MEMORIES STAY, PEOPLE DON'T

I feel drained by my own existence, trapped in a mind I can’t control, lost in a life that doesn’t seem to be mine.

I feel like I have wasted what is supposed to be the best time of my life being depressed and I don’t really know how to get over it.

victims of abuse be like, this person has now made me cry myself to sleep about 30 times, i have flashbacks of things they’ve done and said to me, they know how to hit me right in my worst insecurity and guilt so i feel horrible for days and months, their comments make me feel worthless and like i shouldn’t even be alive, and being around them makes me feel small and meaningless and sometimes suicidal but maybe that’s just me, maybe they’re not abusive? i have to give them benefit of the doubt, what if i’m not justified to kick them out of my life?

I don’t blame you for hurting me, I blame myself for trusting you.

“You can't make people care about you; they either do or they don't.”

I know I need to move on and get over things but I cant stop wishing to un-live so many moments and to be good enough for the people I need to learn to stop loving

All I ever wanted was someone who doesn’t make me feel like there is something wrong with me