duygu

i’m spending my days at home, there was a period of time where i lost myself and acted like someone i am not. i was struggling so bad, i couldn’t even eat properly for a while, i just cried and cried every single day. fortunately i’ve managed to get out of that period but i think my depression has become worse as of lately. my mom is away from home which is something i’m used to but i feel lonely, i know it is up to me to fix it but i just can’t bring myself to do something about it. socializing has always overwhelmed me.

anyway, i don’t know what to do about how empty i feel. i actually do appreciate being by myself since i can focus on my hobbies, well, if i could. if only i can just get out of this depressive episode which basically ruined many years of my life.

it’s been already 4 months since i stopped going to school and i didn’t do anything good for myself. i’ll try to focus on the things I’m interested in maybe that way i can feel something.