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Ok maybe i'm dumb as fuck but i just realized til now that the term leech was foreshadowing. Leeches are bloodsucking parasites. Automae consume blood from heartstone. WHAT

Jude Bellingham was kinda everywhere the past days because of the world cup and i could only think of when i made my Renegades playlists and was looking for pictures for the Adrian one. Turns out racism is real cause not a single picture on Pinterest showed black people when i searched "painter"; and when i searched "painter boy" or "painter boyfriend", only white dudes appeared. Then i tried searching here on tumblr and by that point i was so desperate that i thought "whatever man, any black dude by now works 😭". And that's when i found him. Pretty easily i'd say, he's quite popular here, with all his fanfics and stuff lol. In the end i decided not to use any picture of him whatsoever, cause i don't think he really resembles Adrian (his skin is darker than Bellingham's in my mind), but it was fun getting to know a nice and good-looking dude. Now every time he shows up on my social media i can't help but think of Adrian, even tho i don't think they look alike that much, i ended up associating that man with Adrian and therefore i ended up liking him 😭 help.

All i'm saying is a Crier's War vampire au would make sense because of how automae used to consume fresh blood to survive.

If it seems like i'm over here more frequently and posting more stuff it's because i am lol. Kinda re-organized my life and my routines just so i could post about Crier's War, then i thought about how i also have a lot to post about TLC and Renegades, and then i just... stayed like this. Idk it's really crazy to think about it cause it's very hard for me to change stuff i have been doing the same way for years. But then i just... could. I found a way to be more present. Thank god cause i love being on tumblr lol.