I really need to ease up on all the sugar i've been consuming because i'm starting to feel the affects but I'm getting SO huge and don't want to stop : ( Plus there is absolutely nothing quite like being stuffed immobile with a belly full of rich cake, cream and gainer shakes blissed out on the intense sugar high.

I often feel like I'm never going to be big enough, so it's been amazing to see these new videos of myself and have a mild out of body experience* thinking, 'they're huge' and then quickly reminding myself that the huge person in question is indeed me, like, holy shit, wow, that's me, all of that is my body, I really have gotten big. This has been the most gratifying my gain has ever been and I think every extra pound is only going to be more fun from here on out. I finally feel like my body is mine and that I am where I want to be.

My mouth is so sweet from those biscuits and protein shake I had before breakfast but it's lunch time now and I can't say no to the ice-cream shake and cake I have for afterwards 🥵