manic pixie dream goth

𝙸 𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚊𝚛𝚛𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗, 𝚊𝚖𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚖𝚢 𝚏𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚜, 𝙸'𝚖 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚌𝚊𝚗'𝚝 𝚑𝚎𝚕𝚙 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚎𝚊𝚝. 𝙸 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝚊𝚜 𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚒𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚏𝚘𝚘𝚍 𝚊𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚊𝚛𝚎.

my biggest fear is fainting and being too heavy for one person to carry me

I hate HATE how my stomach feels when it’s full. Every time it is I wish it was empty. And every time it’s empty I wish it was fucking full when will I get out of this like rn it’s so full I feel sick like I could puke it all up rn but I know this will help me fast like a mf tmrw the feeling of nausea always does <3

have you ever managed to gaslight yourself that you don't like food? that at some point it became true? There are people who forget to eat because they don't feel hungry. As a person who is the opposite of this by nature, have you managed to change this reality? I am fed up with food controlling my life. i want to forget about it, i want it to be indifferent to me.

i feel ashamed that i have an ed and i am not skinny