thoughts

I became that monster that I never wanted to be..

I can’t wait for Summer.. I want to go on adventures. 

I wish I could start my job now so I can leave this miserable, hellish place that I unfortunately call home.  

I’m done with family drama. 

If only you could look at me as a daughter rather than a responsibility. If only you could love me the way mom loved me. I want us to be ok but I realized a month ago that we will never have that father and daughter relationship. It’s depressing. It makes me so depress and you go out your way and not care. Mom wouldn’t want this at all. Why can’t you just be there for me? Why can’t you just be my dad.

Refund season is here! I hope I got more money than last year cause I really really need it. 

My dad doesn't love my mom. How do I know? Well they were married for 23 years till my mom passed away. He remarried two years later. What does that say to me? That he didn't really love her and that disappoints me. How could you come home one day and tell me that I have a new mom just like that? Is he aware how disrespectful that is? If he's not happy with his life then he can go to Philippines. I'm not happy being here in the same house with him as well. He gave up on my mom. He gave up on me. If he wants to start his new life with his new family then let him be.Somehow... I’ll manage on my own.

I like working. I receive money that I earn. I also like my patient. Her house gives me the creeps but she’s wonderful <3

This is probably why some people doesn’t like you and stopped being with friends with you. You’re a bitch, I know you say it straightforward but you have a major attitude problem. I don’t want to deal with you anymore. Bye.