Where Am I?

This past week has been filled with many things but one of the biggest has been a sense of security with coming back to the Bay. Going back to Japan has and still is a really difficult decision but knowing that I have some part of my life in check when I return is a relief. I have to make the last four months abroad worth the sacrifices I have made. Sacrifices in graduating, possibly the type of degree I will finish with, sacrifices in my relationship. I have some major set backs here and there but my job is going really well and there have been new potential career opportunities in the works. Crossing my fingers everything will fall into place. 

Lately I've been feeling like I'm constantly questioning everything and everyone around me. Why is it that I must know the answer to everything, why must I pry myself into situations I shouldn't be in, look in places I shouldn't see? I have absolutely no idea. I am so close to finishing my degree and yet I break away from it on some quick decision to move to Japan. Who does that??? Am I thoughtless? Irresponsible? or just spontaneous? I don't understand why it's so wrong to explore the world to be able to explore yourself. Now I'm just being cheesy, maybe I've been watching too many episodes of "Girls." Or maybe I am a girl!!?!?!?