crooked.

Took me years to actually learn to sligtly give more love to my body than what i usually had.

My body weight and figure is one of the things im insecure about with body. Kaya i prefer having portrait photos na chest above or selfie ay para hindi makita yan. Like mas madali ialign yung angle para hindi ako mukhang mataba.

I fooled myself into thinking im not that big dahil dyan sa ginawa ko. I disliked asking ppl to take photos of myself for ig ganon kasi i dont like seeing my body like this. Kung di lang ako hinype ng friend ko, maybe iwouldn't even have posted this.

Do i wanna lose weight? Definitely. Pero i dont wanna go through such rigorous process of strict diet for that. Baka maging unhealthy at mas lumobo ako if i stopped dieting.

Will i exercise? Maybe. Pero i guess I'll start doing what i want muna. Di ko iforce sarili ko to follow strict workout routines na mageend up na tatamarin lang ako kasi nga its too hard for me to keep up. I keep getting discouraged easily pag di ko nagagawa.

Hopefully i get to post photos of myself im proud of in the future. Yung kahit walang abs pero physically fit naman at definitely less insecure than how insecure i am in the past.