ally ୨୧

i feel like my soul has been ripped out of my chest, stabbed 374 991 thousands and now all my light begins to drain out with no way to stop it

i love having a dream about my ex dying and waking up crying and having it ruin my whole day and wanting to message him to say everything i haven’t had the opportunity to say

when i don’t make exceptions when it comes to men,, but when i do make an exception, it becomes a fuckass #ihatemybf situation 🫩

i need to be put into a medically induced coma for at least 3-4 business months before i literally combust

being told i have pretty moans scratches such a particular part of my brain and i can’t articulate how praising it is 🧍🏻‍♀️

maybe i should just stick to fictional men because what the actual fricking fuck do you mean i have to regulate my emotions to maintain a stable relationship 🧍🏻‍♀️

i love when i meet a guy that i’m really attracted to and then we go on a date and he’s so respectful and funny and driven and then everything goes to absolute fucking shit because my stupid fucking brain thinks he hates me because he hasn’t replied in an hour ( even though i know he’s busy because he actually has a life ) and my stupid fucking brain thinks he’s just talking to me for funsies and likes other girls more than me so i end up keeping quiet, acting like nothing happened and just cry myself into a nap so i don’t have to be consumed by all the thoughts and anxiety 🧑🏻‍🦲