they realize that literally NOTHING changes despite what they do. For another 20 loops they just ignore one another, but that does nothing at all either.

They get together in the early mornings when Aerion arrives, to bitch and moan about what the hell is going on, Aerion usually stealing the VERY special wine his Uncle Baelor was most likely going to use to propose to his own father. The loop will reset, he doesn't give a damn. The two go back and forth on many topics, anything and anything really.

They get to the topic of Dunk being an Alpha that doesn't act like an Alpha and Aerion and Omega who doesn't act like an Omega. They just chalk it up to their personalities and Aerion's is mostly due to the fact that his parents never really...saw him all that much, aside from a second son. As they spend more and more time together Aerion realizes he REALLY likes Dunk's scent of fresh rain, morning dew and woody Earth. Dunk likes how Aerion is spices, citrus and burning ember; NEITHER say anything to the other.

Aerion thinks they are something, but it is shattered when he always sees Dunk speaking to Tanselle when he goes to grab food. Tanselle, the bitch who made a dragon die before him and who Duncan had eyes for in the beginning. He tries to say to himself that it is nothing, only he and Duncan can understand one another in this hell they are in. It works for a bit...until one loop where Duncan leaves a note in their usual spot, stating he is finally going to man up and try to spend the night with Tanselle.

Aerion snaps. He kills the beta woman in broad daylight, it is violent, merciless and frantic; he looks like a demon as he stabs again and again and again. His kingsguard struggle to get Aerion off her, the man yelling and screaming; he turns to a shocked Dunk and it all spills out.

"WHY HER AND NOT ME? IS IT NO I WHO IS IN THIS ENDLESS HELL WITH YOU? IS IT NO I YOU SHARE YOUR WOES WITH! WHY HER. WHY SEEK HER BED AND NOT MINE," he is sobbing, straining against his kingsgaurd, tears flowing down his face. Duncan says nothing and the omega in Aerion sees it as rejection; and the next words are the words of a desperate omega not wanting to lose a mate. "I CAN GIVE YOU GOOD CHILDREN! ME, NOT HER! THEY WOULD BE BOLD, STRONG AND HAVE THE BLOOD OF THE DRAGON! YOU DESERVE GOOD PUPS, SHE CAN'T GIVE THEM TO YOU! I CAN! ME! ME! NOT HER!!" He is sobbing, dragged away while everyone stares between Duncan and Aerion in confusion.

Aerion ends his life, not wanting to be reminded any longer that Dunk chose Tanselle over him. Duncan does the same, needing to speak to Aerion as quickly as possible. The next loop, Dunk is waiting near the pond; Aerion appears and it all spills out. Dunk is the only one he wants, they have been reliving the same day for literal years at this point and they are all they have, and Aerion loves him. They go back and forth before Dunk asks if Aerion really wants him, or just thinks he 'loves' Dunk because of this endless loop.

Aerion is unhinged during their first mating, when they have finally confessed in the hellish loop they are in. I mean he had no shame in admitting to dunk he was fingering himself (Male omegas have female parts) every time he saw Dunk practice jousting. And smelling Dunk’s natural musk has sent him into heat multiple times before but usually he was locked away by his father before he could get to Dunk; but not now. 

Duncan himself has gone into a rut, Aerion’s scent and the fact he has gone into heat triggering him as well. Aerion is babbling, basically pleading with Dunk to let go and do what biology demands to them. Aerion knows that the alpha inside of Dunk WANTS pups and that Aerion can provide him with strong pups, good pups, better than anyone else in all of the seven kingdoms. All Dunk needs to do is fuck him nice, good and hard, make sure that knot catches. Like before, they fuck like animals the entire day and the next they are back to their staring points. 

Duncan wants to talk, but Aerion is NOT having, he literally couldn’t give two fucks if anyone is watching them being honest. The stable they meet at empties as the royal group moves; has Aerion up against the walls of a stable; begging Dunk to go harder and to give him more. Maekar (Aerion’s Omega mother) finds them and flips his shit; screaming for Baelor. Aerion locks his legs around Dunk (Who never got over his fear of Maekar), telling his father that unless he wants EVERYONE to know that his younger sisters and Aegon are Baelor’s pups, he’ll leave them alone. 

Nono but if you haven’t read this fic before go read it!!! Link below!

A what-if scenario where he never finds Tholindis.

You thought that being Rerir’s companion was the worst thing that happened to you aside from being immortal against your will. Aside from seeing your homeland got destroyed. Aside from being doomed to roam Teyvat forever. You thought, too, that him gaining his full power was the worst thing that happened to you.

Clearly, you hadn’t considered the fact that Tholindis might never be found.

So since the fall of their nation and Rerir deciding that you are to be his companion; things aren’t exactly linear. You have the skill of finding connections between sources that he himself doesn’t really notice, so there are times when you are stuck living with him for literal months to years at a time. Then he up and vanishes, following the connections that you found for him, and you think you are safe ... .Until he returns with more information and is more unstable than before. 

Your terrified of him, so you help him so he doesn’t torture you–since the torture won’t lead to the relief of death as you are cursed with immortality–and so that he will leave again. But as time goes on the time between when he leaves and returns shortens; and his instability gets MUCH worse. From years, to a year to a few months to a few weeks, the time between him finding you and leaving gets smaller and smaller; and your fear grows. Until he never comes back, when his body is destroyed in his attempts to find Tholindis. You believe you are safe now, after a few decades of being paranoid of course, but you go on to live a ‘normal’ life while suffering from the decay. It’s not as bad as Capitano or Dainslief; but it does hurt and it is a reminder of what happened to your people, your nation and everything you loved. 

But you persist, you allow yourself to live while keeping who you are a secret. You move to Nod-Krai, not knowing this is where Rerir is looking for the last bit of his scattered pieces. You develop a life, friends and companions here in this town ruled by no one. You find someone you really like, and they really like you. You spend time with one another, feelings develop and things progress. 

But Rerir is back, though only at 10% of his true power; he is back and he seeks out his ‘only true companion’; he has your essence memorized and is able to find you quickly–he is relieved to sense you in Nod-Krai. You must have known he was attempting to get back, and he is happy about that. Until he gets to your house and sees something that sends him spiraling into rage– 

A pathetic human is between your legs, you are moaning, shifting and panting–and the look on your face….

You look like you LOVE that human. 

He finally snaps out of his daze when the man rises, moving to be closer to you and complete the connection….

….Rerir can’t have that. 

Using his power he grabs the pathetic human, and rips him apart right before you; you are drenched in blood and frozen in fear at the very familiar power that you had not seen in centuries. Rerir enters, he is scowling, anger radiates off of him in waves that seem to choke you as his hands hold you down. 

“If you could love another, then what was your loyalty to me for?” He snarled, eye wide in paranoia and anger. 

You try to speak but nothing come out, his hands are choking you–half naked and aroused; his eyes rove over you and he cocks his head to the side. 

“No, no more. You’ll stay with me forever.” he mumbled absently. “We shall get married and I’ll put a baby in you. That way, you won’t be able to leave me.” Those words hit you like a Mitachurl. 

“N…No…Rerir please,” you plead. 

“But…mayhaps I can put the child within you now,” he said, moving to walk over as the dark power began to rip off the rest of your clothes. 

“Rerir…!” you shrieked, face paling in horror. “Snap out of it!”

“Shut up!” he barked. “I won’t give you any chance to escape from me. Never! Neither death nor the abyss shall separate us anymore.” His single eye locked with your own just as he kneeled between your open legs. “This is the only way…” 

Tears well up in your eyes and that seems to stop Rerir for a moment, and something you never expected came from his lips. 

“You were supposed to be happy I came back,” he whispers, more to himself than to you.

Okay, okay. So I finally had time to catch up on the latest chapters in book 7 and couldn’t help but think after reading Utopian_Angel’s (Ao3) or @enchanted-nerd (Tumblr) Lions & Dragons [Amazing fic by the way, totally go and check it out! Show it some love people!], what would have happened if during Malleus’ overblot, he took priority over ensuring the first years dreams were the most protected-even over his fellow housewardens. 

We know that for the housewardens he placed the Darkness as close as possible to ensure they were entrenched deep into their dreams to make sure they wouldn’t wake up. But with the Lions & Dragons Malleus, I think he would take extra precaution to ensure the First Years would NEVER wake up. He would make it impossible for anyone to get close to the first years and keep a much closer eye on them than even the housewardens. This as well since he doesn’t have access to Ortho’s dreams as Ortho cannot dream because he is a robot. He’s missing one of his treasures, as he calls them in Lions & Dragons. Not having access to all of them makes him seriously pissed off and so he gets extra protective over them all. 

I honestly see it as Ortho and Idia have literally no choice but to go with only Silver to the dreams and having to wake up the first years dead last, they have no choice because attempting to wake up Sebek drew Malleu’s attention to them so fast they almost lost Ortho because Malleus was determined to keep all his treasures together. Maybe even during the confrontation in the Cerberus Gear, Malleus still attempts to keep Ortho’s body thinking he can still bind him in dreams. 

Dunno…been stewing with this since catching up. The Housewarderns were tough to wake up, but I think Malleus from that story would make it near impossible for the First Years to even wake up. He would have taken special care to make sure that they have the best dreams with the least margin of error to allow them to awaken. Most likely he keeps them close to the center of his arcane realm to ensure the most potent magic….   

I guess if Malleus is keeping a closer eye on the First years, their dreams would be different than what we went through in Book 7. 

I think with Sebek he would still be in school with everyone, spending the days with the first years alongside the other Diasomnia members. Everything would be as it was because Sebek finally carved out a place for himself with people who see him and who he sees as friends. Malleus is able to come in and out of this dream with ease, and he gets to indulge Sebek in a way he usually would never allow. 

Epel…I am NOT allowing him to be that muscle bodied baby headed being, but he is going to be training with the rest of the first years helping him. He spends time in a warrior workshop with Lilia and Sebek, Malleus watching them as he comments about Sebek’s youth. He’s in school, because he has found himself there with everyone around him and Malleus is able to be there in a capacity to keep an eye on him. 

Jack is pretty much the same, just Malleus making it more and more apparent that Leona wants to do things civilly; so Malleus comes along to make him communicate with Leona. That way he can keep an eye on Jack personally while commenting on his form and such. Not much needs to be done with Jack, he already has a very good dream that Malleus is able to enforce no problem; so all he does is strengthen the conviction and ensure all actors are believable. 

Deuce….delienquent through and through; Malleus has a bit of a hard time understanding his convictions but he plays along. It’s fun but he does twist the dream to make sure that both Diasomnia and Heartslabyul are in a Partnership/Alliance so that Malleus is allowed close access to Deuce and able to communicate with ease. The battles they engage in is fun for him, so Malleus usually is there in Deuce’s dream to have some fun and ensure that his dream is going perfectly well. 

Ace is pretty much the same, only that it doesn’t involve any of the Heartslabyul members aside from Deuce and they are all vacationing in Briar Valley. Malleus is the one who invited them to be honored guests and he is throwing balls and treating them as well as a prince can for such guests. Ace’s dream is an excuse to be able to spoil his treasures and spend an unlimited amount of time with them in his country, showing them all it has to offer and more. Not to mention he can pretend Yuu can see their family and is able to come back whenever they want because that is what ACE wants. 

Yuu’s dream is simple. He’s happy with everyone in Night Raven….Malleus had the hardest time in reworking this dream because Yuu’s dream was to go home. Away from all of them. He needed to intervene. He had no choice. Yuu’s is the most warped and the one Malleus is in the most to ensure its stability and to make sure that Yuu isn’t able to wake up. Grim is always managing to get into the dreams somehow, like he is drawn to Yuu. Malleus has nothing against Grim, but he woke up Yuu once already and it was once too much. 

it's ortho's idea, really. it doesn't even start off as a support group. ortho just wants to have a large video game tournament like he often sees online, and the first-years decide to help him make it a reality.

at first, they just invite their roommates, which brings us to a healthy number of about 18 people. then their roommates invite a few friends, who are eager to escape the pressures of being in their respective dorms. before they know it, their "video game tournament" has turned into a hang-out group of about 36 who come over to play video games every other weekend.

one day, while they're playing a racing game, one of the scarabian first-years starts absentmindedly talking about how nice it is here. how ever since winter break, he's felt unsafe in his own bedroom, especially with jamil still lurking around. how it's nice to have an excuse to just get away from all of it for a bit.

then he notices the room's gone quiet. his words have unknowingly hit a serious nerve.

they all take a break from the tournament to just... talk. they're night raven college students, so they don't really talk much about their feelings, but in this empty space, as detached as they'll ever be from the brutally individualistic culture of this school...

it feels safe. it feels right.

epel starts bringing over criminally soft blankets from pomefiore's seemingly endless supply of cashmere bedding. jack brings over some cacti to lighten the mood. ace and deuce -- with trey's unknowing help -- learn how to make a decent (if repetitive) spread of cookies, soup, and popcorn. sebek brings over some scented candles from diasomnia just in case someone wants to close the blinds and be in relative darkness for a bit. and yuu, of course, offers their time.

before they know it, "video game tournament" turns into a codeword rather than an actual label. and the first-years have become the operators of night raven college's first -- and perhaps only -- support group.

YES YES YES YES YESYESYESYESYESYESYESYESYESYESYES FOUND FAMILY DOMESTICITY IS MY WEAKNESS ISTG

like sometimes they talk for way too long and by the time they're done, it's almost midnight and they're way too exhausted to even think about walking back. (and maybe a little scared what their dorm leaders will think about them coming in long after curfew.)

(except for savanaclaw students, who know that nobody even knows or cares that they left in the first place, which... hurts more than a claw scratch ever will, but we're not going to dwell on that thought.)

so yuu offers them some of their rooms to sleep in. while there are enough that they could have a room all to themselves, some of them do choose to bunk with each other, because it's just nice to not have to fall asleep feeling alone and like the world's out to get you for once.

and when they wake up in the morning, some of them go out to get breakfast for everyone else at sam's shop, and they all eat breakfast together, joking and laughing and messing around like people their age should be.

Like...drugs, sex, a fighting ring or some stupid shit they think is going down there. But no, its games, food and some not so platonic cuddling (like seriously, are any boys in the school straight? like be fr??), but nothing more than that. They don't know what to do while the first years are trying to hold in their anger and tears because all of this is for sure going to be taken away.

They don't talk to their seniors for a full week, because they are waiting for the shoe to drop and say that they aren't allowed back and the seniors are freaking out, like why aren't their adorable (they are reaching fr, these are traumatized babies) first years speaking. to them.