Deleted all my posts because of the malicious messages from anons lately. It shifted my perspectives on my presence and participation in this digital space. I always delete those and never post them because they just don't deserve the space or attention. It wouldn't be honest for me to say that those never upset us even if we already know that most of them are submitted by disgusting anons plus some fans who have maybe taken the whole parasocial relationships to harmful levels. I canāt empathise with hateful anons because Iāve only ever sent anon messages to mutuals to lowkey tell them that I appreciate their existence, and that they make me laugh. Iām also cringe and incoherent when I do it. Full of emojis obviously. Those disgusting anons said I went too far with my jokes about specifically men. Honestly what they've sent actually reads like whatever is the opposite of backhanded compliments, but still completely disgusting. Backhanded insults?
Those anons obviously didnāt attach any links so I donāt even know which are the ones that got them so rattled. I have two most likely guesses. First being the comical series of pics of Son Heung Min which were obviously done affectionately. If I ever were to go too far with it, @steeple-sinderby-wanderers would be the first to tell me off. Itās her favourite you know. I was not joking in my pinned post that I posted previously about wanting to see him win ballon d'ors and whatever else he wants in the future, so why would I ever try to offend or hurt a footballer I think so highly of? I honestly hope it was not because of those. A big reason why I love āsportsblrā is because it is not connected or linked to any official accounts of footballers or their clubs. It also just doesn't make sense that a professional player would scroll through "sportsblr". It has the vibe of like an old skatepark the girlies just feel sentimental about almost.
My second guess is that itās because of the one about James Maddison's victory over that inferior one? I can't even bring myself to call him a footballer. If those anons were triggered by that one, then happy days, because I donāt even care about that. Because the only thing I worry about is accidentally offending and hurting footballers that I am actually a fan of. The ones that actually give everlasting meaning and beauty to the sport. The ones whose glorious moves make history. If the hate came from the fans of Son Heung Min or other footballers that I support, then I've got to say, if it's not already obvious, that I never meant to offend or insult anyone with regards to that. Iām not apologising, simply clarifying. I have nothing to apologise for so it would be very silly for me to do so.
The purpose of this note is to explain the deletion of my posts. I don't think I will be posting anything any time soon which may be a good thing because whenever I watch football with people they get annoyed at me for using my phone a lot to check what the girlies on āsportsblrā have said about anything. Iāll still to do it obviously, but with a little less participation and interaction. I don't have any friends who are Tottenham fans which is honestly a little frustrating, and the reason why I get so attached to āspursblrā. I don't need it like I need I don't know coffee, but it's still nice you know. The fans on other platforms just don't do it like "sportsblr". The cutest ones mingle here.
Iāll continue watching and supporting all the FCs and players that I support even though I wonāt be posting, for now. Iāll always come back COYS. I know futbofurbo never writes in a proper way like this, but itās still her, itās me, just without my silly cat persona. I just didnāt want to discount any seriousness by using cute emojis.
