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Wild how they only had a women’s French open this year

Yesterday we were at an event with lots of friends, and my boyfriend was telling them that he'll move in with me and one of them especially was so sweet so supportive and we invited her to come over anytime and she was so excited about that? So interesting to me to look back on the past year, I’m still in the same apartment but since exactly one year ago, the place was practically emptied and I moved in with my parents, then slept on a mattress in the practically empty apartment, struggled with the WiFi provider, had to wait months for my new sofa to arrive, had a hard time finding my dream bed, and then slowly things were falling into place and now this is a beautiful cozy apartment that has everything but only lacks a bit of decor :-) and my boyrfiend is here :-)

my car is dying and/or will cost anywhere between 800-2100 euros to fix, depending on who would do it. so i need to get used to driving other cars and it's making me CRY i dont want to let go of this car. i drove her to my first job. i've had 2 mcr cds my aunt copied for me in there since the first day i drove the car after getting my license. i sat in this car crying more times than i can count. i feel so safe in this car. i have already sunk too much money into this car considering how rarely i need to drive her so it doesn't make sense to pay for this repair also, and to just continue paying and paying...

i think i'm a period panties truther now.....used to hate them but idk i do feel freer than wearing pads and it's more comfortable and less hassle. just ordered a period panties bikini let's see... i'm not shoving shit up my pussy so it's pads or this. hi

my boyfriend is starting a new job nearby me next week, he talked to his landlady about moving out of his place and i just emailed mine to ask her permission for him to move in with me :-) hihi. and he met the rest of my family this morning phew

how has everybody been doing.... i went jogging this morning, had a quick coffee with my boyfriend before he left with friends for something, then i had a shower and now i am eating bircher müsli with yogurt and so much fruit it's testing the border of bircher müsli with fruit / fruit salad with some oats and nuts and seeds etc. looking forward to my day home alone hihi i'll read a bit, clean the kitchen (we simultaneously made pasta salad, rhubarb streuselkuchen and baguettes yesterday and then immediately had to leave for a bbq with my parents and came home at like 10... so you can imagine the state of this tiny kitchen. my boyfriend started on it while i was jogging thankfully...) and then i'll spend some time gardening at my parents' :) hope everybody is having a lovely sunny day and being safe in the heat

Reading Susan Sonntag for our academic reading circle, had a phd seminar last week, I’m off work for the second week now to focus on my phd and I AM getting mad that this isn’t my full time…reading illness as metaphor and all of sontags literary examples are sooo up my alley I’m enjoying myself immensely… administrative issue about my phd is moving along and now out of my hands too. Woman from our cohort is doing a sabbatical to move along her PhD I love that for her so much…….i love you academia I am sorry I have forsaken you

Kinda crazy to me the way people will post all these intimate glimpses into their apartments and even bedrooms on tumblr. Like it’s none of my business but why would you do that. for everybody to gawk at. And then on the other end we’re all staring and analyzing and comparing ourselves to it. I do believe we’re not meant to have all that beamed into our brain. I feel like I’m losing my sense of self & taste & identity because I see a thousand photos of curated bedrooms each day